TITLE: Suicide? I Think Not.
RATING: T
SUMMARY: Sakura has come to talk in the depths of her mind... with her dark self. Inner Sakura was hiding this person and side of her from the rosette, but when she meets all her depression, loss, and loneliness embodied into an evil individual residing within herself, what will she do? "Suicide? I think not."
AUTHORESS'S NOTE: I know, I know, "GET YOUR DAMN OTHER FANFICS FINISHED!" "GET OUT THOSE FANFICS YOU PROMISED YOU'D WRITE!" Or even "GET THOSE FUCKING FANFICS DONE SO YOU CAN WRITE MORE ON JUST ONE!" are some of the thoughts resonating in some of my frequent reader's minds, but eh. I thought of Dark Link from Ocarina of Time, and I had a brain fart. (shrugs) Here it is, in the shape of a odd oneshot to ye all. Ja!
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Sakura! (pauses) Err... Or Naruto. Why would I want the loud one, anyway? (talks to friends)...Ah, I see...I still don't own any more than ten dollars, so don't even try to sue.
Sakura opened her eyes, and it was finally shadowy. Dark. Inner stood nervously by a gate half covered by purply fog. She'd tripped up on her secrets, and notified Sakura about 'That damn thing' inside her. So, she'd mediatated so deeply she could travel into her own mind.
"Lead me to it, Inner." her eyes narrowed. She was not in the mood right now.
Inner gulped, then nodded at the seventeen-year-old, and grabbed her hand, then started leading her through the maze of her mind. Her pale skin looked exactly like Sakura's, but she had ruby red eyes which were usually hidden by the shaggy black hair, and she wore a blue Haruno training dress, not the red kunoichi outfit Sakura had taken to. she ran so swiftly Sakura had to squint, as the fog was rushing by, stinging her eyes.
all of a sudden they emerged from the labyrinth, into a round room with torches lit with blue fire. the fire's light danced on the figure in the center of the room, who was chained from the cieling so she hung, and her legs were surrounded by some kind of holder, so her arms didn't undergo that much stress.
She had short, dark pink hair and her skin was tinted with darkness itself, and her eyes were like Sakura's, only the colour was a deep green, with a black, cattish slit in the center. Inner had told her earlier, shamefully, that her name was self-proclaimed to be Dark Saku. she stepped carefully in, and looked to Inner. "Go, wait outside... Be careful, I'll be fine." her tone was soft. she forgave Inner already.
she then turned to the dark version of herself as Inner sprinted out, and she sighed, and walked three yards closer. "Dark Saku?" she asked, then jumped a bit as the one eye she could see undraped in shadow- her bangs had been wiped away by Inner so that one eye was uncovered, she supposed- and it pulsed with a wierd darkened glow.
"What do you want?" she asked calmly. her voice was a tad deeper than hers, and it echoed, in such a sinister way that it was chilling.
"I want to talk to you... to talk about your origins. I am the main personality here, the normal Sakura. You've met Inner, I see, and I apologize for you being chained. But she must have her reasons..."
"Well... I am the embodiment of all evil, depression, lonliness and loss you have hidden, and all your pain has been passed into my heart and made me bitter. I am all of your dark thoughts and desires combined into one entity...I am Dark Saku." she spoke menacingly, even though she was chained up. Now she knew why Inner did that.
she cleared her throat. "Listen, we can come to an understanding, I'm sure..." the Dark version lashed out against the chains.
"NOOOO! I am in so much pain, I want to die! Everytime I kill myself, I cannot die! I just feel a tiny bit of hurt, and I'm back!" she struggled fiercly against her bonds, making dust from the cieling come flying down.
"I don't see how I can help..." Sakura spoke carefully, but Dark Saku chuckled.
"Look into my eye, and you will see..." her eye turned bright pulsing purple, and the rosette cried out as she fell to the ground writhing.
She was trapped in her own personal hell, experiencing all the pain, hurt, and loss she'd ever gone through. It was like people described the Mengekyou Sharingan's effects. when she snapped out of it, she was shaking so badly she couldn't handle it. Blood dripped from where she dug her own fingernails into her skin, raking it off in strips to appease the pain. "H...Help me..." her eyes were hollow. She was still under Dark Saku's trance, and a Haruno symbol glowed in black light on her forehead. "St...Stop the pain..." her voice was as hollow as her eyes.
"Suicide. Kill yourself, then the pain would stop."
Sakura stuttered out a 'Yes', and then she reached for a kunai, when Inner skittered in.
"SAKURA-CHAN, DON'T!" she ran to her, stumbling, as she locked her arms around her. "Don't do this! P...Please... I...I lo...Lo...Love you. And n-not like a sister..." her voice was so tiny in her ear, and tears dripped down on her arms, stinging a little in her wounds. "P...Please, don't."
the symbol faded from the rosette's head as Dark Saku's spell dissapeared. "I...Inner... you..." she spoke silently, then she dug her head into her shoulder. "Love me...?" she squeezed her hands around her back, and she raised her head to look at her Inner self. She knew Inner was a completely different person inside her mind, she hadn't known she felt this deeply though. They did allow alot of time to each other, but in that time they'd obviously thought about each other too much. She really didn't care.
"H-Hai... But... It can never be, right?" her lip trembled. but then Sakura kissed her on the cheek, and then helped her stand shakily, to thier feet.
"No, it CAN be. Tsunade-shishou and I are working on a new jutsu... One to help you become a person existing outside of my mind. It's worked on a Schizo with two personalities...so it will work for us."
Dark Saku pulled at her chains, pissed off at her confinment. "This is all so touching and sweet and shit, but I want the fucking hell OUT OF HERE!"
Sakura looked at her coldly. "No. You deserve to be here." she looked at Inner. "L...Let's get out of here." And with that, they ran out into the misty labyrinth, leaving Dark Saku to her insanity.
Maybe that jutsu could also be used to give her the eternal rest she seeked endlessly.
"I WILL FUCKING KILL ALL OF YOU! AAAAAALLL OOOOF YOOOOU!" she roared before falling limp, to giggles as her eye went wide, and bloodshot. her insane laughter and roaring haunted Inner and Outer Sakura until they were finally out in the world, together.
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"Sakura-koi... Do you think Dark Saku will ever be alright again?" Inner asked her one morning, as she burped thier daughter- thank kami for the Haruno secret jutsu- and handed her carefully to Sakura for the rosette to put her down for her nap.
"No. She's gone, Inner, she's still alive... but she's gone." the girl replied, then pecked her counterpart on the lips before laying thier daughter down into her crib.
They then tried to live thier lives, to forget about the dark entity they both had a certain link with, Dark Saku.
K.L.K- Huu... maybe I'll bring her back sometime in a wierd genjutsu fight in another of my fanfictions. But here's what happens when I'm writing a Zelda: Ocarina of Time game, and then this happens. Not to mention it's about five a.m. So, I'd better bid you adieu, and then go to sleep. Ja Ne! Oh, and please Review!