Another angst i suppose. I had a review from a guest that says that I mixed up the past and present tense in my previous story. i would like to apologize for that and for this one to, if it had mixed tense. Feel free to PM me, or to review if you thought anything is lacking with this story

Also, this story is inspired from the song 'Soldatino' that Paola Bennet made for Nico. The italic ones are the lyrics to the song.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters, it belongs to Rick Riordan. And I also did not own the song, however lovely it is. It belong to Paola Bennet.

Close your eyes; I know what you see

How could you know what I see, sister, when I don't know what I see
The darkness is high, and you're in ten feet deep

Yes, the darkness is high, but I'm not in ten feet deep. I'm surrounded by the darkness. It's everywhere, it has been ever since your death
But we've survived more terrible monsters than sleep

When I came out of those encounters, I never came out whole. And you didn't even make it out
And you know I will be here to tell you to breathe

I've stop breathing with you gone. And you cannot be her, sister, you're dead, and you are not coming back

Tu sei il mio soldatino (you're my little soldier)

I'm not a soldier, I'm a coward
La ragione per cui vivo (the reason I live)

And the reason you die too? That automaton attacks only because you took that figurine, because you thought I will like it.
Non ti scordar di me (don't forget me)

How could I forget you? You were the only person I looked up to.
Io veglierò su di te (I'm watching over you)
If you're watching over me, if you want to watch over me, why do you chose rebirth?

Stumbling lost; the last choice of all that you meet

I am lost, and I don't think there is someone I can ask for directions except you. The choices had only become harder to decide with you gone
It's the cost of ruling those 'neath your feet

I've never wanted to rule anyone, all I wanted was to live a happy, peaceful live with you!
Paths you've crossed, and trust you're trying to keep

I've crossed may paths, yet I don't think that I had one person whose trust I have not crumbled.
You're exhausted, listening for a voice that can't speak

Yes, because the voice I'm dying to hear, is your voice, sister.

(ma nico, mio caro)

Tu sei il mio soldatino (you're my little soldier)

Then why can't I be that forever? Your little soldier?
La ragione ho vissuto (the reason I lived)

You are my reason to live too, sister. I've been drifting aimlessly without you
Non ti scordar di me (don't forget me)

I swear on the River Styx, my memories about you always came every night, your voice, your words, your laughter, and you love for me
Io veglierò su di te (I'm watching over you)

You can't, you are now a different person, you are not my sister, you didn't even know who I am

So you run; through shadows you roam

I'm always running sister, and I can't helped it if the darkness is my refuge
Seams undone by the love you thought you could own

It was a childish dream, that I could own his love. Just a childish dream, nothing more, nothing less, right?
But he's just one of many that you might call home

Many, sister, many? I don't even have one. Or you wanted me to say that the Underworld is my home?
And maybe someday, the bitter will fade from your bones

It won't since it was in the very center of it.

Eri il mio soldatino (you were my little soldier)

Why do I have to be anything different?
Ora un principe oscuro (now, a dark prince)

Just because I'm the son of Hades doesn't mean I wanted to be the Ghost King.
Ma anche per te, c'è una luce
(but even for you, there is a light)

You were right, sister, as you always was. That light, came in a form of a thirteen year old daughter of Pluto, with brown hair and golden eyes.
Che ad un'altra vita ti conduce
(that leads you to another life)

A life, that I could manage to live without you, my darling sister, but never can I manage to live the same as before

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