Read me FIRST: Okay please be nice it's my first attempt at a fanfiction, so don't make me cry! lol The first chapters are a little shaky and I already have the whole thing witten out but I my revise them before posting. I'm really just trying to get my feet wet here.

I marked each veiw, you'll see how. The only thing is I used Katsuya as Jounouchi's first name. There is so much controversy over which is his first and which is the last so here is a heads up that Katsuya is used as the first in the story.

Warning: There are definate male/male relationships, abuse, foul language, and other things not good for the kiddies.

Also I don't own anything in the story cept for the idea and a few choice characters. Please reveiw

Hospital again?

Katsuya

Where am I? I'm blinking and trying to look around I can't see much but there is an annoying beeping and the smell of antiseptic is in the air. I've woken a few times to this same sound and smell; I'm in the hospital. It's not often I actually make it to the hospital, I guess someone with half a heart actually decided to help me out. It probably wasn't anyone in the neighborhood since they all knew what happens and don't give a damn, no one cares.

I think I can hear voices outside but I'm not sure, probably my doctors and they've most likely just noticed that I have no money and they won't be getting paid for taking care of me, more debts…great.

"Well its about time Mr. Jounouchi, you've been out for nearly a month now," a sing song voice spoke to me. I nearly jumped out of the bed despite all the things I am hooked up to. Nearly a month…this was the worse time yet and it would be really bad if he kicks me out as soon as I get home. I can't even remember what had happened. "Mr. Jounouchi you will start a few tests later today and then you should be all finished up and ready to release." I knew they'd do that after the tests were done, they do every time just to cover their ass'. They run tests then kick me out, oh well all for the best I suppose.

Man I think I'm in more pain now then I was before, I think as I clutch at my side. I look out the window and I see that it's raining. That's just perfect but I can't stay here any longer. I won't even bother checking out I'll just leave.

You have to wonder sometimes, why there are so many stairs in hospitals? But I'm on the ground floor now but I'm not sure where to go really. Do I go home? I probably shouldn't, knowing dad he'll be still drinking at the moment. I guess the best place is Yugi's but I rather not bother him and explaining why I'm still not in the hospital after just waking will be somewhat difficult. So I'll just wonder around, it not like anyone will notice I'm missing. The bridge is up ahead I guess I can stay there and think.

I've always loved water and ice. So cool and deep, something you could just sink into and get lost in forever. It's too bad it's really not possible I'd like to get lost in the ever-changing waters. The cools blue exterior hides so much from the world, I've always wondered what lies at the bottom of the ocean, and probably another world.A nicer more beautiful world filled with beautiful things not found here. It must be so perfect down there. I can definitely understand Mako's love for it. I'd like to be at the bottom so I could hide from him and have some happiness…

"It's rather chilly this time of year I'd recommend that you don't go for a swim," an approaching voice said behind me. I don't even turn around and I keep my eyes at the water. I'm not really in the mood for small talk with a nosey stranger. However he doesn't seem to want to leave me alone and keeps talking. "Icy water hides many things from the world. I come here sometimes to think about that, that's what I'm guessing you were doing." I nodded and he continued. "I have a theory about the water, do you?" I nodded, "Care to share it with me?" I looked at the dusky voiced man who was now standing next to me and raised an eyebrow at him. For whatever reason I talked, I'm not sure why, I guess, I just wanted someone to listen to me about something thoughtful.

"I love water, as you said. It's always changing yet it stays the same. I could look at it for hours, just watching the waves roll in and out andin again. The secrets it must hide. Nothing that beautiful and dangerous looking could hold anything but beauty at its bottom. I'd like to…" I stopped myself suddenly aware that I was rambling and telling more then I wished to. However he seemed to know where I was going with it.

"Appearances are deceiving," he said, "They may look like all they hold is beauty but in reality they hold great pain, or vice versa. Water is the same as that. They say water is a beautiful color and shines with the sun but they often forget what the color of blue means." I cocked my head at him but I wasn't sure he saw me because he was hooded and I couldn't see anything but his nose. He seemed to know I had though. "Blue is the color of calm and of soothing but it has another meaning, sadness. It's a strange color, at times it acts a refection of what one feels and at others it completely hides the true emotions behind it creating a sort of ice wall that nothing can go through." I had the feeling we weren't just talking about water anymore but of human emotions and maybe in a way his stranger was trying to help me. "I know you probably think I'm crazy, who knows I probably am but the point is brown eyes, with those soft puppy eyes of yours you're secret is not well guarded and any blue who hides can see the hurt deep within yours." With his last words he turned and walked away and I watched him. Of all the weird turns of events I never expected something like this would happen. I whispered goodbye to him although I'm sure he hadn't heard me but all the same I felt better saying something to him. For whatever reason I felt somewhat stronger then before and I headed to home and to dad…

Seto

Those morons at Kaiba Corp. drive me crazy it's a no wonder that I have to be so harsh. In reality I am harsh and cold but…there is a lot more to me then that. I just don't like to admit it.

Yeah I'm headed to the bridge again I need to think. I past a pet store with some of the cutest dogs, yes I said cute. The great Seto Kaiba said 'cute' and not in the respects of tormenting someone. I'm almost there now but there is someone at the bridge, just perfect what else is going to piss me off today? I stop though and stare at the back of the boy standing there. Gold hair, gold somewhat messy gold hair…could it be Jou?

Bah there is no reason to care he is just a lowly dog, but then again he is the only person in this whole town that might understand. Even if I do go up there he doesn't have to know its me I think as I lift my hood over my head to conceal my face and start to walk to him. I don't even know what I'm even really saying to him for the first few minutes, I just start talking. I can hear him though and I'm for once in my life I'm feeling as if I'm not the only one that goes through crap.

I remember the days where he came in battered and bruised with all the tell tail signs of abuse. No one else would notice though, that is unless they had been through it too. As much as I hate to admit it the dog and I have a few things in common and I suppose that's why I obsess about him so much.

He's showing me another part of him right now, a part I've never seen before. His voice is different, calm, sad in a longing way and not only that but that cocky tone that is almost always present is completely gone. I chuckle at myself inwardly; I really am something else. The people I claim to hate and tortcher I spend my time watching and obsessing about. It's rather pathetic on my part. That's just what he made me into, so I guess I have no real choice to be what I am.

I'm not sure what made me say it to him but I did, "I know you probably think I'm crazy, who knows I probably am but the point is brown eyes, with those soft puppy eyes of yours you're secret is not well guarded and any blue who hides can see the hurt deep within yours." Of course after I said it I felt the implications I had just made and turned around and walked away as fast as I could in the small chance that he would ask my name or something of the sort. First time in a very long time that I had felt vulnerable like that and was not a feeling I liked nor did I like that fact that it was the pup that made me feel that way.

I should probably call for my limo but I don't really want to in this depressing area. I could use the air I suppose; Mokuba is always saying I'm inside too much so I this is good for me, I think while I smile lightly. There is something else that is good for me too that he mentions…

That dog thinks he had everyone fooled or at least hoped. He'd probably never believe that the one person that wasn't fooled by his lame excuses is his worst enemy. That does make sense after all I'd have to know a great deal about his behavior to be able to get under his skin like I do. Of course the half-wit would never notice my true intentions that are completely out there that no one would believe if they knew anything about me.

I look up and realize I know what neighbor hood I'm in; I've been here a few times. A shut in lives in the red house and the retired murder in the yellow, but I don't really care about those houses. The broken down graying house that looks more like a shed, with broken windows has always been the house I was interested in. Well maybe not the house it's self but the golden pup that lives there. It makes me sound like a stalker, I know, but maybe I am in a way.

I know everything about that pup that has ever been recorded, his birth, parents divorce, his gang days, everything. I know a great deal about his dear old dad too. He started off bad but he met his ex-wife and he stopped for a while but old habits die-hard. I smirk at that thought about old habits, it's something I know all too well, but I'm not all that important.

My house is coming into view now; shit it's big. I remember when I first moved in I think Mokuba and I got lost about 20 times just trying to find the front door, even after living in a big house this one was just huge beyond comparison. I use to wonder why rich people had such big houses when I was younger and now that I am rich I still don't have a clue but I still went and bought the biggest damn house I could find. Despite it's size it takes very little management. I have a few maids come in now and then and two drivers but otherwise that's all. It's quiet there a lot and I like it like that sometimes but sometimes it's too quiet especially when Mokuba isn't home for the night.

It's already dark inside and so quiet I can hear myself breath. I hang up my coat and head up stairs hoping that Mokuba didn't see that I was gone and is now waiting in my room. I open the door and he isn't here so I walk in easily. Undressing I look over my extremely large room that is ridden with Blue-Eyes. My only companion and the one thing that has kept me strong all this time. I remember the first time I saw blue eyes, I don't know why I had to have that card but I did and I had to be the best. Everything changed that day I saw that card, the day I brought it to the work building with me. That bastard got what was coming to him but I'm still unsure of what I had seen and done. It hadn't mattered at the time just that I was finally rid of him and it will feel just as good to Jou when he is finally rid of his bastards although one may be me. I have to chuckle about that, I want him to stop being such a baby and get rid of his demons but I'm one of them, it's interesting how that works.