p id="docs-internal-guid-f7156e6c-a88f-8fbb-fc34-1efb313c676d" dir="ltr" style="line-height: 2; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 16px; font-family: Arial; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;"Glittering, sugary, white death clinging to every surface as my eyes longingly glance into the haunting wooded space behind the house. Box by box, I watch the men load my few belongings away into the rickety U-Haul. The snow's unsettling shimmer created hallucinatory scenes in my sunken eyes. Soon I'd be on my own, living my own life. Two months had passed since I was released from the facility. The rooms were sterile and depression-proof; they kept us in our bland cells only to be released when there were services, group time, or "check-ups". The only change visible to me was not the sluggish movement of the other patients wandering down the halls to therapy, but the dim shine of the sun's rays that danced through the barred glass of the window, teasing me with their freedom while I sat on the starchy sheets assigned to my bed. But, I'm here now. My not-so-home. The place where injustices still haunt me; where imaginary boys crept through my windows on warm, lonely summer nights; where my cat would sappily gaze up at me while I lay in bed watching old Disney films, wine bottle in one hand, potato chips in another. Staying here was never an option. I knew leaving would be difficult at the least, but better for my mental health in the end. I just wish I wasn't so alone, desolate, self-destructive. Any good I could ever obtain either slipped through my fingers or was forced away by my own insecurities. /span/p
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