I am writing my second One-shot. I know I forgot to put this on the last one but I don't own Instant star or the Song Falling Down by Avril Lavigne.

If fear's what makes us decide
Our future journey
Well I'm not along for the ride
Cuz I'm still yearning
To try and touch the sky
My fingers burning
Before you're old you are young
Yeah I'm still learning

Who knew that the journeys we make would be based on fear. I always seemed to believe that we chose our own journey. Not by something that influenced it, especially emotions like fear. I have always based my theories on the way things happened to me. No matter if they were good or bad. Like winning the Instant Star competition. It is the best journey I am taking. It lead me to the most important person in my life. By making the decision to enter the contest and then winning, I was able to meet the love of my life.

I am falling down
Try and stop me
Feels so good
To hit the ground
You can watch me
Fall right on my face
It's an uphill human race
And I am falling down

I am sitting here tonight, thinking back on the day that he left and him saying he wasn't coming back. He was not coming back to me or back to Toronto. After realizing he seriously was not coming back, I fell into an unbelievable depression. I never wanted to stop falling into the abyss because I needed to hit rock bottom. If I hit rock bottom then my life would have the ability to start over and get back on track again. Sadie tried to help me up, when I fell, but then again so did every one around me. I never needed help, what I really needed was you back.

I'm standing out in the street
The earth is moving
I feel it under my feet
And I'm still proving
That I can stand my ground
And my feet aren't there
Haven't washed my hair
To be lost before you
I'm found
Don't mean you're losing

I was outside G-major today for the first time in a while. I haven't been there to record in about 6 months. I would come for meetings then leave, it was just too hard to stay knowing that you weren't there. Though now I could care less, I am standing my ground. I've made up my mind; I do not need you here with me. Just because you're gone doesn't mean you took everything from me.

I am falling down
Try and stop me
Feels so good
To hit the ground
You can watch me
Fall right on my face
It's an uphill human race
And I am falling down

Life seemed to stop the moment I walked through the door. It seemed like everyone knew something I didn't. I could tell by the whispers and the sympathy looks thrown my way and I knew what it was; you were back. That could be the only reason for it all. You were back and I didn't know what to think. But all I felt was like I was going to hit the ground face first and have you watch. Just to be picked up again and to think that a month ago I needed to fall down and hit rock bottom before I went somewhere I couldn't make it back up.

Someday I'll live in a house
Ect, ect, ect...
But you know that's not for now
And for now I'm falling
Down, down, down
Down, down, down
Down, down, down
(I am falling down)
Yeah yeah yeah yeah..
Ohh..

I may be young but I know what I want. I want the big house and kids (someday). But for now I am happy just falling down. I know that when you are here you will be there to watch me and to lend a helping hand when I need it.

I am falling down
Try and stop me
Feels so good
To hit the ground
You can watch me
Fall right on my face
It's an uphill human race
And I am falling down

I'm fallin down
I'm fallin down
Fallin, fallin, fallin
Feels so good
To hit the ground
Oh I'm fallin

I, Jude Harrison, will always fall down for you Tom Quincy. Isn't falling in love with someone falling down many times. Tom Quincy, I love you.