Hidden Feelings
Chapter 1;(Grace P.O.V.)
When I heard the news that 'Jika' happened, it killed me. It wounded me, A LOT. Although I saw it coming. No one realized it but I watched. I watched carefully. I watched Jerry slowly fall in love with her. I watch Mika wrap him around her little finger. I hated her so much. But no one seemed to notice, no seem to notice that I was falling apart. Not even my best friends. A.K.A. Kimberly Anne Crawford and Kelsey Jane Vargas. Everyone thought, oh she's the co-head cheerleader, she's popular, hot, and perfect. She can't and could never fall in love with so one like Jerry. But, I did. I DID fall in love with him. So, why was it so hard to ask him out before Mika? After all I've known him longer than she has. It was because of my peers. My peers judged me. They said so many things that they didn't realize I could hear them say.
"Guess what? I heard she got laid on Friday night with Brad Wolf." Truth is, I'm still a virgin.
"Heard she has two boyfriends at the same time." I don't. I'm actually single. I turned all of them down because I was in love with Jerry Martinez.
"Did you know that she had her first kiss when she was 10?" I didn't. Hell, I still hadn't have my first kiss at all.
They said so many other things. I could never keep track because if I try to, another rumor will spread around, and some you'll forget about the others.
It was really hard. But, everyday, I sucked it up and let it, go. Psh, sometimes I try not to listen. But it gets hard not to.
Well, I'm getting a bit off topic here, aren't I? Sorry, but I just had to say it because it is SO true. But again, like I said, no one will ever notice or feel the same pain as I do.
Anyway, so, today, I sat in front of my full length mirror, looking at myself. "Am I really that ugly?" I think, self conscious. I was wearing light blue jeans, brown boots, a white, lacey, no sleeved shirt, and a few accessories. It took so much energy not to break down once more. I carefully put concealer on my eyes. I cried all night, which meant that I had red eyes and ugly black bags under them. Suddenly, I was interrupted by my mother calling me,
"Grace! School!" Taking a deep breath, I nodded to myself and reassured myself that everything was going to be alright. Deep inside however, I knew that it wasn't.
"ALRIGHT, MOM!" I say back. With that, I grabbed my book bag and headed down. On the way out, I grabbed a simple apple and kissed my mom goodbye. From there, I started to walk to school. Halfway, there, I saw Jerry and Mika together, walking. I stopped and hid behind a bush to stare at them. Jerry and Mika laughed together.
Did I mention I was neighbors with Jerry and Mika? Well, I am. Actually, more like Jerry practically lived next door to me and Mika across the street.
I shook my head sadly and looked down at my feet. I suddenly felt so interested in my old brown boots. Letting a few minutes pass, I decided to start my walking once again.
"Hey, Grace." A voice behind me says. Turning around, I saw Jack, he had a warm smile. I returned it.
"Hey, Jackson!" I say playfully and punch him lightly. Jack was actually the only one that knows my pain. Surprising, I know. I could have never told Kelsey and Kim, they'd just take it the wrong way. Don't get me wrong, they ARE also my best friends but Jack just understood a little more.
"Ha. Ha. You're sooo, funny." He says sarcastically and rolled his eyes. I smiled, huge. I could understand why Kim loved this boy SOOO much. He's pretty hot in my opinion but my er- Mika's Jerry beats him by a lot. Jack shook his head and says, "So, anything new?" I shook my head and looked at the ground.
"No, same old, same old." I felt Jack stop behind me. Jack then puts a hand on my shoulder. Giving me a sad smile he says,
"Hey, he'll come around. Besides look on the bright side, at least he's really not going to marry her or anything." I glare at him.
"Brewer, if you fucking jinxed that I swear to god, I will kill you." He had a scared look on his face. I couldn't take it anymore and cracked up a smile. We both laughed together.
He never failed to make me smile. When our laugher died down, Jack looked at me serious and said seriously,
"But, I'm serious. It's just his first relationship, it's not like it's serious. He'll probably break up with her soon." He paused. "Knock on wood." He says quickly and winked at me. I laughed once more. I then wrapped my arms around his waist, and hugged him tight. I don't know where I would be without Jack. Jack then wrapped his arms around me as well, pulling us into a tighter hug.
"I love you." I felt him smile.
"I love you, too." He then kissed my forehead. Both of us just stayed in this position for a while. When I pulled away, we started our walk to school again. The rest of the walk there was pretty much usual. It was filled with laugher and joy. And then , it returned to normal when both of us went through Seaford High's doors. I put my walls back up, my real smile flew off my face and my regular fake one returned, and cue the wolf whistles from boys. Sighing, I looked at Jack. He gave me a sorry look back. Taking a deep breath, I tried so hard to ignore the fact that Jerry and Mika were flirting right in front of my locker. Walking over there, I tried to ignore it once more as I got my books.
"Please, let it be Friday already." I thought. But alas, it was only the start of the week. "This is going to be a looonnggg week."
(Hey guys! That is the first chapter! And I think that I'm proud of this too! :) Oh, and don't worry about Jace... wait.. hmmm, I guess it works both ways there. Hahah. But anyway "Jack and Grace" (how about that lol) won't happen. Only really close and heavy friendship. I ship Kick too hard lol. I ship Jerry (or Mateo) and Grace (O'Doherty) soo much! I think that Grace is sooo pretty! I mean seriously, look her up on Instagram. OMG, I died looking at her pictures. So perfect! Anyway, so, when I searched for some JerryxGrace (Jace) fan fiction, there was only about 13. :( Don't get me wrong, I love Jika too but I ship Jace a little more. I mean seriously if you put a picture of Jerry and Grace together OMG or imagine it, AHHH! Sorry..
But I DO respect and ship Jika a little too.
OH! And I know that I should be working on my other stories, but I really wanted to write a Jace one =)
Bye! I'm out!
DON'T FORGET TO REVIEW, FOLLOW, AND FAVORITE MY LOVES! ;))