K ppl this is my first ikarishipping so there will probably be some OOCs. Flames are accepted as usual as well as comments and advice! I wont ask for 5 reviews this time, I just hope I get some ^^. So here goes!

And the disclaimer: I don't own pokemon, but I do own this story, and if I did own pokemon I'd make a HECK of a lot of changes.

Lets see… how can I physically do something to mentally solve my little predicament? I guess I could:

Run into an unknown woods, faint from exhaustion and die

Bash my head against the wall and till I get amnesia or

Plain suicide

All options sound very acceptable-

(k the stuff in " " is shinji's conscience ;D)

"Oh quit pitying yourself and admit it."

Shut up. Since when since when did anyone ever listen to you.

"Point taken… But come on! She's cute right?"

…

"And the way she tilts her head when she smiles at you… okay, never mind that last bit, she's never smiled at you."

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"And don't even try and tell me she's not smokn hot in that miniskirt of hers!"

… Hn…

"Or how soft and kissable her pink lips are…"

…

"How about those touchable b-"

Enough! I get it, just shut up you pervert!

"So you agree with me then, eh Shinji?"

…

"EH Shinji!"

God you're as annoying as she is! No wonder no one listens to you.

"Admit it then!"

What?

"That you love her you idiot!"

If I do will you go away?

"Just say it!"

Fine! I, Shinji… mumblemumblemumblemumble…

"What was that?"

I, Shinji! Murmurmurmur Hikari…

"Say it again to my face!"

I, Shinji, love Hikari dammit now go away!

"Saying that felt good didn't it? Go on! Say it again!"

… No…

"Yes!"

… No way…

"Go on!"

Fuck off.

"Not till you say it!"

Fine… I love Hikari… there I said it now go piss off someone else!

"Say it again."

What? Piss off? Okay, piss off!

"No, that you love her!"

Alright, alright, I… gag, love… Hikari.

"And again."

I love Hikari.

"Again."

I love her.

"Now louder!"

I love her!

"Now say her name 3 times."

Hikari, Hikari, Hikari.

"Good! Now go find yourself a shrink!"

I don't need a shrink.

"Says the guy who's conversing with his conscience and would have willingly committed suicide instead of admit his feelings if it wasn't for my help!"

Aniki came bounding up the stairs. Smoke filled the entire kitchen and was entering the living room. The 14 year-old man for the job was asleep at 7:03 am. Aniki barged into the room and shouted, "Shinji, Shinji! You needa s-"

"I do not need a shrink!" Shinji sat up and shouted, recollected his thoughts. He was in his room, awoken at 7:04 on a Saturday morning by Aniki's racket, and he smelt smoke. The smoke, Shinji guessed, was coming from the kitchen, probably caused by Aniki's desire to cook something, "Oh hell no, not in my kitchen you don't!"

To be continued...

so my first chapter is done! ^^ i'm hoping i'll be able to finish this story before my break starts. BTW i wont have my computer then either -.- I hope you enjoyed and PLZ LEAVE A REVIEW! thx!