hi, to people that know me well on FanFaiction i would never do something like this to Edward but i just wanted to try something a little diffrent. An all i can say is i hope for the best. It kind of shows how Bella went off track without Jacob but how will she get back on track if there is no Jacob? Read to find out.

cat xxx

Bella's pov

"why Edward why are you doing this to me? You said you loved me and now you say you don't" i held back my tears,

"I'm sorry i shouldn't of led you on"

"damn fucking right!" i screamed "i thought you loved me. You promissed you would never hurt me" and a single tear broke through.

"and this is me keeping that promiss i-" i cut him off

"I'm not just some weak little human you can just have a little fun with to please yourself then when you're done dump in the forest. I love you and i know somewhere inside is the sweet, handsome and caring guy that loves me too" more tears followed the single drop that would create a flood. A ball loged in my throat as he came closer to me. I knew he had no other words, this was it my worst nightmare. Him leaving me and i now knew that i had finally awoke from what seemed real but was only a fairytale. I closed my eyes letting the tears fall as he kissed my head. Reality was i knew he was gone but if keeping my eyes closed ment believing it wasn't true for a second longer i would gladly close them forever.

"Edward, EDWARD!" i yelled even though i knew he was gone and letting the pain hit me harder. He wouldn't leave me out here, would he? i had no clue where i was. I searched the wood a little longer calling his name again. But he was gone for sure. I fell to the ground tears soaking the leaves around me, i just wanted to die right there and then. I closed my eye's in hope that all the pain i felt went away.

a while later...

I woke up in a fright as i realized a curly red head bent beside me. This was not good it was Victoria. "hello sleepy-head" and before i had a chance to do anything, she bit me and i screamed in pain.

I awoke startled and sweating. I would always dream of that moment as a constant painfull reminder and Victoria would always get me and I'm suprised she hasen't . Edward had now been gone for two years and i had droped out of school. I was worryed about Charlie, he looked so conserned and hurt. So i moved out to live in an appartment where i could do him no harm, now i only see him a few times a month.

I jumped out of bed as i usually did and got dressed in a jacket and jeens. I felt lonley in my appartment no one to talk to shut out from the rest of the world. I needed to go to work it wasn't the job i would have chosen for myself it was kind of dangerous in some ways. I was a stripper/ hooker. It depended on how many girls came to work if i was a hooker i usually did stripping though. Like that was much better! I didn't like my job but it got me the money i needed to pay the rent. If my dad found out i was stripping he would kill me. But i had to do it no one was offering anything else. But the only thing i hoped was that they had enough girls tonight to do the 'night shift'. ( = hooking job)

I opened the side door to the dodgy looking strip club in the centre of town. kate and tanya met me at the door and tutted at my outfit, then handed me a bundle of what they'd call clothes. It was really a leather mini-mini-mini skirt and a low cut sleevless top. She pulled my hair out of the rubber-band, and put serious 'hooker' make-up on me.

"you're on the 'night shift' tonight bella," said tanya, I groaned. I hated the night shift, and out of careful planning, I had only been on it twice, and I had only been picked up once. I sat down in the staff room waiting till 8pm thats when we usually went out. It was now 7:45 pm. 15 minuets till i had to do the most discusting thing in my life. Some sado wanting sex for money ugh! i guess it's my job, but i only do it for the rent money. As far as i see it this was all Edwards fault he left me.

Tanya and Kate were my only friends now, since Edward had taken all of mine with him. Angela, jessica and lauren still met up with me every now and again, but I made sure they didn't know what I did for a living. Angela was a brain surgeon, her fiancee, Ben, was a heart sergeon. Jessica was a proffesional stylist, her boyfriend was an accountant. Ah, mike. I still saw him on a monthly basis, luckily, he didn't recognise me. Lauren was a hotel manager living in new york with her husband tyler, who owened a popular resturant. They'd eloped in vegas in senior year. Whereas tanya was a drunk, whose boyfriend was a pimp. Kate was a drug addict, who flitted from guy to guy. I was desprate, jilted by my vampire lover, school drop-out, and hooker/stripper living in a tiny apartment and sleeping on a mattress. Yeah, not somthing you told old high school girlfriends over lunch.

A jeep passed us with a burly, curly haired man sticking his head out of the sunroof. He yelled as he passed us.

"A free one, ladies? it is my birthday," Some girls laughed, some told him to dream on, I was just shocked. The mans resembalence to emmett cullen was insane, he even had a jeep! I shook these thoughts from my mind before I could start imagining the beautiful features of rosalie hale crease in disgust, or the tinkling laugh and pixie-like ebony hair of alice cullen, The sharp, quick as lightning remark of jasper hale about how he doubted emmett had the kind of money to get one of us to sleep with him, Esme's bashful smile and sigh of 'oh emmett!', Carslile's laughter, not a single one of his perfectly combed, white-gold hairs out of place and Edward's...

I felt a pain shoot through my chest. The stiches I had clumsily sewn to fix the tear in my heart two years ago burst open in an explosion of edward.

His eyes, like honey or melted butter or liquid topaz. His hair, like polished bronze. His face, like an artist had carved it from alabaster or marble.

I was caught up in my pain and thoughts until a car pulled up with a familiar lisence plate. Good job, mike, you desperate bastard. I bet Jessica is out of town. I stood alone until a black mercedies with tinted windows pulled up beside me. The other girls looked in awe and envy as the driver leant over and opened the passenger door for me. I slid in and a voice as smooth as the engine spoke.

"hello, I'm Demitri, and your name is?"