Chapter 1: The Awakening
He didn't want me anymore…………
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……….. What the hell?
We'd been together for so long, he saved me from a trio of vampires and yet he can't deal with his brother looking at my finger lustily like a fat kid eating triple fudge chocolate cake with strawberries, whip cream, and with mountains of sprinkles.
I loved him like no other guy. He wasn't even a guy. He was a god. And yet he wanted to leave me, not just him but the rest of his family. And I'd put my life to be with him, I placed my life on the back burner with him, my life means nothing without him. The fact that I loved him and was with him meant that I didn't care about my life and he can't get over this…!
The feelings rushed over me as my inner mind squabbled with my other personality; Charlotte. This little argument had first begun when Edward mentioned the fact that he was moving. Well technically already moved.
And now he stood in our meadow defiling it with his ugly words of disunity and a look that he'd never before given me. His eyes were different, harder- like the liquid gold had frozen solid.
"Bella, I don't want you to come with me."
He spoke the words slowly and precisely. My heart stuttered in my chest. His cold eyes on my face, watching as I absorbed what he was really saying.
There was a slight pause, my mind screamed in protest against this. All my original thoughts came flooding back that he shouldn't do this to me after what all I'd done for him. I felt like I'd placed all my chips on the gamble table thinking I'd win big time and suddenly he was taking the chips away leaving me broke and derelict.
"You...don't...want me?" I tried out the words, anger scorching my tongue for the first time.
"No"
The rest of that scene in the meadow went by in a haze. He kissed my head and I remember uttering some promise about being safe for him or trying… then he was gone and I was abandoned. I fell to the ground at first crying my eyes out not knowing that when I was found…
When I really woke up… I would be incredibly pissed off like an abused bull at the Bull Run with his testicles twisted in a rope.
Edward hadn't wanted to turn me into a monster… but in leaving he had and we both didn't know it. Something had been awakened.