When I was a little girl, my mom used to tell me bedtime stories, quite a common thing moms do with their kids, except I was different from the others and my bedtimes stories weren't fairytales. I wasn't supportive of the prince charming who saved the lady in distress and killed the wicked witch.
I was the wicked witch…a Hexenbiest is a more accurate name
I was raised in fear of the Grimm who would come after me if I was a bad little girl and the more I grew up, the more he terrified me. As years passed by, I came to the conclusion that I wasn't likely to come across one. Little did I know, I'd end up having a Grimm's baby.
But, I'm going a little ahead on my story here. How about I start from the beginning? From the moment I met Nick Burkhardt, i.e The Grimm. Don't worry though, I'll make it quick.
Nobody has ever tried to know the story from my point of view. So here goes nothing
Portland, 6 years ago
"Oh My God, you were amazing, Adalind" Cynthia Sommers, one of my fellow colleagues exclaims as we head outside the court room. I must admit I'm pretty proud of myself too. My client has just been awarded damages worth a million dollars in a lawsuit nobody believed I could win. Cherry on the cake; it was a Pro bono. So, yay me
"Thanks Cynthia" I say smiling as we walk outside the building. There's a small breeze that caresses my hair "What a beautiful day" I sigh "Want to grab lunch and eat in the park?"
Cynthia checks her watch before sending me an apologetic smile "Can't. I have to meet a client in a little less than 45 minutes" she sips some more coffee from her foam cup
She glances behind her back then back at me "Hey, don't look, but there's a hotty checking you out over there. Maybe you'll have a lunch companion after all" she giggles
I laugh as we part ways, however, I can't help but cast a glance in the direction of the guy Cynthia mentioned. Two men standing against a car are staring at me. One of them is tall, about 6ft2 maybe. He's got a beautiful dark complexion and a contagious smile. The second one is a bit shorter and Oh so cute. He's got this fair baby skin, nice disheveled hair, full lips and his eyes…Holly shit…How is that possible?
He's a grim
How do I know that? Scary black eyes, Duh
I'm so scared, I vogue instinctively. It's a protection mechanism I guess and the Grimm looks back at me in utter shock. I need to get out of here and fast.
As soon as I arrive to the safety of my car, I dial Sean Renard's number, Portland Police Captain…and maybe my love interest as well. But, let's leave the complicated unrequited love for later.
"Adalind" he answers in his deep voice
"There's a…Oh My God, there's one here. I saw him like two minutes ago. He was right in front of me" I shriek not making sense even to myself
He clears his throat clearly annoyed "There's what here?"
"A Grimm. There's a Grimm in Portland. I saw him and he most definitely saw me vogue. Is he going to come after me? like slay me or something. OMG, I don't want to die. I mean, there are so many things I want to experience and…" I tend to babble a lot when I'm nervous and right now, I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown. Yeah, a Grimm does that to you when you are raised to believe he is your apocalypse.
Sean, obviously running out of patience, not that he has much of it, cuts me off "Calm down Adalind, it's under control"
Now, that takes me by surprise "You knew about him?" I ask, completely incredulous at the revelation
"For a while. I have an eye on him, tough and…" I can imagine him running a hand in his hair "I'm going to need your help, actually"
Want to know which kind of help he wanted?
He wanted me to get rid of the Grimm's aunt/surrogate mom. The woman who raised him as her own child. The woman who was transferring her powers to him and, more importantly, a woman in her death bed.
Did I want to do it? Definitely not. Was I on board anyway? Yes
The reason why I accepted was Sean Renard himself. He had leverage, something that was definitely playing against me. My feelings for him
Sean Renard is a Zauberbiest, sort of a male version of a Hexenbiest. He's the result of an affair between a royal and a hexenbiest.
After that first encounter with the Grimm, Sean decided to use me for his own interests and I followed his plans because…well, because I thought that he could finally see what a fantastic woman I am and fall deeply madly in love with me. Remember how I told you my mom didn't read me fairytales? Well, my life isn't a fairytale either.
And now we get to the unrequited love part. Sean never fell in love with me. The guy even slept with my mother and by committing to his and my mother's schemes I made a major enemy…The Grimm
Some might think I could have simply said a big fat NO to my mother. Nuh…Uh, my life is not that simple.
Growing in the shadow of a seemingly perfect Catherine Schade who expects always more from you isn't exactly the life one would wish for. No matter how hard I worked to earn my mother's love, I was just a means to an end.
When I graduated with honors from law school, my mom came to me after the ceremony and kissed my forehead tenderly "Oh, sweetheart. I'm so glad. Now you can finally concentrate on more serious things" she smiled. More serious things meaning, to be a full time Hexembiest.
Adalind Schade was a nobody. I existed only as the Hexenbiest for those around me. I even ended up believing my powers were everything.
So when Nick Burkhardt took them from me. Things kind of escalated to a whole new level. I'm not proud of the collateral damage I caused afterwards, as most of it backfired at me.
I wanted Nick Burkhard to pay for what he did to me. So, I made a spell that caused his girlfriend a memory loss, actually she only forgot about him, but things went back to normal after a while. Although, there were some complications along the way, but, let's not talk about that, now.
In order to get my powers back, I slept with Sean Renard when he was most vulnerable. Traveled to Europe, mingled with the royals, made a pact with the devil, got pregnant with Sean's semi royal baby that I was ready to give away as soon as I got my powers back and I ended up under the resistance protection when I decided I loved my baby too much to give it away.
That's a hell of a lot, huh
When I looked in my baby's eyes for the first time, I felt an explosion of emotions. I was so overwhelmed by this new alien feeling, that I couldn't spend a second away from her. I understood for the first time that it was possible to love someone more than yourself. But the royals had other plans for my daughter Diana. They wanted my baby no matter what. Martin Meisner, a member of the resistance was the only person I trusted. He risked his life to help me go back to the US and another unexpected figure played a major role in my daughter's safety. Another Grimm.
Kelly Burkhardt. Nick's mom
Back to Portland, things got a little out of hand. Sean, Kelly, Nick, Juliette and their friends Rosalee and Monroe worked together to take my daughter from me. They said it was for her protection, but, it wasn't their decision to make. Having your baby taken away from you, feels like experiencing a slow painful death every second, every minute, every hour of every day.
I would wake up screaming in the middle of the night because I relived her painful disappearance in my dreams. Diana, my baby, my lovely baby, was gone. No matter how much I searched for her, I couldn't find her. It's like she disappeared from the surface of the planet.
So the pain became extreme anger and fury. It's like I lost it a little bit every day. I wanted revenge. I wanted those involved in my daughter's kidnapping to hurt as much as I did. Starting by Nick Burkhardt.
There were two very important elements in Nick's life; Juliette and his powers, so I decided to ruin both.
When nick took my powers from me, he kissed me, I bit him, got his blood in my system and Tadaa. No more Hexenbiest. One would think the opposite would work as well, no such luck.
For the Grimm to lose his powers, he needs to sleep with a Hexenbiest. I wasn't thrilled about it, but I was determined. It wasn't going to be easy, I mean, let's be honest here. I couldn't knock at his door and say "Surprise, want to celebrate our reunion by having a sex fest?"
Yeah! Didn't think so either
Fortunately for me, my mom's grimoire had the answer. A simple spell to take Juliette's appearance. Genius, right!
But before going to Nick's, I wanted to mess with Sean's head first. He's had a crush on Juliette since he played prince charming and woke her from her comatose state back when I sort of erased her memory.
Really, I don't get what they all like about this woman. Anyway, we're getting a bit sidetracked here.
The day of Rosalee and Monroe's wedding, I went to Nick's place, when I was sure nobody would be there. Had sex with the Grimm, while he believed I was his annoying Juliette and Voilà.
I must admit, it wasn't as bad as I expected. I mean the guy has some good moves…Ok, ok, he is very good in bed. But, it doesn't change the fact that I hate him
After things went according to my plans, I flied back to Austria, determined more than ever to find Diana, but, shockingly, my daughter wasn't with the royals. My first mistake was to threaten them. Well, let me tell you one thing. Don't try to be a smartass with the royals. It won't work. Believe me, I ended up in a cell for doing this. It was when I was held captive in the royal dungeon, that I experienced my first episode, sort of. I had this extremely painful headache. One minute I was in a cell, with rats for only companions and the next I was in Nick's house surrounded by Juliette and the Blutbad, Monroe.
Once I came to terms with the royals, admitting we pursued the same objective, i.e finding Diana. I started working with them.
Finding my daughter was all that mattered. My sanity depended on it.
Viktor, a member of the royal family in charge of searching for Diana, decided we should fly back to Portland. Following some clues. Once there, however, I made two very bad discoveries. One: Juliette became a Hexenbiest and two: I was pregnant with Nick's baby.
Haha Right?
Well, life has a great sense of humor and Karma is a b****
Through the information I collected here and there, I learnt that Nick got his powers back thanks to Juliette going through a counter spell. Which meant, she had to take the potion to have my appearance and sleep with her darling Grimm.
Phewww I'm not sure I like the idea of Nick seeing my naked body. But, hey, there are bigger things at stake here.
Meanwhile, Viktor is replaced by Cruel/ scary Kenneth. He'd actually be quite lovable with his chiseled face if he wasn't a big villain. No matter how hard I tried to hide my pregnancy, he's quick to notice it and calls me on my lie when I claim it's Viktor's baby. Hey, don't judge. Do you know what would happen if I go around telling royals or even Wessen I'm carrying the Grimm's baby? Well, neither do I and I don't want to know.
The bad news, I know, I haven't delivered any good news either, but that's not the point, so where was I? Ah, the bad news! Ms Juliette 2.0, you know, the powerful Hexenbiest wants to kill me and my baby.
I won't lie, having another baby scares the shit out of me. I'm still dealing with the trauma of losing my Diana and here I am, expecting again and running away from the eminent danger that Juliette represents to my Baby's life…and mine
The other thing that has me worried about this pregnancy is that I have no idea what my baby will be. A grimm? A Hexenbiest? A Grimmenbiest/Hexengrimm?
When I see that Kenneth has no intention to protect me, there's only one person I can think of to assume this responsibility. Nick
I have to tread cautiously though. When I break the news to him, I know he won't fall to his knees and tell me that it's the happiest day of his life before he laces our hands together and sing Kumbaya. But I have to try. So here I am, in Sean's office, exchanging uncomfortable glances with the man I once loved and my daughter's father. He certainly wasn't thrilled about my pregnancy with Nick, but he was decent enough not to say a thing.
Nick enters the Office and as soon as he spots me, he glares accusingly at Sean "What the hell is she doing here?"
"Ask her" Sean orders
"I'm not asking her anything, I'm done with her, she ruined Juliette's life" Nick spits vehemently
His words feel like a stab in the heart. I'm not surprised but I don't want him to hate me for the sake of our baby "I didn't know that would happen" and that's the truth but he ignores me and heads to the door "wait, Nick" I beg. I'm desperate. I don't want my baby to have the same fate as his sister's. I'll do whatever it takes to protect it
"What?" he yells
He turns around and I expose my swelling belly to him
"Again" he sighs in Sean's Direction
The police Captain shakes his head and waves a dismissive hand "That's not mine"
"It's yours" I admit finally
"Are you crazy" he laughs "It's impossible"
"Impossible! Don't I wish" I sigh
He looks at me like I've grown two heads "Remember that wild afternoon with Juliette, before Monroe and Rosalee's wedding"
His face pales in sudden understanding
"This is not something that I wanted, either. I'm pregnant Nick" I feel the need to defend my self
Sean walks my way "Look, I had no idea, believe me and I don't think she's making it up, either"
"I've already had one child taken from me and I won't lose another" I hiss, then look in Sean's direction "Even he wouldn't protect his child last time" and the betrayal hurt as much as losing my daughter but I keep that to myself. I'm fighting the tears that built in my eyes.
"I did what I thought was best for Diana" he defends himself
I rise my arms dramatically "Oh yeah, it's a room full of heroes" I say sarcastically then turn to nick "and now I need one" well here goes nothing "I need you, Nick" it takes me lots of courage to admit it
"What do you want from me?" he wonders
"I need you to protect me from Juliette"
"Why the hell would I do that" he's quick to answer and I was prepared for this
"I don't expect you to do this for me, I was hoping you do it for your child" I place my palm on my belly "but if not for that, maybe you'll do it for Juliette"
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Author's note: Hi Hexenreaders, so I've wanted to write a Nadalind Fanfiction for a while now, but I kept finding excuses not to, until today. These two are like an It couple to me. Hope you enjoyed the chapter and I'd love to read your thoughts. Xx