Author's Note: Okay, I know it's not very Ziva-like, but imagine she had written a note to be read upon the occasion of her death, she's gonna have let her guard down and admitted everything.

Tony looked at the white envolope on the piano, it was addressed to him. He opened it and read, small tears forming in his eyes.

Dear Tony,

If you are reading this it is because one of two reasons. One I am dead, or two you are trying ransack my personal belongings, that you have never even seen and I am alive, which I am, wondering what are you doing in my house without me knowing, I should be keeping a better eye on you. Also after you have read the rest of this letter I will probably kill you and you know it. Anyway unfortunately if the reason you are reading this because you're going through my things because I am dead, I need to tell you some things that have been hidden in my heart for some time.

To put a simple way I am truly, completely, and eternally in love with you. I always have been, and I always will be. Okay, so I know that just sounded really really dorky, but it is true. And I will haunt you forever if anyone is trying to read this without you looking. Okay back to the matter on hand, I never wanted to tell you because I thought our jobs would be affected if we went into a relationship, and Gibbs would go wild and start quoting Rule #12 all of the time, so yeah, I was thinking of Gibbs's sanity too, but not all that much really, just something in the back my mind. Anyway, so I just wanted to say that I felt terrible for not telling you but I was thought that if we were together, and we had actually settled down, and then if we ever had kids we would be putting our kids into a "our kids should worry about the fact that our jobs are dangerous and one day someone might call and say that one or both of us is dead."

That is another reason I didn't want controversy to come up and then attract more attention. So yeah I didn't do it for my selfish reasons, like everyone who knew (and knows)you was led to believe. I just wanted no consequences to become of our relationship since we already had complications of us living such a dangerous lives.

Every moment we spent together was electric, magical, and special. I just needed to get that off my chest even if I was dead or not. If I am dead I will always be with you Tony no matter what. I am starting to wonder if you kept that certain item of importance after all these years. Maybe but I don't think you could keep up with it for that long but I hope. There is a little reminder in the envelope just to remind you. Sorry that it ended this way. Goodbye Tony,

I will always love you,

Ziva David

He finished, finally smiling. He had a lot to think about. And tomorrow was a new day.

What do you think? Is it any good, please don't hurt my feelings, though constructive critisism would be welcome. Do you want a second chapter? If so, please leave ideas.

Thanks,

Amelia Friend