Love Always, Liv

By: Liv-x-Case-Benson & dcmasters

Ch. 1: Stay

Casey and Olivia had been seeing each other for a couple of months. At first, they'd filled a void the other was missing, often ending their Friday night drinks with casual, usually rough, sex. But recently the couple had seemed to develop a more emotional connection. No matter how annoyed Olivia was that Casey always left a short while after and never stayed the night, she couldn't deny how she felt about the young ADA.

So, tonight, when they'd ended up in bed together, Olivia had made sure it wasn't their usual rough session. Instead, it was a slow, passionate one and when Casey's moans had been more desperate than usual, the detective smiled.

"Oh... Liv..." Casey managed, feeling herself get closer as she glanced at her slightly shaky left hand.

Olivia smiled, moving up to hold her close, kissing her.

Casey kissed Olivia with passion, pulling away a minute later as her breathing hitched. "Mmm... f-fuck!" she moaned, her hips bucking.

Olivia kissed her neck. "Come on, Case! I know you want to. I do."

"Yes... Olivia!" Casey screamed as she came harder than she ever had.

"Casey! Oh...yes!" she moaned into her neck, coming hard.

Casey attempted to catch her breath, her whole body trembling as she held Olivia close.

Olivia smiled, holding Casey close. "Are you ok?"

"More than ok," Casey smiled, "That was... wow."

Olivia kissed her passionately. "Mmm, would you like a little more?"

"You trying to tire me out?" Casey moaned, returning the kiss.

"Maybe...?" Olivia said.

"I... I should prep for trial..."

Olivia sighed. "Casey, you never stay. What is it? What's wrong with me?"

"Nothing. Liv, you're perfect, in every way."

Olivia shook her head. "But I never get the other thing I want."

"I'm sorry," Casey sighed, growing quiet.

Olivia sighed. "Well, if you really need to prep, you should go. I-it's ok," she said, rolling away from Casey.

Casey sighed, pulling Olivia back to her. "Ok... I'll stay..."

Olivia looked up. "Really?"

Casey nodded. "But I'll warn you now, I'm not a very good sleeper. I tend to move around a lot."

"Oh, nightmares?"

"Yeah. I don't want to hurt you."

"So, why was your hand shaking earlier, but not the rest of your body?"

"I don't know, it was kinda random."

Olivia nodded. "Ok, so do I need to know anything else about when you sleep?"

Casey shook her head, yawning. "It doesn't happen every night."

Olivia snuggled into her. "Got it. If I wake up with a shiner, I'll blame it on a door."

Casey gave a soft laugh, closing her eyes. She couldn't deny she was exhausted as she quickly fell asleep, hoping tonight was a good night.

Olivia slept soundly until about 3am, when Casey suddenly began to tremble violently. Sitting up, Olivia turned a light on. "Casey?"

Casey stirred slowly, looking up sleepily at Olivia. "Yeah?" she asked used to the tremor, so in her sleepiness didn't really notice.

"You mean, you don't know your body just broke out into spasms?" the detective asked. "Casey, this is serious! You could have Epilepsy. You should get it checked."

"I'm fine! I need to go home," Casey said, somewhat angrily as she pushed herself up, falling back down when her muscles initially failed her, giving a frustrated sigh. She hated this.

Olivia helped her sit up. "Casey," she said gently. hugging her. "I'm not angry. I want to help if I can. Please."

"This is exactly why I didn't want to stay," Casey replied, pulling away from Olivia, slowly managing to sit on the edge of the bed, pulling her clothes on, thankful she hadn't picked buttons that morning.

Olivia followed her movements. "Casey, please! If it's personal, I promise I won't tell!" she said, hugging her. "I love you...and I want to help."

"What?" Casey asked finally looking at Olivia. "What did you just say?"

"I...I-I said I..I love you," Olivia managed. "Please don't shut me out. We can sit up all night talking if you want," she said, taking her hand.

"But I... I can't love you, even though I want to..."

"Why not? Please talk to me!" Olivia pleaded.

"Because... it's not fair!"

"But I'll be here for you no matter what!" the detective said, hugging her gently.

"Don't! You can't fall for me. We can never be equals."

"It doesn't matter, ok? It doesn't. It's too late for us not to fall, Casey."

Casey's hands trembled more as tears rolled down her cheeks and she raised a hand under Olivia's jaw. "I... I do love you."

Olivia hugged her tightly. "Then please don't leave me," she said, kissing away her tears.

"I'm going to need you more than you need me."

Olivia shook her head. "You make me happy, so I need you."

"I need my bag, and a glass of water."

Olivia nodded, quickly getting Casey's bag and a glass of water, turning on the main light, taking them to her.

Casey dug around in her bag for a moment before removing three easy open pill bottles, giving another frustrated sigh when the muscles in her hands wouldn't allow her to open them, having not taken her pills before bed.

Olivia sat beside her. "Would you like me to get them open for you?"

Casey nodded, swallowing hard. "Yeah," she replied, shakily wiping a tear from her cheek.

Olivia kissed it away, opening the three bottles. "One each, right?" she asked, holding them out for her.

Casey nodded, picking the glass up, glad Olivia hadn't filled it to the top as she took her pills slowly.

Olivia recapped the bottles, putting them back in her bag, rubbing her back. "Anything else?"

"No. Thanks," Casey sighed.

"More water?"

Casey shook her head. "I'm ok."

Olivia nodded, holding her hand securely. "Sleep?"

"No. That's me for the night now that my insomnia's kicked in."

Olivia nodded. "Lay with me?"

Casey nodded, slowly moving into Olivia's arms.

Olivia smiled, holding her securely. "I love you."

"You know you can't take that back now, right?"

Olivia nodded. "I know, but I never will."