TITLE: From The Other Side of the Mirror
AUTHOR: Kami Beverly
FANDOM: YuGiOh
GENRE: Angst/Tragedy
RATING: PG-13
PAIRING: SetoKatsuya
WARNING: angst, suicide
DISCLAMER: I don't own YuGiOh. But I do own the poem, and I have proof, so don't try to steal it.
SUMMARY: Jou's POV. What life is like on the other side- being loved isn't always the best thing in the world
NOTES: this is a companion fic to Never Meant to Be. One-shot
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He had been brooding in his near-empty home, berating himself for refusing his friends' invitation to hang out- he'd had a feeling he'd be needed, but that had yet to come true. That's when the phone decided to ring. "Moshi moshi."
There come some days when I'm always worse for wear
And I come to wonder how it is that somehow you're always there
I don't know much about you, but you seem to know me
But the ends are hardly even there, so I can't make them meet
Then came the panicked voice from the receiver. "Jounouchi-kun, it's Mokuba. You have to help Seto! He was in a terrible mood when he left, I think he's gonna try to kill himself!" The babbling was chocked with sobs and the blonde felt his heart contract, both from shock and fear. "What? Where is he?" "I think he went to the bridge," the boy cried. "NANI?" He hung up instantly and grabbed his tattered school jacket, running out full speed.
Sometimes I wonder how much I really know
And what your shadowed looks really do mean
If you're only trying to figure me out
And if you're much more than you seem
All he could do to ignore the pain in his sides as he ran was analyze the situation. Why had Mokuba called him of all people? What was driving Seto Kaiba to such an anticlimactic end? …What did the strange look in the young CEO's eyes as he glanced at Katsuya really mean- and did it have a hand in the situation? Jou felt his heart sink as he came to the inevitable, albeit cliché, realization that his greatest enemy was in love with him and that, yes, Seto's demise was, at least partially, his fault.
And I think this means you love me
But I hope to God it isn't true
Because I can't return what you deserve
And I so desperately don't want to hurt you
Katsuya felt tears- both from the cold and from the twist of unbearable guilt in his stomach- sting his eyes. It was said to be his 'natural charisma' that attracted others to him, and as much as that might help with the one he wanted, it implanted in him the ability to destroy those that loved him- a feeling he could not force himself, try as he might, to return. He wanted so to make everyone happy, but it seemed that no matter what he did, someone would lose. This time it was Seto Kaiba, and this time the CEO was losing entirely too much. He ran faster still, desperate to arrive on time. He vaguely realized he was calling the other's name hesitantly as blue eyes bore into him- for once not cold and icy, but warm and gentle- but hopelessly melancholic. The sad, loving smile that graced the brunet's face solidly set the lump in his throat, and he gave a strangled cry as parting words slipped from the other's mouth as he plunged towards the waters below.
And it's another down, and several more to go
And it isn't from lack of trying that I can't fill all the holes
I never wanted you to love me, didn't want for you to break
I'll still try to stop the cycle, if only for your sake