Disclaimer: I bet there's no need to remind you who owns Buffy. Well, I don't. All that I own is the crazyness and the patience to write my fanfic. Lol.
"This time it will work", BTVS Fanfic by Akarui Kibuno.
Chapter 1 : A little trip to realize
She paused for a second. Never thought it would go that far. Never thought it could go beyond all she had ever lived.
- Could I at least know if you love me, Buffy ?
She couldn't answer.
- I just... I don't know. I'm so... confused... it'll take some time.
Then she ran off, as if running for her life. She didn't stop before a long time. When she stopped, Buffy found herself in the woods. No noise, nothing. Just the wind and the leaves of the trees. She decided to sit under a tree to think.
" This is not possible. I cannot love him. He's everything I'm not, he's everything I'm against, he's just... " She hadn't finished to think about that that she heard something strange. Not exactly something sniffing, but it was near that.
- Oh yeah so even when I'm wandering and thinking about nothing I have to deal with that ? Duh, pleaaaase give me some rest!
Buffy got up, a stake always ready in her hand. But there wasn't anything to hear. Nothing to see. Buffy sat down again, feeling almost paranoic. She had been feeling much evil around her lately. Maybe because of Spike's influence. He could say whatever he wanted, he was still evil, for he hadn't been "granted" what Angel had been. Speaking of whom, she wondered how he was, after all that time. She got up again.
- Yeah... Angel... hmm, good idea.
On the way home she thought about the way she'd explain her departure. She wouldn't do it as she had done when she thought she had killed Angel, cause even though Giles wasn't there, they would be angry at her. She put everything that she could in a bag, took some money, and left.
The next morning, Dawn woke up with the feeling that something wasn't allright. Since she had been through lots of things, she didn't panic. In the kitchen, she took everything that she needed for her breakfast, as usual, then saw the note on the table.
" Dawnie,
I don't have much time, but I have something really important to do in LA.
I don't know when I'll be back: maybe three days, maybe a week. Tell the
others I'm ok. And if Spike... duh, don't even think about him, or maybe you
can tell him too, and if he wants to come to guard to house, I'd be happy.
I'll be home as soon as possible, I promise.
Buffy. "
Dawn almost dropped her bowl when she read it. At once she took the phone and called Willow.
- Willow, Willow, you have to come home, it's... it's...
- What, Dawnie ?
- Something happened! Everyone has to come!
- Okay, no problem, Dawnie, calm down, we're all coming, okay ?
- Thanks, Willow, thanks.
Then Dawn thought about Spike. She didn't even know the reason why Buffy would have mentioned him in her note, but she felt he had to be there too. She got out, searching for his crypt. He was sleeping when she entered.
- Spike! Spike, get up!
He opened his eyes with difficulty, and realized who was there.
- Dawn! What are you doing here... at this time of day ?
- Something happened. I can't tell before everyone is gathered home, but I felt you had to come too.
- Dawn, remember vampires and daylight don't get along ?
- I know, I know, this is why I brought this. Come with me now.
- Okay, I'm coming.
He put a protection on and they ran together to the Summers' house. Quickly, Dawn closed all the windows, switched on the lights, and let Spike in the living-room. Soon after, all the others arrived. They were a bit surprised to see Spike, but didn't comment.
- So, Dawnie, what happened ? asked Xander.
- Well, Buffy... she left a note this morning.
- And what is the problem about that ? wondered Willow.
- Well, take a look at it and you'll see.
The note passed from hands to hands, even Spike read it. His face was quite sad but he didn't say anything. Everyone was surprized.
- How come she's going to see Angel without telling us first ?
- I don't know, Will. But it must have been something really important, and this time, she left a note before leaving, Xander said.
- Huh, maybe someone will explain me what's with LA ?
- Dawnie, Willow answered, didn't Buffy tell you about Angel ?
- Oh yeah, that other vampire, yup, heard some stuff.
- Well he lives in LA now and if Buffy went to see him, it must be that something happened, cause she's either gonna kill him for good, something I don't really think she'd do, or she's gonna be in his arms again, and I wonder why she would do that now.
Hearing "in his arms again", Spike's face got even sadder. The others didn't really notice but Dawn did. She didn't tell anything though, cause what she felt didn't have to be said in front of everyone.
- Well, Dawnie, I think we only have to wait. It's not like she had been trapped in some demon's trick, so we just have to wait for her to come back.
- Yeah, you may be right, Willow. Thanks for coming anyway.
- That's normal, Dawnie. We're here to help you, too.
After these words, Xander and Willow, and Anya and Tara too, who hadn't said a word, left. Dawn waited until she was sure they were far from the house, then turned to Spike.
- Why do you look so sad right now, Spike ?
- Dawn, listen, I can't...
- You love her, right ?
- What ?
- You're in love with Buffy, Spike, is that true ?
- I won't deny it.
- And why were you so sad when you read the note ?
- Because she was with me before she left. Yesterday. I... I can't tell you everything but...
- You don't have to tell. I'm a big girl, so I know about that stuff.
- Well she was with me, told me she was confused, and ran off. I was so shocked I didn't move.
- So she loves you, too ?
- This I can't tell. If she does love me, why would she run to see Angel, then ?
- I don't know more than you do. But, you know what ? I like you, Spike. I don't know most of what you've done, but I like you. And I hope that Buffy will come back with happy news for you, and for us.
- But the Scoobies will never let her.
- All that I know is that they wouldn't prevent her from being happy. If she comes back for you, they'll accept, or she'll break with them.
They both realized that Dawn had said "if". Not "when", but "if". Even Buffy's sister wasn't sure. Not that Buffy had told anything to her, but even Dawn couldn't guess. Spike wanted to leave the house, but couldn't, for it was still daytime. And Dawn asked him to stay anyway, until Buffy came back, because she felt he would be the one that would protect her as she had to be. Having nothing to lose, Spike accepted, and being with Dawn comforted him more than staying alone in his crypt.
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Buffy froze. She hadn't been in LA for so long that she had almost forgotten how it was. She wondered how she could find Angel's office in all that mess. Then she remembered the time she had come, though that was more than a year ago, and realized that she sort of still knew the way. Yet she was a bit afraid. She had known from Willow and Xander that none of them had told Angel, or Cordelia, that she had been brought back thanks to a spell. She asked herself if it was good to go, but couldn't help doing it anyway.
When she reached the corner in which Angel's office was, Buffy paused. From the outside, she could see Cordelia... and Wesley, with a baby. She stared at them for a couple of minutes when she decided to hide herself and talk to them before revealing who she was. Then she gathered all the strenght she had in her, and pushed the door.
- Welcome to Angel Investigations! How can we help you ?
- I'm here cause... I have a big problem. What a cute baby! Buffy said, looking at Connor.
- Oh! His name is Connor, and he's Angel's son, said Wesley proudly. I'm the nurse.
- And I'm the help-nurse, added Cordelia with a smile.
Buffy almost choked.
- Angel has a child ? How is that possible ? I thought he...
- So you already met him before ? asked Wesley.
- Yeah, a long time ago though.
- Well then you must know he's a...
- Yeah, I know.
- Well his baby's story is so complicated! Actually Connor is also Darla's son.
- But she is a...
- No, she's really dead now, and had been reborn and this is really complicated and I don't know why I'm saying this to you since I don't know you at all though I felt as if I had to tell, said Cordelia quickly, realizing all that she had told.
- Well, Cordelia, I bet you know me, said Buffy who couldn't wait any longer.
Yet she didn't take off her protection yet.
- And how could I ? Can't even recognize you since you're hidden.
- Well, I didn't want it to be that much of a shock, but... Do you remember Buffy ?
It's as if a shadow had covered Wesley's and Cordelia's faces.
- Yes, we do. She was someone wonderful. But she is dead. Went away after a brave fight...
- Came back.
- What ? said the two.
Buffy then uncovered herself and the two almost collapsed.
- B...but... That's impossible!
- It is, Cordelia. Willow brought me back. She's a powerful witch, even though she doesn't use her powers anymore.
- It's so wonderful! screamed Cordelia with joy. I'm so happy! Angel will be so happy! You can't imagine what it's been for him.
- Willow told me. She told me how she came to tell. But all of this is over now. I won't ask about Connor, but did Angel become human or what ?
- Nope. Actually we'll tell you anyway. Darla had been reborn as a human and wanted Angel. And they you-know-what, and that's the story.
- Then Angel is a demon again!
- Nope. You're the only person that ever made him happy, Connor excepted.
- Oh. I see.
- The thing is Darla was made a vampire again, but well I didn't understand all of it either, all that I know is that Angel has a son, and that when he sees you he's gonna be so happy!
- I'm not gonna reconcile with him. I mean, not the romantic way.
- Oh.
- I sort of found someone else.
- Oh.
- But I had to get things settled, since I've been brought back. I want things to be settled for good, you know. I'm still confused about that new love, oh God I called that love! I may really love him after all... Oh well, I have to see Angel.
- I'm gonna take you to him, said Cordelia. Follow me. But don't unter till I tell you, okay ?
- No problem, agreed Buffy.
She followed Cordelia to Angel's office, where only one light was on. Cordelia entered. Angel was busy thinking. As he was often.
- What do you want, Cordelia ? I'm a bit preoccupied, you know.
- Yeah, I know, all those things about Connor and all that...
- Yes, and that's why you're gonna get out of this room to let me think about it.
- Huh, well, I can't.
- Huh, well, why not ?
- Hem-hem. Someone asks for help from you.
- And how am I supposed to deal with it in daylight, my brillliant Cordelia ?
- Well when you know about her... You'll change your mind, buddy.
- Her ? So it's a woman. Okay. And what does her have that special that will make me come out of my office in daylight ?
- You won't need to. She's here.
- Ah. Why doesn't she enter then ?
- Well... I wanted to prepare you. Stay sat down, first. And don't d......... huh you're already, huh, oh well, don't get ill or something, don't even collapse.
- But why the hell would I do that ?
- Just look. (to Buffy) You can come now.
Buffy, still protected, entered the office. Angel, not realizing at first, didn't say anything.
- So, miss, what's your problem ?
- I'm back, Angel.
- You're.......... what ??
Buffy then uncovered herself, and looked at Angel silently. Angel remained silent, but she could see the surprise on his face. Well, that wasn't exactly surprise. Maybe more than amazement. Something that couldn't really be described.
- B...Buffy! Is that really you and not a clone ?
- No, Angel, it's really me.
- How come you're here ?
- Willow brought me back. 2 months after I was... huh, you know. Many things happened since then.
- Oh, ok. And why did you come here now ?
- Well, we know that between us it is impossible, but well I found someone after returning from my other world and well, since you didn't know I had returned, I wanted to tell you about it.
- Buffy, these things are none of my business. You can live... live your life as you want.
- I thought I had to tell you. Cause I'm... I think I'm really in love with that guy.
- Riley ?
- Nope. He left and he's even married now.
- Ah. Who's the lucky guy then ?
- Well it's sort of complicated to tell it like that. You may not approve.
- Buffy, that's, well, that's sweet of you to come here to tell me you're alive while I thought you were dead and to announce me at the same time that you've found someone, but will you tell me who he is ?
- Are you sure you want to hear his name ?
- Yeah.
- William.
- Cool name.
- Real name. And you know him.
- Huh ?
- Spike.
- *coughs and almost chokes* Spike ? Did I hear what I just heard, Buffy ?
- Yeah.
- Well I don't have to say anything, cause it's your choice. Won't say it make me happy though, I bet you would have known that.
- Yeah, I knew it, but, you know, I had to come. Even if it only had been to tell you I'm alive. Cause starting all this other life without telling you would not have been fair, I think.
- Hmm. Well, it's been such a long time, and now I have Connor to worry about. So it won't kill me... since I'm already dead anyway. If Cordy was in the room I bet she would have loved to say it.
He said that with a smile and then stopped.
- So, is that everything you have to say, Angel ?
- Well, I don't think I'd have anything else to say except I'm happy, because I thought you were dead and you haven't been dead that long. I'm happy because you can live again, almost as before, and when you go back to Sunnydale, you'll go back to your life, and that'll be a great thing cause I won't be there to bother.
- You're really not encouraging me with that tone, you know.
- So what do you want me to say then ?
- Oh, I don't know. But at least, you know now. And I know about your son, and well I think that on both sides we have something that hurts the other.
- Oh, yeah, Connor... Great little guy, huh ?
- Yeah. Cutte little Angel's son. Huh, real, biological son and all that ?
- Huh, yeah.
- Oh. So vampires can still... have... babies ?
- Looks like they can. Maybe I'm the only one who can, since I have what most of vampires don't have.
- Yeah. That must be it. Let's hope he grows old and alive and happy.
- He's normal, you know, completely human. We checked.
- Oh. And the baby's normal.
- Yeah... hem, do you wanna stay here for the night before coming back to Sunnydale or do you have other plans ?
- I don't have any plan right now. Maybe I can stay at Cordelia's.
- Oh, hem, of course. Cordelia!
She entered the room five seconds after that.
- Huh, Cordelia, asked Buffy, would you please allow me to stay at your place for the night before I go back to Sunnydale ?
- Yeah, of course, why not ? You'll have to meet a friend though.
- Huh ?
- A ghost. Don't worry, I'll explain. Hmm, Angel, may we leave now ?
- Yeah, if you want. Is Wesley still with Connor ?
- Yeah, he's playing with him, you don't even have to worry.
Buffy looked at Angel, as if asking him to ask her to stay. But he didn't say anything like that. She felt relieved of something that was like a burden. She was sort of freed from Angel... free, at last, after all that time. She smiled, and went to kiss him on the cheek.
- Thanks, Angel. Let's hope you'll be happy with Connor. Good luck!
Then Buffy turned to Cordelia and followed her. Angel smiled. He had just lost Buffy again, but at least, she was alive, and that was all that mattered.
Cordelia couldn't stop chatting on the way to her apartment. When she saw it, Buffy was amazed.
- Wow, nice place Cordelia!
Then she saw a cup of tea flying to Cordelia.
- Huh ? What's that ?
- My dear friend, let me introduce you to Buffy. She lives in Sunnydale and she's gonna be here for the night.
Cordelia took Buffy to the living room, and a few minutes after that, a cup arrived near Buffy. She took it with a smile.
- Thanks a lot for the tea!
Cordelia went into her room to put something more comfortable on, then joined Buffy on her couch.
- So, tell me about everything I have to know from Sunnydale.
- Hmm. Nothing much. Xander almost got married with Anya but it didn't work. Willow broke up with Tara, and it looks like they're getting together again. And hmm... Giles left for England, and I'm in love with someone.
- Oh! You're in love! Cool! Who is it ?
- You didn't listen through the door ?
- Nope, was playing with Wesley and Connor.
- Well I'm in love with Spike. Remember him ?
- Sort of.......duh, Spike ?
- Yeah.
- That crazy vampire ?
- Yeah.
- Isn't he evil, not like Angel, I mean ?
- He still is. But he has calmed down and he loves me, and I think I do love him too.
- Well, as long as you can work things out, I'm with you, you deserve a life, after all.
- Yeah, I think I do. Oh I'm so tired, where can I sleep ?
- Take my bed. To recover from your hard journey to here, and to prove I can be a good host, you can take my bed. That'll be better than the couch. This way when you go back to Sunnydale you'll be all fresh and pretty!
- Thanks a lot, Cordelia. You changed so much, it's amazing.
- Oh, you know, working with Angel helped me changing a lot. And I couldn't have kept acting as I did five years ago. Now that I think of it, I was really horrible. Brattiest brat of them all. But now all of this is over and I'm Best Host of Them All.
Buffy laughed. She felt at ease in this place. But she had to think about her return. Cordelia took her to the bed, and said goodnight. Once the light was switched off by Cordelia's nice friend, Buffy wondered if she'd be able to really talk to the others. She wondered what Dawn would say. She hoped they wouldn't blame her for her choice. But they may not understand.
Buffy then decided to stop thinking about that: for the moment, she needed sleep, cause the trip back to Sunnydale would be long and tiring.
The next morning, she was woken up by the smell of coffee that Cordelia's friend had brought.
- Oh, thanks again. You're really a nice host. May I shake your hand ?
She lifted her hand, waiting. Then it was shaken softly and she smiled.
- I wish I could stay here longer, but I have to get dressed and go back home. Where's Cordelia ?
Cordelia was in the kitchen, already dressed.
- Are you ready, Buffy ?
- Yeah... I think so. Thanks for letting me use your bed.
- And thanks for coming. I'm so happy that you're alive! And, say hi to everyone when you get back.
- I won't forget it. Goodbye, Cordelia.
- Oh wait don't you want me to take you somewhere ?
- No, thanks, I'll be okay.
- As you want. Goodbye, and good luck!
- Good luck to you yoo, Cordelia, and goodbye to your friend as well!
Buffy then opened Cordelia's door and left. To where her heart belonged.
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- I wonder when she'll come back, said Spike.
- I just don't know. Hey, relax, answered Dawn. She'll be back soon, I guess. It would take her two days to go, two days to come back, and it's been five days since she left, so she may even be running here right now.
- I just don't know, but it doesn't make me happy at all. What if Angel reconquered her ?
- That's impossible, Spike. Don't even dare to think that, okay ?
- Yeah, as if I could get rid of that thought easily.
- You'll have to cause I'm saying it. Okay ?
- Okay, I'll obey, Queen Dawnie.
- Ha, that's better. What about going out for a walk ? See, night already.
- Hmm. Yeah, why not. As long as I can forget those thoughts for a while.
Dawn took Spike by the arm and took him out. She smiled.
- You know what, Spike ?
- What ?
- I hope Buffy's gonna come back for you. This way she'll be happy forever.
- Let me remind you that she's as mortal as you are. So even if she comes back, it won't change the fact that I'm a vampire, she's a mortal, period.
- Hmm. Looks like someone's too pessimistic.
- Yeah, Dawnie, as if you knew anything about that.
- I don't, but, who knows, I bet there could be some kind of solution.
- If you say so... I'd rather believe you than be sad, after all, said Spike with a fake smile.
They hadn't been out for one hour, that they saw someone coming to them. Dawn recognized her sister way before Spike did - Spike was busy looking at stars - , and said "Bye bye Spike!" and ran back home. Spike looked at Dawn, a suspicious look on his face, and turned when he heard a small voice calling him.
- William ?
She had called him William. Not Spike. She was the only one to call him William.
- Buffy ?
He couldn't believe that she was here for him. So he didn't say anything. Not that soon. Maybe she was just here to tell him that she would be going for good, with Angel, in LA.
- So, how has been the little trip to LA ?
- Dawn told you ?
- Yeah. I stayed with her. Ann actually she showed the note to everyone.
- Ow. Well, at least, all of you know where I've been, that's, huh, great.
- Yeah, sort of. So ? Did you find there what you were looking for ?
- I think so. William, I...
- You only call me William when you' re sweet to me or something like that. Usually, when you wanna tear me apart you call me Spike. Hmm.
- William, I came back for you.
Spike almost collapsed.
- For me ? But, why ? I mean, do you... ?
- Didn't want to admit it at first, but looks like I love you, yeah.
- Oh. Okay.
Then he looked at the stars, walked a bit, then realized she had just told him she loved him. He turned to her and took her in his arms.
- Wait a minute! Did I hear what I just heard ?
Buffy looked at him with the most beautiful smile he ever got from her.
- Yes. I LOVE YOU, WILLIAM ! screamed Buffy in the night.
- It's... it's... Can't find the words.
- I know. Difficult to realize, huh ?
- Yeah. Kinda.
- What about you then ?
- Me ?
- Hmm hmm.
- I love you, Buffy. More than anyone I've ever loved or known, be sure of that.
Then he kissed her and smiled, and took her hands to dance for a while. After a few minutes, Buffy and Spike both realized that they had to find some solutions to some problems. Okay, they loved each other, but what about the dates and the places where they would meet and all that...
- William, I think you'd better come and live at home, with me, and Dawn.
- Well that would be quite difficult, did you think of the light ?
- Of course I did. My room doesn't need daylight, and we'll open the window only at some times, just so that the neighbours don't get suspicious.
- Are you sure of what you're offering me ?
- Yeah. Way sure. Don't wanna mess up with everything once again. Don't wanna miss that chance, you know ?
- You're amazing. Didn't think you could do that for me.
- Well, I'm able to, and I will do that. Do you want it or not ?
- Do you think I'd dare to refuse ? said Spike, laughing.
She took him by the hand and they ran together to the Summers' house. Dawn was waiting in the living room. She got up when she head Buffy's voice outside, and smiled. At last her sister was happy with someone.
- Dawnie ? In bed yet ?
- Nope. Waiting for you to see if Spike would come back with you.
- Oh. Did you guess ?
- Yup. And hoped, too.
- He's gonna live with us.
- Cool! When are we gonna tell the other Scoobies ?
Buffy stared at Dawn, then turned to Spike, thinking. She hadn't even given a thought about that. Telling the others.
- Damn I hadn't...
- Well, my dear Buffy, what about calling them for tomorrow evening ?
- Hmm, yeah, the sooner the better.
- And if we talk about the day itself, the later the better, as far as I'm concerned by daylight.
- Of course. No need to worry, William.
- So your real name's William, Spike ? Cool! Can I call you Willy ?
- Huh........yeah, if you want.
- Great! Well, not that I hate both of you, but gotta go to bed, since someone's still going to school sometimes here! Good night!
With a wink to Buffy and a giggle, Dawn went to her room, letting Buffy and Spike alone. They sat down on the couch. Then Buffy folded herself in Spike's arms, who sighed with delight. He never thought he could be like this some day. Well, he had hoped, but didn't really think it could happen. Him. With Buffy. Not only "The Slayer". The real Buffy. His Buffy.
- William, do you think we'll work things out ?
- Let's just hope. Dawn said she was sure there would be solutions to everything.
- You talked to Dawn about that ?
- Not my fault, said Spike. She guessed even before I could say "duh".
- Ow okay I see. I guess she really has more brain that I thought.
- Yeah. She's great. Comforted me all the time.
- Oh poor Spike. Why did you need comfort ?
- Well, I didn't think you'd come back. I thought you'd stay in LA.
- Well, that's impossible. He has a son, you know.
Spike glared at Buffy.
- He has a what ?
- A son. Named Connor.
- Huh ? How is that possible ?
- I don't think I need to show you a picture.
- Yeah, but... Who ? The mother, I mean, cause he woud have turned evil if...
- He said............huh well he said I'm the only one who could "...", as you say.
- Oh. Oooooooh please don't put that image in my head.
- I won't.
- But the mother ? Who's the mother ?
- Darla.
- Huh ? How's that possible ? She's a vampire too!
- Was. Really gone now, and don't ask more, for I don't know much about it. All that I know is that I'm with you, in love with you, and I hope it'll be so for a long long time.
- Yeah, let's hope, Buffy.
She smiled. Then she got up, and closed all the windows that could make enter sunlight in the living-room. Spike thanked her.
- I was afraid you'd fall asleep in my arms to wake up with some dust.
- Nope. Wasn't gonna risk that.
With another smile, Buffy put Spike's arms around her, and fell asleep. Spike could feel the warmth coming from her. She wasn't asleep because she was tired after they....... well, she wasn't asleep because of that. She felt confident in his arms because she loved him. Him. Spike. He was loved. By a wonderful woman. The most wonderful he'd ever met. He thanked his chip. This thing wouldn't have existed that he'd have been reduced to a pile of dust for a long time. "Hurrah to the Initiative", he though. Then, he thanked a million times whoever he could thanks for his luck, and before falling asleep too.
"This time it will work", BTVS Fanfic by Akarui Kibuno.
Chapter 1 : A little trip to realize
She paused for a second. Never thought it would go that far. Never thought it could go beyond all she had ever lived.
- Could I at least know if you love me, Buffy ?
She couldn't answer.
- I just... I don't know. I'm so... confused... it'll take some time.
Then she ran off, as if running for her life. She didn't stop before a long time. When she stopped, Buffy found herself in the woods. No noise, nothing. Just the wind and the leaves of the trees. She decided to sit under a tree to think.
" This is not possible. I cannot love him. He's everything I'm not, he's everything I'm against, he's just... " She hadn't finished to think about that that she heard something strange. Not exactly something sniffing, but it was near that.
- Oh yeah so even when I'm wandering and thinking about nothing I have to deal with that ? Duh, pleaaaase give me some rest!
Buffy got up, a stake always ready in her hand. But there wasn't anything to hear. Nothing to see. Buffy sat down again, feeling almost paranoic. She had been feeling much evil around her lately. Maybe because of Spike's influence. He could say whatever he wanted, he was still evil, for he hadn't been "granted" what Angel had been. Speaking of whom, she wondered how he was, after all that time. She got up again.
- Yeah... Angel... hmm, good idea.
On the way home she thought about the way she'd explain her departure. She wouldn't do it as she had done when she thought she had killed Angel, cause even though Giles wasn't there, they would be angry at her. She put everything that she could in a bag, took some money, and left.
The next morning, Dawn woke up with the feeling that something wasn't allright. Since she had been through lots of things, she didn't panic. In the kitchen, she took everything that she needed for her breakfast, as usual, then saw the note on the table.
" Dawnie,
I don't have much time, but I have something really important to do in LA.
I don't know when I'll be back: maybe three days, maybe a week. Tell the
others I'm ok. And if Spike... duh, don't even think about him, or maybe you
can tell him too, and if he wants to come to guard to house, I'd be happy.
I'll be home as soon as possible, I promise.
Buffy. "
Dawn almost dropped her bowl when she read it. At once she took the phone and called Willow.
- Willow, Willow, you have to come home, it's... it's...
- What, Dawnie ?
- Something happened! Everyone has to come!
- Okay, no problem, Dawnie, calm down, we're all coming, okay ?
- Thanks, Willow, thanks.
Then Dawn thought about Spike. She didn't even know the reason why Buffy would have mentioned him in her note, but she felt he had to be there too. She got out, searching for his crypt. He was sleeping when she entered.
- Spike! Spike, get up!
He opened his eyes with difficulty, and realized who was there.
- Dawn! What are you doing here... at this time of day ?
- Something happened. I can't tell before everyone is gathered home, but I felt you had to come too.
- Dawn, remember vampires and daylight don't get along ?
- I know, I know, this is why I brought this. Come with me now.
- Okay, I'm coming.
He put a protection on and they ran together to the Summers' house. Quickly, Dawn closed all the windows, switched on the lights, and let Spike in the living-room. Soon after, all the others arrived. They were a bit surprised to see Spike, but didn't comment.
- So, Dawnie, what happened ? asked Xander.
- Well, Buffy... she left a note this morning.
- And what is the problem about that ? wondered Willow.
- Well, take a look at it and you'll see.
The note passed from hands to hands, even Spike read it. His face was quite sad but he didn't say anything. Everyone was surprized.
- How come she's going to see Angel without telling us first ?
- I don't know, Will. But it must have been something really important, and this time, she left a note before leaving, Xander said.
- Huh, maybe someone will explain me what's with LA ?
- Dawnie, Willow answered, didn't Buffy tell you about Angel ?
- Oh yeah, that other vampire, yup, heard some stuff.
- Well he lives in LA now and if Buffy went to see him, it must be that something happened, cause she's either gonna kill him for good, something I don't really think she'd do, or she's gonna be in his arms again, and I wonder why she would do that now.
Hearing "in his arms again", Spike's face got even sadder. The others didn't really notice but Dawn did. She didn't tell anything though, cause what she felt didn't have to be said in front of everyone.
- Well, Dawnie, I think we only have to wait. It's not like she had been trapped in some demon's trick, so we just have to wait for her to come back.
- Yeah, you may be right, Willow. Thanks for coming anyway.
- That's normal, Dawnie. We're here to help you, too.
After these words, Xander and Willow, and Anya and Tara too, who hadn't said a word, left. Dawn waited until she was sure they were far from the house, then turned to Spike.
- Why do you look so sad right now, Spike ?
- Dawn, listen, I can't...
- You love her, right ?
- What ?
- You're in love with Buffy, Spike, is that true ?
- I won't deny it.
- And why were you so sad when you read the note ?
- Because she was with me before she left. Yesterday. I... I can't tell you everything but...
- You don't have to tell. I'm a big girl, so I know about that stuff.
- Well she was with me, told me she was confused, and ran off. I was so shocked I didn't move.
- So she loves you, too ?
- This I can't tell. If she does love me, why would she run to see Angel, then ?
- I don't know more than you do. But, you know what ? I like you, Spike. I don't know most of what you've done, but I like you. And I hope that Buffy will come back with happy news for you, and for us.
- But the Scoobies will never let her.
- All that I know is that they wouldn't prevent her from being happy. If she comes back for you, they'll accept, or she'll break with them.
They both realized that Dawn had said "if". Not "when", but "if". Even Buffy's sister wasn't sure. Not that Buffy had told anything to her, but even Dawn couldn't guess. Spike wanted to leave the house, but couldn't, for it was still daytime. And Dawn asked him to stay anyway, until Buffy came back, because she felt he would be the one that would protect her as she had to be. Having nothing to lose, Spike accepted, and being with Dawn comforted him more than staying alone in his crypt.
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Buffy froze. She hadn't been in LA for so long that she had almost forgotten how it was. She wondered how she could find Angel's office in all that mess. Then she remembered the time she had come, though that was more than a year ago, and realized that she sort of still knew the way. Yet she was a bit afraid. She had known from Willow and Xander that none of them had told Angel, or Cordelia, that she had been brought back thanks to a spell. She asked herself if it was good to go, but couldn't help doing it anyway.
When she reached the corner in which Angel's office was, Buffy paused. From the outside, she could see Cordelia... and Wesley, with a baby. She stared at them for a couple of minutes when she decided to hide herself and talk to them before revealing who she was. Then she gathered all the strenght she had in her, and pushed the door.
- Welcome to Angel Investigations! How can we help you ?
- I'm here cause... I have a big problem. What a cute baby! Buffy said, looking at Connor.
- Oh! His name is Connor, and he's Angel's son, said Wesley proudly. I'm the nurse.
- And I'm the help-nurse, added Cordelia with a smile.
Buffy almost choked.
- Angel has a child ? How is that possible ? I thought he...
- So you already met him before ? asked Wesley.
- Yeah, a long time ago though.
- Well then you must know he's a...
- Yeah, I know.
- Well his baby's story is so complicated! Actually Connor is also Darla's son.
- But she is a...
- No, she's really dead now, and had been reborn and this is really complicated and I don't know why I'm saying this to you since I don't know you at all though I felt as if I had to tell, said Cordelia quickly, realizing all that she had told.
- Well, Cordelia, I bet you know me, said Buffy who couldn't wait any longer.
Yet she didn't take off her protection yet.
- And how could I ? Can't even recognize you since you're hidden.
- Well, I didn't want it to be that much of a shock, but... Do you remember Buffy ?
It's as if a shadow had covered Wesley's and Cordelia's faces.
- Yes, we do. She was someone wonderful. But she is dead. Went away after a brave fight...
- Came back.
- What ? said the two.
Buffy then uncovered herself and the two almost collapsed.
- B...but... That's impossible!
- It is, Cordelia. Willow brought me back. She's a powerful witch, even though she doesn't use her powers anymore.
- It's so wonderful! screamed Cordelia with joy. I'm so happy! Angel will be so happy! You can't imagine what it's been for him.
- Willow told me. She told me how she came to tell. But all of this is over now. I won't ask about Connor, but did Angel become human or what ?
- Nope. Actually we'll tell you anyway. Darla had been reborn as a human and wanted Angel. And they you-know-what, and that's the story.
- Then Angel is a demon again!
- Nope. You're the only person that ever made him happy, Connor excepted.
- Oh. I see.
- The thing is Darla was made a vampire again, but well I didn't understand all of it either, all that I know is that Angel has a son, and that when he sees you he's gonna be so happy!
- I'm not gonna reconcile with him. I mean, not the romantic way.
- Oh.
- I sort of found someone else.
- Oh.
- But I had to get things settled, since I've been brought back. I want things to be settled for good, you know. I'm still confused about that new love, oh God I called that love! I may really love him after all... Oh well, I have to see Angel.
- I'm gonna take you to him, said Cordelia. Follow me. But don't unter till I tell you, okay ?
- No problem, agreed Buffy.
She followed Cordelia to Angel's office, where only one light was on. Cordelia entered. Angel was busy thinking. As he was often.
- What do you want, Cordelia ? I'm a bit preoccupied, you know.
- Yeah, I know, all those things about Connor and all that...
- Yes, and that's why you're gonna get out of this room to let me think about it.
- Huh, well, I can't.
- Huh, well, why not ?
- Hem-hem. Someone asks for help from you.
- And how am I supposed to deal with it in daylight, my brillliant Cordelia ?
- Well when you know about her... You'll change your mind, buddy.
- Her ? So it's a woman. Okay. And what does her have that special that will make me come out of my office in daylight ?
- You won't need to. She's here.
- Ah. Why doesn't she enter then ?
- Well... I wanted to prepare you. Stay sat down, first. And don't d......... huh you're already, huh, oh well, don't get ill or something, don't even collapse.
- But why the hell would I do that ?
- Just look. (to Buffy) You can come now.
Buffy, still protected, entered the office. Angel, not realizing at first, didn't say anything.
- So, miss, what's your problem ?
- I'm back, Angel.
- You're.......... what ??
Buffy then uncovered herself, and looked at Angel silently. Angel remained silent, but she could see the surprise on his face. Well, that wasn't exactly surprise. Maybe more than amazement. Something that couldn't really be described.
- B...Buffy! Is that really you and not a clone ?
- No, Angel, it's really me.
- How come you're here ?
- Willow brought me back. 2 months after I was... huh, you know. Many things happened since then.
- Oh, ok. And why did you come here now ?
- Well, we know that between us it is impossible, but well I found someone after returning from my other world and well, since you didn't know I had returned, I wanted to tell you about it.
- Buffy, these things are none of my business. You can live... live your life as you want.
- I thought I had to tell you. Cause I'm... I think I'm really in love with that guy.
- Riley ?
- Nope. He left and he's even married now.
- Ah. Who's the lucky guy then ?
- Well it's sort of complicated to tell it like that. You may not approve.
- Buffy, that's, well, that's sweet of you to come here to tell me you're alive while I thought you were dead and to announce me at the same time that you've found someone, but will you tell me who he is ?
- Are you sure you want to hear his name ?
- Yeah.
- William.
- Cool name.
- Real name. And you know him.
- Huh ?
- Spike.
- *coughs and almost chokes* Spike ? Did I hear what I just heard, Buffy ?
- Yeah.
- Well I don't have to say anything, cause it's your choice. Won't say it make me happy though, I bet you would have known that.
- Yeah, I knew it, but, you know, I had to come. Even if it only had been to tell you I'm alive. Cause starting all this other life without telling you would not have been fair, I think.
- Hmm. Well, it's been such a long time, and now I have Connor to worry about. So it won't kill me... since I'm already dead anyway. If Cordy was in the room I bet she would have loved to say it.
He said that with a smile and then stopped.
- So, is that everything you have to say, Angel ?
- Well, I don't think I'd have anything else to say except I'm happy, because I thought you were dead and you haven't been dead that long. I'm happy because you can live again, almost as before, and when you go back to Sunnydale, you'll go back to your life, and that'll be a great thing cause I won't be there to bother.
- You're really not encouraging me with that tone, you know.
- So what do you want me to say then ?
- Oh, I don't know. But at least, you know now. And I know about your son, and well I think that on both sides we have something that hurts the other.
- Oh, yeah, Connor... Great little guy, huh ?
- Yeah. Cutte little Angel's son. Huh, real, biological son and all that ?
- Huh, yeah.
- Oh. So vampires can still... have... babies ?
- Looks like they can. Maybe I'm the only one who can, since I have what most of vampires don't have.
- Yeah. That must be it. Let's hope he grows old and alive and happy.
- He's normal, you know, completely human. We checked.
- Oh. And the baby's normal.
- Yeah... hem, do you wanna stay here for the night before coming back to Sunnydale or do you have other plans ?
- I don't have any plan right now. Maybe I can stay at Cordelia's.
- Oh, hem, of course. Cordelia!
She entered the room five seconds after that.
- Huh, Cordelia, asked Buffy, would you please allow me to stay at your place for the night before I go back to Sunnydale ?
- Yeah, of course, why not ? You'll have to meet a friend though.
- Huh ?
- A ghost. Don't worry, I'll explain. Hmm, Angel, may we leave now ?
- Yeah, if you want. Is Wesley still with Connor ?
- Yeah, he's playing with him, you don't even have to worry.
Buffy looked at Angel, as if asking him to ask her to stay. But he didn't say anything like that. She felt relieved of something that was like a burden. She was sort of freed from Angel... free, at last, after all that time. She smiled, and went to kiss him on the cheek.
- Thanks, Angel. Let's hope you'll be happy with Connor. Good luck!
Then Buffy turned to Cordelia and followed her. Angel smiled. He had just lost Buffy again, but at least, she was alive, and that was all that mattered.
Cordelia couldn't stop chatting on the way to her apartment. When she saw it, Buffy was amazed.
- Wow, nice place Cordelia!
Then she saw a cup of tea flying to Cordelia.
- Huh ? What's that ?
- My dear friend, let me introduce you to Buffy. She lives in Sunnydale and she's gonna be here for the night.
Cordelia took Buffy to the living room, and a few minutes after that, a cup arrived near Buffy. She took it with a smile.
- Thanks a lot for the tea!
Cordelia went into her room to put something more comfortable on, then joined Buffy on her couch.
- So, tell me about everything I have to know from Sunnydale.
- Hmm. Nothing much. Xander almost got married with Anya but it didn't work. Willow broke up with Tara, and it looks like they're getting together again. And hmm... Giles left for England, and I'm in love with someone.
- Oh! You're in love! Cool! Who is it ?
- You didn't listen through the door ?
- Nope, was playing with Wesley and Connor.
- Well I'm in love with Spike. Remember him ?
- Sort of.......duh, Spike ?
- Yeah.
- That crazy vampire ?
- Yeah.
- Isn't he evil, not like Angel, I mean ?
- He still is. But he has calmed down and he loves me, and I think I do love him too.
- Well, as long as you can work things out, I'm with you, you deserve a life, after all.
- Yeah, I think I do. Oh I'm so tired, where can I sleep ?
- Take my bed. To recover from your hard journey to here, and to prove I can be a good host, you can take my bed. That'll be better than the couch. This way when you go back to Sunnydale you'll be all fresh and pretty!
- Thanks a lot, Cordelia. You changed so much, it's amazing.
- Oh, you know, working with Angel helped me changing a lot. And I couldn't have kept acting as I did five years ago. Now that I think of it, I was really horrible. Brattiest brat of them all. But now all of this is over and I'm Best Host of Them All.
Buffy laughed. She felt at ease in this place. But she had to think about her return. Cordelia took her to the bed, and said goodnight. Once the light was switched off by Cordelia's nice friend, Buffy wondered if she'd be able to really talk to the others. She wondered what Dawn would say. She hoped they wouldn't blame her for her choice. But they may not understand.
Buffy then decided to stop thinking about that: for the moment, she needed sleep, cause the trip back to Sunnydale would be long and tiring.
The next morning, she was woken up by the smell of coffee that Cordelia's friend had brought.
- Oh, thanks again. You're really a nice host. May I shake your hand ?
She lifted her hand, waiting. Then it was shaken softly and she smiled.
- I wish I could stay here longer, but I have to get dressed and go back home. Where's Cordelia ?
Cordelia was in the kitchen, already dressed.
- Are you ready, Buffy ?
- Yeah... I think so. Thanks for letting me use your bed.
- And thanks for coming. I'm so happy that you're alive! And, say hi to everyone when you get back.
- I won't forget it. Goodbye, Cordelia.
- Oh wait don't you want me to take you somewhere ?
- No, thanks, I'll be okay.
- As you want. Goodbye, and good luck!
- Good luck to you yoo, Cordelia, and goodbye to your friend as well!
Buffy then opened Cordelia's door and left. To where her heart belonged.
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- I wonder when she'll come back, said Spike.
- I just don't know. Hey, relax, answered Dawn. She'll be back soon, I guess. It would take her two days to go, two days to come back, and it's been five days since she left, so she may even be running here right now.
- I just don't know, but it doesn't make me happy at all. What if Angel reconquered her ?
- That's impossible, Spike. Don't even dare to think that, okay ?
- Yeah, as if I could get rid of that thought easily.
- You'll have to cause I'm saying it. Okay ?
- Okay, I'll obey, Queen Dawnie.
- Ha, that's better. What about going out for a walk ? See, night already.
- Hmm. Yeah, why not. As long as I can forget those thoughts for a while.
Dawn took Spike by the arm and took him out. She smiled.
- You know what, Spike ?
- What ?
- I hope Buffy's gonna come back for you. This way she'll be happy forever.
- Let me remind you that she's as mortal as you are. So even if she comes back, it won't change the fact that I'm a vampire, she's a mortal, period.
- Hmm. Looks like someone's too pessimistic.
- Yeah, Dawnie, as if you knew anything about that.
- I don't, but, who knows, I bet there could be some kind of solution.
- If you say so... I'd rather believe you than be sad, after all, said Spike with a fake smile.
They hadn't been out for one hour, that they saw someone coming to them. Dawn recognized her sister way before Spike did - Spike was busy looking at stars - , and said "Bye bye Spike!" and ran back home. Spike looked at Dawn, a suspicious look on his face, and turned when he heard a small voice calling him.
- William ?
She had called him William. Not Spike. She was the only one to call him William.
- Buffy ?
He couldn't believe that she was here for him. So he didn't say anything. Not that soon. Maybe she was just here to tell him that she would be going for good, with Angel, in LA.
- So, how has been the little trip to LA ?
- Dawn told you ?
- Yeah. I stayed with her. Ann actually she showed the note to everyone.
- Ow. Well, at least, all of you know where I've been, that's, huh, great.
- Yeah, sort of. So ? Did you find there what you were looking for ?
- I think so. William, I...
- You only call me William when you' re sweet to me or something like that. Usually, when you wanna tear me apart you call me Spike. Hmm.
- William, I came back for you.
Spike almost collapsed.
- For me ? But, why ? I mean, do you... ?
- Didn't want to admit it at first, but looks like I love you, yeah.
- Oh. Okay.
Then he looked at the stars, walked a bit, then realized she had just told him she loved him. He turned to her and took her in his arms.
- Wait a minute! Did I hear what I just heard ?
Buffy looked at him with the most beautiful smile he ever got from her.
- Yes. I LOVE YOU, WILLIAM ! screamed Buffy in the night.
- It's... it's... Can't find the words.
- I know. Difficult to realize, huh ?
- Yeah. Kinda.
- What about you then ?
- Me ?
- Hmm hmm.
- I love you, Buffy. More than anyone I've ever loved or known, be sure of that.
Then he kissed her and smiled, and took her hands to dance for a while. After a few minutes, Buffy and Spike both realized that they had to find some solutions to some problems. Okay, they loved each other, but what about the dates and the places where they would meet and all that...
- William, I think you'd better come and live at home, with me, and Dawn.
- Well that would be quite difficult, did you think of the light ?
- Of course I did. My room doesn't need daylight, and we'll open the window only at some times, just so that the neighbours don't get suspicious.
- Are you sure of what you're offering me ?
- Yeah. Way sure. Don't wanna mess up with everything once again. Don't wanna miss that chance, you know ?
- You're amazing. Didn't think you could do that for me.
- Well, I'm able to, and I will do that. Do you want it or not ?
- Do you think I'd dare to refuse ? said Spike, laughing.
She took him by the hand and they ran together to the Summers' house. Dawn was waiting in the living room. She got up when she head Buffy's voice outside, and smiled. At last her sister was happy with someone.
- Dawnie ? In bed yet ?
- Nope. Waiting for you to see if Spike would come back with you.
- Oh. Did you guess ?
- Yup. And hoped, too.
- He's gonna live with us.
- Cool! When are we gonna tell the other Scoobies ?
Buffy stared at Dawn, then turned to Spike, thinking. She hadn't even given a thought about that. Telling the others.
- Damn I hadn't...
- Well, my dear Buffy, what about calling them for tomorrow evening ?
- Hmm, yeah, the sooner the better.
- And if we talk about the day itself, the later the better, as far as I'm concerned by daylight.
- Of course. No need to worry, William.
- So your real name's William, Spike ? Cool! Can I call you Willy ?
- Huh........yeah, if you want.
- Great! Well, not that I hate both of you, but gotta go to bed, since someone's still going to school sometimes here! Good night!
With a wink to Buffy and a giggle, Dawn went to her room, letting Buffy and Spike alone. They sat down on the couch. Then Buffy folded herself in Spike's arms, who sighed with delight. He never thought he could be like this some day. Well, he had hoped, but didn't really think it could happen. Him. With Buffy. Not only "The Slayer". The real Buffy. His Buffy.
- William, do you think we'll work things out ?
- Let's just hope. Dawn said she was sure there would be solutions to everything.
- You talked to Dawn about that ?
- Not my fault, said Spike. She guessed even before I could say "duh".
- Ow okay I see. I guess she really has more brain that I thought.
- Yeah. She's great. Comforted me all the time.
- Oh poor Spike. Why did you need comfort ?
- Well, I didn't think you'd come back. I thought you'd stay in LA.
- Well, that's impossible. He has a son, you know.
Spike glared at Buffy.
- He has a what ?
- A son. Named Connor.
- Huh ? How is that possible ?
- I don't think I need to show you a picture.
- Yeah, but... Who ? The mother, I mean, cause he woud have turned evil if...
- He said............huh well he said I'm the only one who could "...", as you say.
- Oh. Oooooooh please don't put that image in my head.
- I won't.
- But the mother ? Who's the mother ?
- Darla.
- Huh ? How's that possible ? She's a vampire too!
- Was. Really gone now, and don't ask more, for I don't know much about it. All that I know is that I'm with you, in love with you, and I hope it'll be so for a long long time.
- Yeah, let's hope, Buffy.
She smiled. Then she got up, and closed all the windows that could make enter sunlight in the living-room. Spike thanked her.
- I was afraid you'd fall asleep in my arms to wake up with some dust.
- Nope. Wasn't gonna risk that.
With another smile, Buffy put Spike's arms around her, and fell asleep. Spike could feel the warmth coming from her. She wasn't asleep because she was tired after they....... well, she wasn't asleep because of that. She felt confident in his arms because she loved him. Him. Spike. He was loved. By a wonderful woman. The most wonderful he'd ever met. He thanked his chip. This thing wouldn't have existed that he'd have been reduced to a pile of dust for a long time. "Hurrah to the Initiative", he though. Then, he thanked a million times whoever he could thanks for his luck, and before falling asleep too.