Hi all! Sorry, this fic won't be the greatest. I've never written yaoi before. OOCness ahead.

Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade; it belongs to Aoki Takao.

Chapter One of Three

Tala's P.O.V.

The first day I saw Kai, I felt an attraction to him. Being a dumb little kid, I thought it was because I wanted to be friends with him. But now I know that I love him.

He's brilliant, the way he moves, the way he speaks, and those beautiful eyes, hiding true emotion in their strangely colored depths. I wished I could be with him, hold him, kiss him….I wished he felt the same as I did, this deep feeling of love.

But no, I didn't think he'd feel the same way. I figured he wasn't homosexual, but, you never know. So one day, I decided to give it a shot, you know, walk up to him and be all like, "Hey Kai, what's up? You know what? We've been friends for a long time and all that time I was feeling more. But hey, can you blame me? Dude, you're, like, completely sexy!" Well, not quite like that, but either way, I must have had a hell of a lot of confidence that day.

On with the story, I walked slowly up to Kai, who was practicing with his beyblade, and I stopped next to him, keeping my gaze on his spinning blade.

"Hey Kai."

"Hey."

I shifted my gaze to face him. "I…have something to say."

He must have sensed the notes of hesitation and importance in my voice because Dranzer flew back to his hand and he turned to me, giving me an expectant look with those eyes...

I looked toward the ground silently. 'Oh crap oh crap oh crap! What do I say now?'

"What is it?" Kai's question startled me out of my thoughts.

My gaze turned to him and I could read the hint of concern in his eyes. "Well…"

Everything was silent. He stared at me, thinking hell knows what, and I stared at him, thinking about how I was going to say what I came to say.

"What is it?" he repeated.

"There's…something…that I've…been keeping hidden…for a long time," I said slowly, "and…I think…I should tell you. I don't know how you're going to react…but…we'll…still be friends, no matter what?" I felt like such a moron, I sounded like a stupid little girl, I was being completely unlike myself…and I didn't really care, I just wanted to be with Kai.

Kai raised an eyebrow. "Yes, we'll be friends. Just spit it out."

I gulped before continuing. "I…I…I kind of…have…feelings…for you." I wanted to run away, but something kept me frozen to where I was standing.

Kai looked indifferent for a moment before smiling. "What? Feelings for me? Interesting joke, Tala. I almost believed you. Why don't you go say that to Bryan or Spencer, see how they react?"

He turned back to the beydish, and the smile disappeared as he launched Dranzer. I stood there, feeling completely broken and idiotic, but I forced a small smile and said, "Yeah, I think I'll do that." With that, I turned and hurried out of the room and back to my own. I flopped down on the bed, feeling as if tears were going to slip from my eyes, but I refused to cry.

After that, things went back to normal with Kai and I. Well, at least he seemed the same, and I acted the same on the outside, but inside, I was heartbroken. It felt as if my soul had been shattered and I couldn't find all the pieces. Though the more I thought aboutthe whole incident,the more I thought, 'Kai and I aren't meant for each other. He's just a heartless jerk, anyway. All I fell in love with was his appearance. The only reason he's back with us is so he can win the Tournament. Friends? Yeah, right. Maybe we were friends before Kai used Black Dranzer that day and his memories were suppressed. But now, he's just power hungry. We may call each other 'friend' but it's no longer true. I don't need him, no one does. Especially me. So I should just forget him.' And the more I thought that, the more it became true.

The days went on, and Kai and I never really spoke to each other or had anything to do with each other. My heart was healing as I lied to myself that I didn't love him, though it seemed to be the truth; I didn't feel as if I was lying to myself. My life was going well without my mind being plagued by Kai, so I was fine.

But one night, I was up late, because I was bored and I didn't feel like sleeping. So, I wandered the hallways. I didn't get far before coming to Kai's room. I stopped outside the door, staring at it. "I don't need you, Kai," I whispered to myself. I stood silently after thatuntil I heard something on the other side of the door: moaning. 'Kai must be having a nightmare.' I smirked a little. 'Well good, he deserves it.' For some reason, I opened the door slightly. Kai was tossing and turning in his bed, muttering incoherently. I watched for a few moments, indifferent, when Kai suddenly awoke and shot up to a sitting position, breathing heavily. Then, he noticed me. We stared at each other, distress hinting itself on Kai's features, and I continued to look indifferent.

"Tala…," he started softly, trailing off.

"Yeah?" I replied monotonously. Normally, I would have cared about Kai reliving some horrible part of his past, but I was feeling much differently toward him, thinking of him as heartless and uncaring, not my friend, just some jerk.

The hints of distress disappeared, and Kai looked like his typical emotionless self. "Today…you forgot," he said in his normal tough voice.

"Forgot?" I didn't really care what I forgot.

"Today…you always remember today. But you didn't this year. Usually you mention what today is, but this year, you didn't. You didn't even talk to me today. You forgot."

"Forgot what?"

He stared at me, emotionlessly. "Today…" he whispered.

I was getting extremely annoyed by him not telling me what I had forgotten the day was, and how little kid-like he sounded."What's today? What did I forget? Just tell me, damn it."

He hesitated. "My birthday."

I kept my indifferent look. "Oh, yeah…I guess it is." I shrugged. "So?"

"You usually remember, that's all…"

"Well, I forgot. Get over it. It should be expected no one would remember your birthday, you're not really a blessing to the world, Kai."

Silence greeted us.

"I know," Kai said softly, "but you—"

"All right, I get it, I usually remember. Why should I care?" I said, annoyance clearly stated in my voice. With that, I turned and left Kai's room.

--Okay, did that suck? Be truthful, now. Please review, tell me if I should continue.

have a nice day

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