A/N: Yes, this was posted under a different account before, but I decided to move it onto this one. Please review.
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter.
So Wrong
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It was all so wrong ;
Yet I'd never felt anything so right.
I first realized in sixth year, when you were in fifth;
But, when I thought about it, I realized I'd been denying it for months.
And for good reason, too –
It was all so wrong ;
You were one of my best friends.
You were the person one of my other best friends fancied.
You were my other best friend's little sister!
…Not to mention the fact that you were a girl.
It was all so wrong ;
That I found you so beautiful.
That my heart skipped a beat at the sight of you.
That I found myself stealing glances at you, blushing when you caught my gaze.
…That I was so attracted to you.
It was all so wrong ;
I loved your voice.
I loved when you said my name.
I love your smile, your body, your personality, your laugh…
…I loved everything about you.
It was all so wrong ;
I made sure nobody could ever know.
I made sure nobody could ever even guess.
I was afraid of what other people would think.
…But, mostly, I was afraid that it would ruin our friendship.
It was all so wrong ;
I came to the point where I tried avoiding you.
I tried to act like I didn't care.
But, I could see that I was hurting your feelings;
So I stopped trying to stay away.
It was all so wrong ;
I was so confused.
I was so jealous.
I was so frustrated.
I was constantly irritable.
It was all so wrong ;
You knew me too well.
You could see that something wasn't right.
You asked me what was wrong; I told you it was nothing.
You promised me that I could tell you anything.
It was all so wrong ;
Every day, my feelings grew deeper.
Every day, I became more confused.
Every day, I felt more affectionate towards you.
Every day, I admired you more.
It was all so wrong ;
I didn't want to admit how deep my feelings were.
I tried to convince myself that I would get over it.
I tried to tell myself that it was just a little crush.
...But I was completely head over heels.
It was all so wrong ;
I began to hold back a little less.
I began to relax a little bit.
I began to enjoy my time with you more.
…I began to show too much.
It was all so wrong ;
I wondered if you saw the look in my eyes whenever I talked to you.
I wondered if you noticed the way I downright gawked at you.
I wondered if you saw the way I was always blushing around you…
…I wondered if you knew.
It was all so wrong ;
One day, you asked me who I fancied.
My cheeks burned as I replied, "Nobody."
I refused to meet your gaze.
You told me that I could trust you.
It was all so wrong ;
I wondered if I should tell you.
I'd kept it secret for months.
I was afraid.
In this one conversation, I could ruin our entire friendship.
It was all so wrong ;
I asked you what you would do if it wasn't a boy that I liked.
You seemed surprised as the words sunk in.
Without any further questions, you began to guess.
I blushed more deeply than ever, regretting having said anything.
It was all so wrong ;
Finally, you'd run out of girls to guess.
You were silent for a moment.
Then, finally, quietly, you asked, "Is it me?"
My heart skipped a beat.
It was all so wrong ;
I didn't answer at first.
Your voice shook slightly as you asked again, "Hermione, is it – is it me?"
I met your gaze - we were both blushing furiously.
Silently, with a sinking feeling in my stomach, I nodded.
It was all so wrong ;
We both just stared at each other for a moment.
You seemed at a loss for words.
I stood up.
"I have to go."
It was all so wrong ;
I ran away.
I knew that I'd ruined everything.
I went into my dorm, and, alone, jumped into my bed.
I could feel the tears in my eyes spill over my cheeks.
It was all so wrong ;
How could I have been so stupid?
Why did I have to ruin everything?
Why did I have to tell you?
Why did I have to love you?
It was all so wrong ;
Finally, I stopped crying.
I was exhausted.
I felt terrible.
Without realizing it, I fell asleep.
It was all so wrong ;
When I woke up, the room wasn't empty anymore.
You were there.
Sitting at the edge of my bed, you watched as I opened my eyes.
As usual, my heart skipped a beat at the sight of you.
It was all so wrong ;
You spoke first.
"Are you okay?"
"Do I look like I'm okay?"
"Hermione..."
It was all so wrong ;
Without saying anything else, you threw your arms around me.
Your hair smelled like strawberries.
You were so warm, so soft.
Without thinking, I hugged you back.
It was all so wrong ;
Again, you spoke.
"I just wish you'd told me sooner."
"What do you mean?"
You pulled away and looked into my eyes.
It was all so wrong ;
We were so close, I had to catch my breath.
Electricity shot through me as you touched your hand to my cheek.
"I mean that I feel the same way."
My heart didn't skip a beat – it stopped altogether.
It was all so crazy ;
You leaned in and kissed me.
I couldn't believe it.
I'd fantasized about this so many times…
This was too good to be true.
It was all so insane ;
For a moment, I was too shocked to respond.
Then, I began to kiss back.
Your hands were around my neck.
Mine slid down to hold your waist.
It was all so amazing ;
We were full-on snogging.
Our hands were running all over each other's bodies.
I'd never felt so much passion.
I loved every second of it.
It was all so fantastic ;
After about a minute, we broke apart.
Our arms were still wrapped around each other.
We looked into each other's eyes.
Blushing, we both broke into grins, until we were smiling widely - and began laughing like idiots.
It was all so wild ;
As we finally stopped laughing, you entwined your fingers through mine.
I sighed happily.
"I love you, Ginny," I said softly.
"I love you, too," you whispered, and, with a giddy grin, pulled my face back to yours.
It was all so wrong ;
But, it was love.
It was true.
It was pure.
And, if it's love – no matter if it's between a boy and a girl… two boys… or two girls – if it's true, then is it really wrong?
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