Hi, yes I know another Cade. The letter is made from 8 of my favourite sad poems, I'm sorry but I don't have the names of the authors. I hope you enjoy, R&R please

As I lie facing the tattered wall paper, I reach under the bed and I feel a crumpled corner of my keepsake box, I slowly retrieve it and open its tattered lid to see the contents. There's not much in it anymore, just some baby toys, my acceptance letter to HollyWood Arts, but one thing strikes me. A letter. I pick it up, careful not to tear its fragile frame. Then I realise. Its a letter that I once wrote for Cat but I never took the risk of sending it in fear it would make things worse.

I read it slowly

My friend I miss you.

I miss hearing your voice and seeing you smile,

Just being with you and hanging out a while.

I miss getting your texts

your e-mails, phone calls and letters.

I always pray to God that things get better.

and you come back.

Every time I see you,

my heart melts with happiness.

You make me laugh.

You make my heart sing.

Every time you talk to me,

I feel speechless.

Your voice is soft and sweet to me.

It calms me in the worst of times.

Every time you smile at me,

I want to smile too.

You brighten a dark day.

You make the sun come out from behind the clouds in my heart.

Now, you're gone.

My heart is broken.

Everything is crashing down on me.

I need someone to take this weight off my shoulders.

I need someone to dry my tears.

Why did you have to go?

I need you.

It wasn't my fault, I'm being punished for something I did not do and I have my own proof but its useless.

Life seems impossible without you.

You are my sunshine.

Now, the rain is pouring down.

The clouds are black.

A storm is approaching.

Without you I am nothing.

I need you to tell me that you're here for me.

To tell me its all ok.

I need your comfort.

Even though you are gone.

Even though you have moved on,

I will always love you.

You will stay forever in my heart

going through our memories

that's always what I do

Because that's all you've left me

just memories of you

looking at your pictures

just makes me smile

Because looking at you

makes my life worthwhile

In my dreams, I wish

that you're always there

we'll never be apart

we'll never be together

but now I must accept

that now, you are gone

but in my heart

you're still my only one.

I wish I could spend my whole life with you

Because I truly love you and would always do

Though you are gone, a part of you is still with me.

I close my eyes and your memories flash before me

People say I have turned Insane because I wait upon you

You aren't going to come back, but i wait because I still Love you

I am lost within myself, everything seems so blurred

You made my heart cry the bitter tears of blood

I laugh at myself trying to hold back my tears

I'm just broken

I know this isn't going help me, I'm heading to no where

I don't know what I am looking for anymore

I know I was a dolt but my love was true

Each and everyday reminds me of you

The more I try to forget, the more I end up missing you

The more I try to runaway, the more I feel closer to you

The more I am afraid to lose, the more I see you slipping away

I try to wipe out the memories, and more they rise each day

The more I hold back myself, the more I burst in the dark nights

I compel myself to sleep but your face flashes before my eyes

The word "More" is attached to my life like the rays of light with the day

More Pain, more deprivation, more hurt and more I love you than yesterday

I keep on waiting for something which I know will never come

I kept on rejoicing the bitter pain but today once again I feel so numb

Life isn't that bad enough, even though I find myself lost in the dark

Not afraid of pain anymore, I stand once again after being torn apart

I always waited for you,

I'm not giving up on "Love" , I did wait because I never wanted to give up on you

It still brings me a smile when I remember the first time we talked

I miss those late night talks, it does make me happy once again

But most of all I miss you when I find myself walking all alone in pain

I miss everything about you,

You will always be in my heart even though I've realized that you're gone

I've been missing your presence,

and you will never know how it pains,

I miss your lovely cheeks,

and all your smiles which make them tweak

I miss your gorgeous eyes,

and all those laughs which made them shine,

I miss your angelic ears,

and all my talks which come out of emotions

I've been missing you since the time you left,

and will miss you till the time ends.

But at the end of the day I would just like to say you're never alone, I'm always near,

When you're troubled, down or blue.

All you have to do is call me,

I'm always here for you.

It doesn't matter where I am,

It doesn't matter when.

When you need someone to talk to,

I'm here to be your friend.

If you need someone to hold your hand,

or a hug to say I care.

If you need a shoulder to cry on,

for you I will always be there.

So never think you are a burden,

when the weight gets to be to much.

You might find if look hard enough,

a good friend could be the right touch.

You're never alone, I'm always here,

through the good times and the bad.

I'm always here to be your friend,

I don't like to see you sad.

And with that. I slowly put the lid back upon the tattered box, a single tear drops upon the lid as I slide it back under the bed. I know she's gone, I know she won't forgive me, but I just want her to know, I'll always be here.