I couldn't imagine that this was how my life ended up, I was sitting in my bed with his arms wrapped around my waist as he feverishly kissed my neck. I know I shouldn't have forgiven him as easily as I did, after the whole leaving me to practically die in the forest, while he ran off to deal with his feelings, but what can I say I love Edward Cullen with ever ounce of my mortal being. I still couldn't get over the fact that he had just proposed, but I still had the never-ending question in the back of my mind. Will he ever change me? I needed to know so I decided to muster all the courage I could and ask him.

"Edward…" I asked barely above a whisper.

"Yes love?"

"Can I just say how happy I am that you're back."

"I'm so glad you came to rescue me I don't know why I ever left you in the first place, I'd do anything to keep you with me forever."

"Would you change me tonight then?"

He growled with too much anger behind it in response and I knew right away that that wasn't a good thing. "You know I will not do that to you right now. I already promised that I would when we graduate, but that's it. There's no way I can take your life from you before you even have a chance to do that."

"But why?" was all I could manage before the tears started falling, "You can promise me what I want, but you never do anything about it. And all I can do is hope that one day you'll actually give in and do what's best for US. So change me, or you can just leave and come back when you finally make up your mind." I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders, sure he had been back for a month now, but these thoughts had been lingering in my head the entire time.

"If that's what you want, and since I can't force myself to change you yet, I guess I will see you later. I love you Bella Swan." He got off the bed and before I knew it he was gone.

How could he just do that to me? I was finally able to convince myself he was here to stay this time and he just goes off and leaves me. I no longer had Jacob Black as a friend so any inkling I had of getting someone to let me lean on was out of the question. Why had I given him the ultimatum like that? I love him unconditionally and that's all that matters. Why couldn't I wait just a few months longer and he would change me no questions asked. I decided that since I wouldn't be able to stand being around Fork's any longer when I wasn't with him, to call my mom and let her know I would be joining her and Phil in Jacksonville for the rest of the school year. First I had to tell Charlie. I walked down the stairs ver carefully making sure that I wouldn't fall. I made all the way down and walked into the family room where he was watching the game.

"Hey dad."

"Hey Bell's what's up?" He asked still keeping his eyes on the game.

"I was just wondering if I could finish out the school in Jacksonville with mom?"

"What about that Cullen boy I bet he isn't going to be very happy with this."

"This is about him actually."

"Oh okay, well Bella if this is what you want then who am I to stop you? I'm just glad you're not moping around the house this time like you did those months ago."

"Don't worry dad I think I will be perfectly fine this time."

"Okay I guess I should talk to your mom to make the arrangements, but if I ever get a call saying you're moping all the time then Dr. Cullen better know a good plastic surgeon because Edward's face will be beyond the normal healing process." I suppressed a giggle when he told me this, if only he knew that he couldn't do anything that would damage Edward's face.

"Thanks so much dad."

"No problem, but I am going to miss your cooking around here." With that he went off to phone mom, and I went upstairs to do the next thing that I had to do.

I sat at my desk thinking what I could possibly start the letter off with, and then the pen in my hand touched the paper, and I lost all control of the word that were being scrawled onto the paper.

Dear Edward.

Let me just say that I love you with all my heart, and I will always love you until I die, but right now things are complicated and I don't think that we should be around each other. I am leaving not forever but long enough until you think about what I said, because it is still how I feel. I think it would be best if you stayed here and don't come find me until you are confident that you will change me. Right now I still love you, but if you come after me and still are dead set on leaving me this way then I might not love you anymore. So good bye for now, and don't you dare go back to the Voltera again.

Your Lamb,

Bella

I left the note on my pillow where I knew he would find it. Charlie walked into my room and I had just enough time to hide the note before he noticed it.

"So Renee said your plane is at 4:25 today and the tickets will be at the help desk for you, and she will be there to pick you up at around 2:00 in the morning their time. She wasn't sure whether you wanted to be there right away or not. So she decided the sooner the better."

"I want to go there as soon as possible." I inwardly thanked mom, because if I had to wait until tomorrow I might have changed my mind.

"Well do you need some help packing?"

"Sure, thanks dad."

We had most of my things packed with in the next hour and a half and it was nearing three thirty so I figured if I needed anything that wasn't packed, I would get it at my mom's house. We drove to the airport silently. I had placed the letter on my pillow right before we left and now there was no turning back.