The secret side of me, I never let you see
She bounces her leg and twirls a curl around her finger.
I keep it caged but I can't control it
She closes her eyes; hiding the red she knows is showing where her mind is.
So stay away from me, the beast is ugly
"Stevie-Rae, are you alright?" She opens her eyes and meets her friend's worried look.
I feel the rage and I just can't hold it
"Yeah, I'm fine, Zoey. Just tired and thirsty." She hates the half-truth that passes through her lips
It's scratching on the walls; in the closet and the halls
Zoey gives her a look of sympathy. "It's only an hour until dawn, feed and get some rest."
It comes awake and I can't control it
She knows Zoey means a blood-pouch, but the word 'feed" brings an overwhelming urge to hunt
Hiding under the bed, in my body and my head
She hesitates, knowing she should say something, ask for help...
Why won't somebody come and save me from this
She gets up and heads out, pausing just long enough for a "Later, Z."
Make it end
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
She chases the homeless man, revelling in the rush and his panic.
I must confess that I feel like a monster
She lets him run a little longer, then pounces and buries her teeth in his neck.
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
She feeds until his heart gurgles, struggles, and stops, then leaves, stopping just long enough to ask the earth to bury him
I must confess that I feel like a monster
My secret side I keep hid under lock and key
She lays curled under the wing of the immortal she's Imprinted with
I keep it caged but I can't control it
"Stevie-Rae, please tell me what is wrong." His voice is soft but the worry is evident
Cause if I let him out, he'll tear me up, break me down
She can still feel the hunger as she whispers, "I'm a monster, Rephaim"
Why won't somebody come and save me from this
He pulls back so she can look at his raven face and human eyes, "Only if you let yourself be."
Make it end
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
She sobs as she confesses what she'd done and how she'd felt.
I must confess that "I feel like a monster"
Rephaim pulls her close and holds her until the tears stop, "You are something new, born of blood and Darkness
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
"I still want to." She admits softly, afraid of herself and her mixed feelings
I must confess that I feel like a monster
"I know how you feel, I've been there too." Rephaim says as he strokes her hair
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
Her question is tentative, "How do you fight it?"
I must confess that I feel like a monster
His answer echoes with the timbre of his years, "One day at a time."
It's hiding in the dark, it's teeth are razor sharp
The scent of fresh blood overwhelms her, leaving nothing but the thirst
There's no escape for me; it wants my soul, it wants my heart
She brings the girl down and feed, her mind and soul screaming angainst it
No one can hear me scream, maybe it's just a dream
The cool caress of immortal spirit helps her pull away, too late, and whispers a promise
Maybe it's inside of me, stop this monster
"I am coming, hold on"
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
He finds her kneeling next to the dead girl
I must confess that I feel like a monster
Her voice is choked as she whispers, "I did this, I killed someone else"
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
Rephaim picks her up gently and prepares to fly, "I know what we must do."
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
Zoey answers on the third ring, voice heavy with sleep, "Stevie-Rae? What's wrong?"
I must confess that I feel like a monster
Her words hang in the air, ashamed, "I need help, I don't know if I can fix this"
I'm gonna lose control, it's something radical
"Gimme ten minutes, are you at the tunnels?" Zoey's voice is tense and Stevie-Rae can hear movement as she confirms.
I must confess that I feel like a monster
Zoey hangs up and Stevie-Rae puts her head down, afraid of how her friend will react to her confession