Set around season 7 episode 19 (The Gitano episode) but it is not exactly the same plot

WARNING STRONG LANGUAGE WITHIN

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this story...

"If that sniper hadn't beaten you to it" The man said staring at the woman sitting to his right "I know you would have taken the shot, Olivia"

The woman, Olivia, turned at him shocked to hear the words that just fell from his mouth.

"No I wouldn't have..." she calmly replied. "Did you really expect me to? Did you really expect me to cause your death?"

He stayed silent, looking at the wall in front of him while Olivia refused to take her eyes off of him.

"What about your kids?" she asked

"I don't know, I just couldn't get that boy out of my head" The man replied in a monotone voice, not showing any emotion.

The woman was no longer listening to his response. She was also looking at the wall now, close to tears.

"What about me?" she said in a whisper which he almost didn't hear.

"We both chose eachother over the job, and I'll never let that happen again" He paused "Otherwise...We can't be partners"

"I can't believe you're saying that." Olivia sighed letting a tear slip down her face.

"You and this job are the only things I have left. I don't want to wreck that... I couldn't take it" And with that the man stood up and left, leaving the woman alone on the bench.

*6 HOURS LATER*

Olivia was still thinking about what her partner had said, his words echoing in her head constantly. She had called her captain after that conversation and he had given her the rest of the week off, so she headed home without stopping back off at the office.

She had been at home for 4 hours and was going crazy thinking about the day. It started with her and her partner chasing after a suspect who subsequently cut her in the neck, once back to work she then went to different locations looking for her suspect. She watched as the man held a gun to her partner's head and told her to give him a reason not to shoot him. And then her partner told her that he couldn't lose her, the only thing he had left since his divorce.

The woman stood up from her position on the sofa that she had been curled up on, threw on a jumper and some yoga pants, grabbed her keys and left, heading for her partner's home. It took her 14 minutes to walk to his apartment and she was let straight in by the door man who immediately recognised her as the friend of a tennant. Olivia walked up the 3 flights of stairs to his apartment and knocked on the door cautiously. She heard shuffling from the other side of the door and then saw light come through the crack in the door that the man had opened.

"Olivia"

"Can I come in?" She asked the man hopefully.

"Um, Yeah" He responded walking away and leaving the door open for her.

Olivia pushed the door open and entred the apartment. She first noticed how dark it was inside; her partner had clearly neglected to turn on the lights when he got it, choosing to sit in the dark instead.

"What do you want Olivia?" The man sighed as he sat back down on the cream coloured couch in the middle of the room.

"Did you mean it?" She asked without answering his question.

"What?"

"Did you mean it when you said we can't be partners?" She paused, waiting for his response. "Elliot. Did you mean it?"

"Yes" He whispered looking up at her to see a tear fall from her beautiful brown eyes.

"W..why? You said we were partners for life..." She stuttered trying to maintain her usual strong exterior of emotions.

"Because I can't lose you. I can't go out on a job nitknowing if you will make it back alive" Elliot sighed again. "If I lost you on the job, I would lose everything. I would have no way of stostopping myself from hurting the bastard that had hurt you, and I would lose everything..."

Olivia had made her way over to the couch and sat next to her partner, their legs touching slightly as they sat silently.

"El, you won't lose me.. I can handle myself in the field" She said reassuringly, while also thinking that she felt the exact same way about him.

"I know, but" He took a deep breath and turned to look into her big brown eyes "if something did happen... I could never forgive myself"

Olivia started back into her partners baby blue eyes, that never failed to make her knees weak when they were on her. She saw his gaze fall to her lips before immediately returning to her eyes.

"Elliot I... It would never be your fault" She whispered as she leaned in slightly, not realising what was happening.

"But I would have lost my best friend" he replied also leaning in.

Their faces were centimetres away from eachother, lips just about to connect when Olivia hesitated. She pulled back sharply before turning away from him.

"Liv? What.. Whats wrong?" Elliot asked confused about the sudden mood change.

"I can't do this Elliot. You just told me we couldn't be partners and now we are trying to kiss eachother... I can't do that" She said with anger laced in her voice. "You either get me as a partner, or you don't get me at all"

"Liv, you know I can't do that..."

"What about Semper Fi, Elliot? What happened to always staying faithful?" She shouted "No wonder Kathy left you, You just can't stay loyal to one person and one thing can you? You just have to break promises don't you"

"Olivia" He warned, feeling the anger bubble in his veins.

"No El. It's true isn't it? No woman can put up with you and you just leave them. You make them feel safe and then you abandon them."

"You know what... Fuck you Olivia. Get out" He roared pushing her towards the door.

"Gladly" The woman replied storming out the door without looking back