When I was young I met the prince of our land, Xemnas, after he was apologizing for almost running me over when on an outing with his mother. "I am sorry…" he began but I interrupted him " no need to apologize sire, it was in fact my fault", he dismissed me and I went on my way to the home I had built with my parents, little did I know that over those seventeen years all his thought and effort was on me. When I was twenty-two he came to my home while my parents were out and presented me with a millennia of gifts, I asked "why" and he said the words I never thought I'd hear someone say and I never wanted to, "future wife" he said and I was appalled and furious so I told him to leave and said "I will not be someone's trophy to show off in public". When he left I was saddened I didn't mean to be so harsh but it was true, I didn't want that, but he thought otherwise….

At the kingdom-

"Where are they, why did you take them?" I howled, "I took them to draw you here my pretty little diviner" he smirked "what do you want with me?" I questioned, "Why to have you as my bride, sign a contract and pledge your life to me and I will release your parents" he said "and if I don't "I questioned "I'll have them beheaded" he said point blank. I could only do one thing for them, so I cried, I sank to the floor and agreed to be his bride and stay in the castle, "you made the right decision "he said as he handed me my ring.

Within 48 hours he and I were married and there they were, my parents, dressed elegant for my wedding, the one they waited for, for years , but this wasn't what they wanted and neither did I, but I had no choice. As the ceremony proceeded I heard myself saying "I Do" and then that kiss, that damn awful kiss. It hurt me to even look at him, then my mother, oh my poor mother, she was so upset at who I was marrying that she fainted and I couldn't do anything about it. Inside the carriage xemnas looked at me with concern in his eyes as I cried my heart out, saying over and over again "mother…" he wanted to touch me but thought better of it, "look I have heard personally that she is fine and is being taken care of at the mansion I had built for them" he told me. I didn't care, I didn't want to hear what he had to say, so I told him "I don't care! You made this happen, you…you broke her heart" he seemed a bit taken a back at my out burst but didn't say much after. When we arrived to the boat that would take us to our three month honey moon spot I got out of the cart silently and went to the room, slamming the door, "is there something wrong highness" one of the servants asked "no, there is nothing to worry about, carry on" he said. When he entered the room I didn't look at him, he came over to me after he changed into something more comfortable, "saix, please this doesn't have to be this way" he pleaded with me, I didn't look at him I just cried and turned away. After awhile I went to the bed, he was already asleep and I wouldn't be for awhile. I lay there alone in my thoughts and my sorrow, but I told myself that I had to be strong; even it meant putting up with xemnas for the rest of my life.

At the Suite-

When we arrived at the honeymoon spot I wasn't too happy at where our destination had taken us. I had woken up and it was freezing, I am a berserker, I do not do the cold. A carriage came and fetched us and I refused to get off the boat into it because of the cold ground. "Well, may I carry you to it then?" he asked "fine" I replied with anger in my eyes, I held onto him tight for warmth, the wind was harsh but he had reassured me before hand that we would be inside a luxurious suite that had heated rooms and soft plush beds. When we got into the carriage i didn't let go cause it was still cold and my feet were freezing. "Are you alright?" he asked me, well duh, no i wasn't alright i was fucking freezing in this damn cold weather so, instead of answering a dumb question i just sank deeper into his warmth. When we arrived at the suite i jumped straight out of his arms into the bed, he climbed in with me and i grabbed him, "i will make out with you as long as you keep me from freezing to death" i told him, and he happily agreed by kissing me on the mouth full force he was very intent on getting his tongue inside my mouth so obliged. He and i kissed for a long while as his hands roamed over my skin, touching, rubbing and caressing everywhere they could get, he was enjoying himself and i had to admit i was too. "Nn..stop that what are you doing" i managed to breath out between him kissing me, he had moved his hand down to my thigh and was massaging it, "What you don't like this?" he said as he stopped. I liked it, i really did but my pride and my unimaginable anger was still there, but i obliged, what else could i do, i had decided from that day on i would oblige to anything and everything he wanted to do.

Except sex, i will rip his head off even if he mention it. Ever. He agreed to it and i wrapped my arms around him, we inched closer slowly and then he kissed me, it was hot and passionate, he apparently had been waiting for it for a long time and i quite frankly didn't care so i allowed him to lick my lips and drive me deeper into the bed. He grabbed the covers and pulled them over us, he made me open my legs and wedged himself into them, because of the thin fabric and the short tunics we were wearing i could actually feel his boner through the material. "whoa" i breathed out loud "impressed i see" he said i couldn't reply i just blushed, so he took that as a sign to proceed, in turn he ground against me and i held back a moan because the sensation and the sheer size of him made me want to scream, "come on i know you want to" he whispered and nibbled on my ear "no I'm fi-AHH-ne" i had moaned a little as he tweaked one of my nipples and ground into me "AH, stop what are you doing...Nnn, quit it" i panted, he didn't stop h grabbed my hips and ground into me after lifting up both our tunics, oh my god if i take anymore of this i might explode, which s exactly what i did. I came so hard i saw stars, and i was exhausted. when he rolled off of me he held me close, and i held onto him, despite my anger i felt content at that moment but i was still angry, i wouldn't forgive him for what he did, i would never love him, that is something i won't do. As we sat in silence i thought about my attitude, i would admit i will be becoming accustomed to the life of luxury, but i informed him that even if we have an intimate moment, "this changes nothing you know" i whispered, he was silent for a while, only moving slightly to bury his head into my shoulder more, attentively kissing it, "I know it doesn't" he breathed out.

We sat silent for moment he had pulled the covers over us and we were now laying about in silence, me under him and he on top of me, he moved his face towards my ear, he kissed at the pearl earing he had given me, "will you ever be able to love me as much as i love you" he asked in a low whisper only i could hear. I didn't know, i told myself I'd get used to his love, his affectionate ways, I said I'd tolerate everything, but i never said that I...

"I don't know xemnas" i whispered, we fell asleep shortly after, dreaming in world that i had no idea what was holding for me.

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