chapter 1

its been awkward since ste got home from the hospital, nothing seems to be the same, somethings changed in ste like hes allways somewhere else.

"ste you coming to work today then or you just gonna sit there in daydream land all day?"

"yeah sorry just me minds just out of it today?"

"yeah like it it everyday!"

"wha?"

"nothing c'mon were gonna be late"

both boys walked through the village in a awkward silence, Doug thought to himself that before the accident they held hands and walked though the village ste used to say he wanted everyone to know how happy and in love thay were but now they wernt even standing close, doug reached out and held stes hand locking there fingesr together, ste turned his head slightly and gave doug a short but sweet smile.

the lunchtime rush was over and both boys sat in there deli with mugs of tea having a well deserved rest.

"doug you would tell me if sumething happend befor the accident wouldnt you?"

"yeah ovcorse ste why would you say that?"

"well ever since i got back somethings not been right between us like theres something in the way."

doug paused for a moment,. "look ste something did happen!", doug paused again to grab stes hand hoping if he held him tightley ste wouldnt run away or dissapere out of his life forever.

'i went to see brendan when you told me not to and i recorded him confessing a murder and just before the accident you seen it on my phone and you told me that we were over and i dont whant us to be and please ste please forgive me i just whant him out of our lives for good,. doug let out the biggest gasp of air after saying that whole thing in one beath'

it took ste a fiew seconds of scilence to take it in, the betrayal doug going behind his back when he told him not to and lieing to him eveytime he asked him if there was something he didnt know.

stes eyes started to well up with anger hes started tightining his fists as his mind was going over and over at what doug had jus cofessed to him

the sound of his name being called by doug snapped ste out of his thaughts.

'you what?! after everything i told you and you keeping this from me i thaught u were diffrent doug but your not your just like eveone else'.

'no ste please, i just wanted him out of our lives for good, doug pleaded with him but ste was having none of it he snaped at doug shooting of the chair over to the counter'

'NO! he was allready out of our lives dont you get that, is YOU whos bringing him back into it, we were free but no you had to go mess things up as usual.'

the anger welled up in doug and he let out a rough as loud as stes walking over to him furiously,

ME! your the one one still in love with him!, yeah dont think i dont notce it the way you look at him when he walks into the deli or when your face dropes as he leaves

are you stupid! u know evrything hes put me through and you really think im still in love with him or are you just jealouse and inscure that i will leave you the same way becks left you,

ste immedietly regreted what he just said , the sight of dougs face drop as he menshion becks made his heart ach "doug im sorry i dint mean to"

but before he could finesh what he was saying doug had left the deli and went back to the flat leaving ste and his thaughts alone.

the clock hit 3o'clock meaning the sunday rush was over and ste could head home to sort things out with doug, it was much easyer now amy and the kids had left, yeah he missed them like crazy but it now means ste doesnt have to be quiet or him and doug dont just have to have there privet times in just the bedroom. in just the short cupple of weeks they left ste and doug had done it on the sofa in the kitchen the shower even up against front door.

ste smiled at the thaughts started runing through his head all the good time with doug and not a single thaught of brendan came into it, as he aproched the front door he could feel the guilt and angziety creep through his body into his throught,

his key turned into the door and he pushed the stif handle to open it, the flat was in silence doug was nowere to be seen, as ste was looking trough the flat he heard the sound of the shower running he knocked on the door "doug"..."doug you in there" he could he doug on the other side of the door but there was on reply so he went into the bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed waiting for doug to finish.

doug walked into the bedroom wraped in only a purple towel, as the water driped down his body' god he looked so good i could of pounced on him there and then marking his whole body mith my mouth, doug noticed ste stearing at his body his eyes burnng into his skin, doug let out a cough from the back of his throat wich soon snapped ste into reality,

doug, i think we need to talk.

doug just looked away avoiding eye contact with the young man

'please...please', ste reached out and grabed doug by the elbow to the edge of the bed to sit down'

im sorry i know i souldnt of brought becks into it, it wa out of order i know i was just angry.

doug looked up into stes apolagetic eyes pleading for forgivness

'its fine really'

' no its not i dont want you feeling like im still in love with brendan im not im in love with you i will never get back with brendan ever thats why i married you i dont whant nobody els'

doug looked deeply into stes eyes and lunged for his lips smacking both mouthes together to find ste pulling away

'are your sure you whant to do this'

yeah prove to me im the one you want

doug then whent back in for another kiss to get a better reaction from ste returning the kiss and grabbing the back of dougs neck to pull him in closer,

both boys floped back onto the matress locked together neither one wanting to let go, doug opend his mouth giving ste acces to what he so deeply craved, ste took adavantage and used his tongue to devour every inch of dougs mouth.

doug pulled ste ontop of him and quickly made work of stripping ste of every item of clothing,

stes shirt and trousers flung in a heep on the floor now with dougs towel ontop, doug completley naked and ste in only his boxers but doug made quick work of removing them.

ste made sure he marked evey part of doug with his mouth niping and sucking at his sweet spots.

ste pushed his groin into dougs making doug realese a slight groan from the back of his throat he was in heaven ste made him feel things nobody else could ever make him feel.

ste now grinding hard against doug as there dicks pulsed between them ste knew if he kept going doug wouldnt last much longer, he slowed down his thrusts as he reached into the bed side tabe to pull out a condom and some lube, doug quickly took them off him and turned ste onto his back. he reached down to stes trousers and pulled the belt from the loop, then tieing stes wrists together then around the headbored of the bed, ste struggled to get out then realised he had lost the battle and gave into dougs mischeviouse plan.

doug started by kissing and nipping at stes neck then down to his chest stopping at his nipples then down to his torso nipping and sucking , doug got down to stes pulsing member in neeed of attention and aching to be touch but ignored it insted he lubed up his fingers and inserted one into his own tight hole. ste watched as his husband sat before him pleasuring himself teasing ste.

he started letting out groans of pleasuer when he entered a third finger ste couldnt take it anymore he needed to be touched he needed them three finger that were inside doug to be inside him.

oh doug, touch me i need you to touch me to fuck me so hard i cant walk please doug fuck me.

at the sound of his pleading doug took out the three fingers and put his head next to stes pulsing cock, breathing lightley against it doug wispered just loud enough for ste to hear 'beg me, show me how much you whant me inside you, how much you whant my walm mouth around your dick c'mon ste beg me to fuck you'

'oh yes doug fuck me i whant your mouth aroud me and your hard cock inside me to feel you cum inside me oh doug fuck me please'

i think youve suffered enough, doug then took the whole of stes member into his mouth licking and sucking, the head of stes cock hitting the back of dougs throat everytime.

ste felt quite proud that it was him who taught doug how to give a good bj just a cupple of months ago doug had never giving anyone head and now i must say the student had become the master. stes thaughts drifted away as he could feel himself close to orgasm but doug stopped just before ste could cum.

lubing up his fingers again he spread stes legs apart and started to circle stes entrence before entering a finger moving in and out to open his tight hole then adding a second then a third when doug thought he was ready he slipped the condom on and lined up his cock with stes hole befor plunging hard into ste, letting out a loud gasps from stes lips.

he waited untill he felt ste relax around him then hes started moving in and out thrusting harder each time then doug started to hit stes prostate sending him into a frenzi, it only took doug a fiew more thrusts untill he cam and sortly after ste shot pools of cum across his chest and dougs hand.

doug withdrew himself from ste and collapsted beside him reasting his head on stes chest both boys lay there for a while until doug made the first move and sat up

'were ye goin'

'well one of us is going to have to check up o the deli dont we'

'ok but tonigh your mine'

witha peck on the lips doug left to get cleaned up and ready for work.

a fiew weeks later of woking endlesly in the deli and having no time to rest doug gets a phone call from his parents telling him to come home his dad is sick and they whant him and ste to move to america a new start away from hollyoaks they could open a deli over thair and the kid and amy could come visit they would pay.

'c'mon ste it will be a great opetunity for us a new start away from here away from our past (meaning brendan brady)

'i dont know doug theres alot to think about'

whats there to think about? it will be you me a brand new deli, lets face it this ones not working so well its going down hill as we speek'

'i dont no doug right just leave it'

'its because of him isnt it, you dont whant to move because you know if u do you will have to admit thigs with u and him are over for good'

'what no, why would you think that?'

'well ste hes moving to irland soon anyways so c'mon move to america with me'

'doug just shut up ok, i need time to think abut it'

'to think about him more like,...look me in the eye and tell me you dont have feelings fo him'

'what no your being stupid'

'because it true. i knew it i knew you still loved him and i would allways be second best you never really loved me!'

'ok'

'ok what?'

'ok i will move to americe'

'really'

'yeah you think im still in love with him then i wil prove it to you were gona get away from here just me and you away from the past and away from brendan thats how much i love you, and never say i dont love you because i do i will allways love you doug'

the biggest smile came across dougs face nairly cracking his skin ans he grabs ste and pulls him into the biggest hug

'i love you ste you dont know how much'

'i love you to' ste says while looking out the deli window up a chez chez to see a certain iriish man standing at the balcony.