Chapter 1: Unfamiliar Territory

Jean rolled over, trying to block the light from the now open doorway. As part of the Survey Corps he no longer had to stay in the cramped trainee barracks, but he still had to share a room with Eren Jaeger. Eren was always in and out during the night, either to speak with the commander or the corporal, or crying out in his sleep from some distant memory he could never seem to recall when he awoke. Probably his mother's death. Fucking Jaeger. Jean couldn't even properly hate him, his heart was in the right place after all and he had been through tragedies that Jean could scarcely imagine, but it did little to sway his feelings. His one consolation was that Eren seemed as ignorant of Mikasa's feelings for him as she was of Jean's for her. He pulled the pillow tighter over his eyes and sighed loudly, ensuring that he pushed as much of his general enmity into the sound as he could currently muster in this sleep-addled state. Eren Fucking Jaeger, hero of the Survey Corps, the titan wonder. He was about to berate him when a hand clamped tightly over his mouth.

His initial reaction was to cry out and struggle, but he quieted the urge as best he could. Jean could tell that his arms weren't restrained and that the hand had simply been to quiet him, so he calmed himself and removed the pillow from his eyes. It took a moment for them to adjust to the brightness, but he immediately picked out Mikasa's silhouette. She appeared to be wearing her maneuver gear and crop jacket, but her...

"Be quiet and come with me," she whispered, her eyes flashing mischief in the thin light of the doorway. She took his hand and pressed it against the skin of her chest just below her breasts. Jean could feel the warmth of her skin and the slight rise just at the edge of his fingertips. Mikasa removed her hand from his mouth and followed the curve of his face with her fingers, touching playfully at his lips before turning to lead him from the room.

Jean stood, letting the blankets fall away behind him. The cold floor caused him to shiver, but the goose flesh he felt along his chest and neck had already been there. He saw the lump that must be Eren asleep in his bed across the room and realized that he didn't give a shit about him and everything that seemed to go his way, all he had ever really envied him for was Mikasa, and that obviously didn't matter now. 'Don't fucking think about Jaeger, dumbass, and don't say a goddamn word.' She paused for a moment in the doorway, her eyes beckoning as she slipped around the corner. Jean could now see that she wore her boots as well, but little enough under the skirt that went with the maneuver gear. 'Sweet heavens,' he thought, unable to grasp for little else in the swimming chaos. This was getting into unfamiliar territory.

He paid very little attention to his surroundings as he followed a few steps behind her, unable to convince himself to catch up to her swaying gait. 'Oh my god.' Mikasa had always been very direct, maybe even overly simplistic in her approach at times, but he hadn't expected this... even if he'd hoped for it. God, he barely wanted to question it for sake of jinxing the whole thing. Finally she stopped in front of the training compound door, grabbing his pants by the waistband and pulling him through roughly. 'Holy shit, fuck, fuck, fuck... just be cool and don't say anything, follow her lead'.

Yanking him against her, Mikasa pulled his face down to hers and kissed him. Jean shivered as he felt the bare skin of her lower back, his hand pulling them closer. Mikasa pushed him away and against a wall, "you touch me when I let you touch me, Kirschtein, or else I'm going to have to keep those hands tied... and you are going to want to use them later."

"Your rules," he managed to stammer, letting himself be pinned against the wall as she hungrily kissed him again. He closed his eyes as she bit his lip playfully and moved his hands to her waist, his fingers curling around her bare flesh as his thumbs pressed against her hips. Her smooth skin and lean abdomen sent tingles down his spine as she allowed him to run his hands along her side. Mikasa leaned in close to his ear and gave a soft moan. Reaching into his pants, she slowly toyed him with the tips of her fingers, finally wrapping them around the base of his cock and squeezing tightly. He shuddered, his mind wandering in its blissful abandon. Honestly, and he kind of hated to admit this to himself, but he kind of wished there was more of a buildup before this. Not that he was at all hesitant about tonight, but what if this was just some play to get Jaeger jealous and interested in her? He wasn't experienced with this type of thing, should he try to slow her down? 'Fuck, don't think about Jaeger, analyze this tomorrow or never, get it together Jean!'

Mikasa let go, sliding her hands around his neck and pulling his head back down to hers. Jean couldn't help but think that she kissed how she fought, holding nothing back and taking what was hers. Her lips were soft but forceful, her tongue inviting and her eyes more alive than he'd ever seen them. He moved his lips toward her neck and began to kiss her slowly, moving slowly downward. She moaned again, but this time it wasn't a playful moan to tantalize him, but full of a famished longing. 'Thank god I joined the Survey Corps', he thought, keeping his hands pressed against her hips. Mikasa's fingers gripped his hair tightly as she guided him downward and between her breasts. She shrugged out of her jacket, tossing it aside and stepping away from him so that he could get a full view. Taking her red scarf, she tossed it lightly over his head, pulling him toward the center of the room. "Mind assisting me with these?" she asked, pulling the training cables down from the ceiling and handing him one.

"Sure, uh..."

"Do keep up, will you? You remember how to do this." Mikasa slipped her cable into gear on one side, indicating him to do the same on her other. He followed suit and she hoisted herself about a foot off the ground and pulled him closer, wrapping her legs tightly around his waist. He shivered again, hesitating a second before allowing himself to be pulled back to her breasts. Mikasa arched her back under his touch, her breath coming in sharp intakes. "Oh god... " Her legs squeezed tighter around him, his chest feeling the warmth between them. "Have you been watching me Jean? Is this what you were looking for?"

"Yes, well... I've uh..." he stammered, again, trying to pull his attention back to her face. God, why was it so hard to think and speak when he was around her?

"It's your vocabulary here that is disappointing," she said playfully, mocking his voice from that fateful day in Trost. "Pretty boy like you should be used to this type of attention." She arched her back away from him and Jean kissed her stomach, lifting her in the harness. Mikasa leaned toward him again, balancing herself against the maneuver gear harness with a natural grace that still amazed him. Jean's arms flexed as he hoisted her higher, his heart threatening to beat out of his chest as she swung her legs up on either of his shoulders. Her hands tugged softly at his hair as he kissed her inner thighs experimentally, the flats of her feet pressed against his back as she stretched in ecstatic release. She moaned again, much louder this time than before and with true abandon in its timbre. Some part of his mind registered how much noise they must be making now, but he didn't care. What did any of that matter now that he was with her?

"Oh god, Jean... lower me back down... I need you..." she stammered, finally seeming to have lost her cool, her normally calm exterior melting as she stretched again in pleasure, her fingers digging painfully into his shoulder. She swung smoothly forward, grasping at his pants and nearly tearing them at the seams as she struggled to rip them away. He stumbled toward her, unbalanced as she kicked the last of his shorts off before pulling him down toward her. He pressed against her, supported by the maneuver cables that held her above the ground. Mikasa leaned back, her fingers curled tightly around the cables and wrapped her legs around Jean, forcefully pulling his hips against hers. He grazed against her flesh and the breath caught in his chest, his back tingling mercilessly. "Jean, I need you inside me now, I'm yours, take me" she half yelled, her eyes all wild abandon and insatiable hunger. He felt her slick against him and slid forward, feeling the resistance give as he plunged into her.

Jean arched forward, his face flushed and breath ragged as his mind spun in confusion, grasping for anything familiar. His balance whirled and he felt the bed beneath, bracing himself as if he had fallen. The room was dark all around him, his blankets tangled around him in sweaty confusion. 'God damn it, but fuck that felt real.' Jean lay back, trying to catch his breath as he wiped sweat from his brow. He could feel a wetness on the inside of his leg and knew he'd have to change his shorts. He thought he'd been through with puberty and these fucking dreams, weren't titans enough to deal with? "Are you alright? You were groaning in your sleep and shuddering, do you have a fever?" Eren's face leaned closer to his, the vague signs of concern etched across his face in the darkness.

"God, what is it Eren?! Will you get out of my face!" Jean hissed, betraying the building frustration inside of him. 'Fucking Jaeger, but it isn't his fault.' He coughed weakly, trying to push himself up against the wall behind his bed and face Eren. "Sorry, I didn't mean to snap, just a... dream..."

Eren looked away, his posture softening as he hunched forward. "I understand, I still have them after six years too, sometimes I wonder if they will ever fade. It's just that... Well, let me know if you ever need someone to talk to, we are roommates after all. We should start acting like it and learn to trust each other."

Jean could feel the his cheeks burning scarlet and was silently thankful for the heavy darkness between them. "Thanks, but I don't think I will ever want to talk about this one." He didn't expect to be getting much sleep again tonight.