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This is my first ff ever, so please, be understanding
I've never seemed to notice her before, she's been here all the time tho. The girl hanging around with my bloody Gryffindor cousin. But then something snapped, she walked in to the Great Hall for lunch with that Potter boy. Why just now? Was is that glow? She probably was happy and in love with that boy…
She was middle-height, had long, straight, fire-red hair, a face full of freckles, those rosy cheeks… She seemed to be so warm, in opposite of me, the 'ice queen' of Slytherin. Her green, shiny eyes never caught mine, cold blue, she seemed to be avoiding them. When her plump, red lips curled up into smile, the ice was melting in me… I was wondering how that perfect human being could be a muggle-born, everything that my family hates, and everything I was supposed to hate. I was wondering why on earth I was feeling that way about her.
I sometimes saw her hexing boys on the corridors, she wasn't the weak one, she was the real Gryffindor. I absent-mindedly stared at her during the classes we shared, trying to reach her eye during our meals, but she never looks at me, like she doesn't even know I exist, Merlin know she does, everyone does.
Often at night, lying in my bed, I imagined those green eyes staring at me from the darkness, I felt her hands tangling in my hair, her warm breath on my cheeks, her cold hand sliding under my nightgown, her touch caressing my flat stomach, going up right to my not-so-full breasts, her touch making me shiver… Her skilled fingers tracing circles around my already pert nipples, my back arches, my mouth fell open, I feel my breath getting heavier, I hear her chuckles. Her soft fingers tracing down to my waist, my hips, I feel her hand sliding between my legs, I resist for a while, but then I give up to feel her, the warm spread all around my body, I feel so sweaty, so wet down there like never before. I feel her soft finger rubbing against the spot between my legs, circling around it, then unexpectedly I feel fingers sliding inside of me and slowly moving in and out.. I hear me sighing, I feel getting closer with every move, my eyes closed tight that it almost hurts, my breath heavy, my heart pounding, that I'm sure if not the silencing charm, everybody in the dorm could hear it, I feel the pace speeding up, the hot wave spreading all around my body, I see the colors through my closed eyes, my mind is empty for a while… I lay down trying to catch my breath and the sudden realization reaches me – she is not here, and she'll never be. A single tear falls from my eye and I fall asleep, to dream about those green shiny eyes again.
After all those years, I still feel my eyes getting wet for a memory of her. After all those years, the thing I most regret is that, I didn't find enough courage, being scared what my Slytherin 'friends' or my sister will say, to speak to her. My Lily – though she's never been mine.
I am married now, she is dead.