This Fanfiction was written thanks to our friend Wursuf, who made an amazing Swanqueen fanfiction video. Please watch it, and leave the video your comments, I would also appreciate any feedback on my story, I will be posting chapters regularly.

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CHAPTER 1.

The mere thought of endless mornings without the sun, is one that could be catastrophic. Breathing without air is a task that is impossible, yet somehow possible, to those who wake up every morning to a day without the person they love, without the sun that brightens their day or without the air that fills their lungs. Love is weakness, is a thought we keep true to our hearts, but a life without love is like living in the past and not allowing yourself to find you future. Love, True Love is nothing less than magical.

This was not supposed to happen. This ending was one that I had never been able to even imagine. How could she do this to me, how could she leave me like this.

"Emma how could you do this". Regina cried clutching the pillow under her chin.

"How could you leave me?" She asked closing her eyes and holding on to that pillow as if it could save her.

Memories flushed through her mind of the years that had brought her to where she was at this moment. She let them overcome her mind as she remembered the women who had changed her whole life. The women who had taught her how to love again, the women that had showed her that love... that love is not weakness... that love, true love exists. Tears streamed down her face as she recalled their less then pleasant start where all she wanted was for the blonde to disappear, to leave Storybrooke and never return. Regina cringed when her mind took her to the distasteful words directed towards Emma.

"This is my town, you are leaving Storybrooke." The words she had told Emma when she arrived, because the fear of losing Henry was too much to bare.

Yet Emma stayed the threats did not get to her, she actually worked harder at getting to know Regina. Emma was the only one that ever asked questions the only one that truly ever cared. Emma may have been Henrys birth mother but that was not the only reason she stayed in Storybrooke, she stayed for Regina too. As much as she hated her for staying she loved her, she loved the blonde with her entire heart. The heart she had forgotten she possessed until Emma reminded her, the heart that she believed was small and black, now beat in her chest bigger and redder than ever. Daniel she thought, Daniel had been her true love but not even Daniel had made her feel the things the sheriff had, not even Daniel's death had made her hurt as much as Emma being gone. She hated Emma she hated her, how could she make me fall in love with her how could she change my whole life and then leave how could she take my heart with her, Regina thought.

Regina looks up and finally opens her eyes, she shakes her head while the tears escape from her eyes and fall to the pillow still clutched tight to her chest.

"I am sorry Emma, I should not be blaming this on you, how could I, you did this for me, I am sorry, I am so sorry." Tears fell like a desolate river without a barricade. and there with the memories of Emma was where Regina fell asleep.