Hey everyone! This is my 2nd fic :D Sorry if it's a disappointment to some of you. Rate and review? If any of you have read my first fic, Courage, I'm going to update that one soon, but this story was in my mind all of a sudden, so I just wrote it quickly. There will be one more chapter, and maybe a third depending on the feedback. Rates & Reviews please? :) Enjoy!
"I can't believe you leave for New York today," Blaine said quietly, staring at his coffee cup, circling the rim of it with his index finger. Kurt reached over and grabbed Blaine's hand, holding it firmly in between both of his.
"I know…I hate leaving you…but you know I'm never saying goodbye to you. We can see each other every weekend, I'm just a few states a way," Kurt said, offering a sad smile. Blaine had tears forming in his eyes, making the golden orbs shine in the saddest way possible.
"Being here without you will be so lonely….even if I will see you often. Just promise me you won't find someone else?" Blaine asked, blinking back the tears. He stared into Kurt's bright blue eyes, hurt evident.
"There'll never be anyone else in this world that compares to you. Temptations may be there, but it'll always be you that I long to touch," Kurt whispered. Blaine started crying, kissing Kurt's hands. Kurt stood up, holding his hand out for Blaine. They walked slowly to Blaine's car, Kurt's bags crammed into the back. Blaine cried quietly, holding onto Kurt's hand for dear life as he drove to the airport.
"It's almost time for me to go, love…" Kurt whispered, burying his face in Blaine's chest as they sat on the floor of the airport, waiting for Kurt's flight. They ignored the ignorant people sneering at them every few minutes. Blaine wrapped his arms around Kurt tighter, refusing to let go.
"No…" he whimpered, closing his eyes tightly.
Kurt looked up at him with teary eyes, a few escaping as he spoke. "I'm not exactly excited about this either," he whispered, reaching up to wipe Blaine's tears away.
"Then don't go…stay here….with me….please," Blaine begged between sobs. Kurt sat up straight and took Blaine's face into his hands, cupping his cheeks gently.
"One year and you'll be right there with me. Hell, not even a year. I'll be here for your graduation, obviously, and I can bring you to live with me in New York that night. Until then, we'll live off of weekend visits, and daily skypes and phone calls," he said, stroking Blaine's cheeks with his thumbs. Blaine nodded and kissed Kurt's lips gently. He cringed when they called for Kurt's plane.
"Walk with me to the gate?" Kurt asked, standing up and holding his hand out. Blaine took the hand slowly, Kurt pulling him up. Kurt wrapped his arms around Blaine's neck, closing the gap between their bodies. Blaine wrapped his arms around Kurt's waist firmly, trying to keep this moment forever.
They kissed passionately, right in the middle of the crowd, ignoring everyone else. As far as the couple was concerned, it was only them. Kurt and Blaine. Just them. "You're so beautiful, and perfect, Blaine. I love you with all that I am, and I'll see you so soon. I'll call you as soon as I can, okay love?" Kurt whispered against Blaine's lips breathlessly, crying the same as Blaine.
"I love you so much, Kurt. You're my life, baby. Everything that I'll do down here without you, is for you. Just always keep me here, okay?" Blaine paused, bringing one of his hands up to rest gently against Kurt's chest, right over his heart. He stared into Kurt's eyes for a minute, feeling his heart beat beneath his hand, reaching down with his other hand to grab Kurt's, lacing their fingers together perfectly. He took a deep breath, squeezing Kurt's hand before continuing," Make sure to think of me often, because I can feel it when you think of me. I know it's crazy, but I just get this feeling that I'm…safe, a-and loved," Blaine said, kissing Kurt's cheeks a billion times. Kurt nodded, "You'll be here always. This is your home. And your heart is my home," he smiled, placing his empty hand on top of Blaine's against his chest, squeezing Blaine's hand, and leaning in to kiss him once more.
Kurt waved and smiled sadly, calling out to Blaine one last time before boarding the plane. "I love you!" he shouted. "I love you too, Kurt. Please be safe!" Blaine yelled back. They didn't break eye contact until they possibly had to. Blaine stood there, staring as Kurt slowly disappeared.
Blaine sat in his car, crying. He decided that if he sung right now, Kurt would somehow hear it. Maybe not hear it, but maybe he'd feel it. Blaine plugged his iPhone into the audio jack in his car, slowly starting to back out of the parking lot. He began to sing his heart out to the perfect song, one of his recent favorites, though it wasn't really his style.
"You said it in a simple way, 4am the second day, how strange that I don't know you at all.
I stumbled through the long goodbye, one last kiss, then catch your flight, right when I was just about to fall.
I told myself, 'don't get attached,' but in my mind, I play it back, spinning faster than the plane that took you
This is when the feeling sinks in, I don't wanna miss you like this, come back, be here, come back, be here.
I guess you're in New York today, and I don't wanna need you this way, come back, be here, come back, be here"
Blaine cried through the short instrumental break, gripping the wheel tighter, letting the feelings sink in. He had been preparing himself for this day for months, and he thought he was ready. He thought he could handle it easier than this. He didn't know it would hurt this damn much.
"The delicate beginning rush, the feeling you can know so much, without knowing anything at all.
And now that I can't put this down, If I had known what I know now, I never would have played so nonchalant
Taxi cabs and busy streets, that never bring you back to me, I can't help but wish you took me with you"
Blaine sobbed during the next chorus, his vision beginning to get blurry from the tears. He knew he couldn't drive like that, so he pulled over in the nearest parking lot, that happened to be currently deserted. He cried and listened to the song, before starting in again to finish it.
"This is falling in love in the cruelest way. This is falling for you when you are worlds away. New York, be here,"
He paused for a second to catch his breath, missing a small part of the song, but not caring. He only wanted to sing the most relevant parts. The parts of the song that really hit him in the heart.
"And I break down, cause it's not fair, that you're not around.
This is when the feeling sinks in, I don't wanna miss you like this, come back, be here, come back, be here.
I guess you're in New York today, and I don't wanna need you this way, come back, be here, come back, be here"
Blaine was breathing heavily and rapidly by the time he finished singing the song. He had put his whole heart into that song, and he prayed that somehow, some way, Kurt felt it. He wiped his eyes one last time as a new song started playing, and he drove home. He was slowly entering the start of his own personal hell, and he didn't even realize it.