I Won't Say It Jynx POV ...
She drove along on the motorcycle, lost in thought. Staring out at the city, she wondered what she ws going to do now. She'd just left the Titans, saying she had to figure out who she was, that she didn't feel she fit in...various excuses. Truthfully, when things didn't work out between her and Wally...she just needed to get away.
She still didn't know why things didn't work out. He seemed like a decent enough guy, and pretty loyal. It was just...he could never take things slow. And she was still getting used to not being a villain, and breaking free of the last traces of what Brother Blood had done to her mind. She was learning who she was all over again, and she needed him to be patient with her, and he didn't know how.
Cyborg had understood that. Why was she thinking about him again? There couldn't be anything between them, right? Not after he betrayed her back at the Academy.
Looking around, she tried to take her mind off her troubles. Seeing a movie theater coming up, she slowed down and took a look. Maybe a movie would take her mind off things. It was one of those discount theaters, showing old movies. Maybe there'd be one she liked. She checked the posters.
'Bicentennial Man'
'I, Robot'
'Terminator 2: Rise of the Machines'
With a snarl, she moved on. Coming to a bar, she pulled to a halt. Parking the cycle, she walked in. She wasn't worried about being carded. She never was, and it's not like she ordered anything alchoholic...no matter how much she wanted to. It didn't mesh well with her magic.
Inside, she saw a singing platform set up, and a bunch of girls singing. Great, now she definately wouldn't get any peace. She sat down and ordered her drink, lost in thought.
After a while, one of the girls came up to her. She was a lanky blonde, and there was something almost familiar about her, like she'd seen her picture before or something.
"Come sing with us," the blonde encouraged, taking her hand.
"I'd really rather not," Jynx said, not really in the mood.
"Aw, don't be like that. We'll sing backup. It'll be your number."
Jynx sighed. She knew she wouldn't get any peace now. "Fine." She rolled her eyes. Maybe a song would take her mind off things. The blonde smiled as she led her up to the platform and gave her the mike. The blonde's two friends waited there smiling.
As the first notes hit, Jynx couldn't help herself. The song fit her mood so perfectly, she broke into the lyrics without thought.
"If there's a prize for rotten judgement I guess, I've already won that No man is worth the aggravation that's ancient history, been there, done that"
As the girls started singing the part of the muses, she sank into the part of Megara. Spurned by love in the past, denying the possibility of love in the future.
"Who do you think you're kidding?
He's the earth and heaven to you Try to keep it hidden Honey we can see right through you"
She thought about when Cyborg gave her the bike. She tried to say she'd bring it back, but he told her it was a gift. She couldn't...or wouldn't understand.
"Girl, you can't conceal it We know how you feel and Who you're thinking of?"
She thrust these thoughts violently from her mind.
"No chance, no way I won't say it, no, no." She shook her head angrily.
"You swoon, you sigh Why deny it? Uh, oh"
Now she got frustrated with the song, with everything.
"It's too cliche I won't say I'm in love"
Thinking back to Wally, the Hive five, the academy, she sang the next lines.
"I thought my heart had heard its lesson It feels so good when you start out My head is screaming get a grip, girl Unless you're dying to cry your heart out"
The others broke in.
"You keep on denying Who you are and how you're feeling Baby, we're not buying Hon, we saw you hit the ceiling,"
She remembered the first time she met Cyborg, under the alias Stone. He was so...nice. He was the first person to ever be nice to her, since she'd joined the Academy.
"Face it like a grown up When you gonna own up That you," the girls started to shake their fingers at her, "got, got, got it bad"
She tried to push her thoughts away.
"No chance, no way I won't say it, no, no"
"Give up, give in Check the grin you're in love"
She couldn't have a future with Cyborg.
"This scene won't play I won't say I'm in love"
But it would be wonderful if she could, wouldn't it?
"You're doing flips read our lips You're in love"
Why did she insist on deluding herself?
"You're way off base I won't say it Get off my case I won't say it"
Suddenly, the last of the mental manipulation broke away, and she remembered her dream.
It was a cherished dream since childhood. A silly, little girl dream, but when her powers made so much chaos all around her, holding onto it became all the more important. She stands beside her beloved, a simple house, white picket fence, to kids...a home and a family of her own. Silly, but oh, so important to her.
"Girl, don't be proud It's okay, you're in love."
But when she tried to put Cyborg into the dream vision, the children disappeared. The house was the Tower. Instead of a white picket fence, it was list of occupied jail cells. She loved Cyborg, but she couldn't see the future she wanted with him. Tears flling down her cheeks, she sang,
"At least out loud...
I won't say I'm...in love."
She fell to her knees, face in her hands, and wept broken-heartedly. She never noticed the girls and the people in the bar getting to their feet and coming towards her in concern.
She drove along on the motorcycle, lost in thought. Staring out at the city, she wondered what she ws going to do now. She'd just left the Titans, saying she had to figure out who she was, that she didn't feel she fit in...various excuses. Truthfully, when things didn't work out between her and Wally...she just needed to get away.
She still didn't know why things didn't work out. He seemed like a decent enough guy, and pretty loyal. It was just...he could never take things slow. And she was still getting used to not being a villain, and breaking free of the last traces of what Brother Blood had done to her mind. She was learning who she was all over again, and she needed him to be patient with her, and he didn't know how.
Cyborg had understood that. Why was she thinking about him again? There couldn't be anything between them, right? Not after he betrayed her back at the Academy.
Looking around, she tried to take her mind off her troubles. Seeing a movie theater coming up, she slowed down and took a look. Maybe a movie would take her mind off things. It was one of those discount theaters, showing old movies. Maybe there'd be one she liked. She checked the posters.
'Bicentennial Man'
'I, Robot'
'Terminator 2: Rise of the Machines'
With a snarl, she moved on. Coming to a bar, she pulled to a halt. Parking the cycle, she walked in. She wasn't worried about being carded. She never was, and it's not like she ordered anything alchoholic...no matter how much she wanted to. It didn't mesh well with her magic.
Inside, she saw a singing platform set up, and a bunch of girls singing. Great, now she definately wouldn't get any peace. She sat down and ordered her drink, lost in thought.
After a while, one of the girls came up to her. She was a lanky blonde, and there was something almost familiar about her, like she'd seen her picture before or something.
"Come sing with us," the blonde encouraged, taking her hand.
"I'd really rather not," Jynx said, not really in the mood.
"Aw, don't be like that. We'll sing backup. It'll be your number."
Jynx sighed. She knew she wouldn't get any peace now. "Fine." She rolled her eyes. Maybe a song would take her mind off things. The blonde smiled as she led her up to the platform and gave her the mike. The blonde's two friends waited there smiling.
As the first notes hit, Jynx couldn't help herself. The song fit her mood so perfectly, she broke into the lyrics without thought.
"If there's a prize for rotten judgement I guess, I've already won that No man is worth the aggravation that's ancient history, been there, done that"
As the girls started singing the part of the muses, she sank into the part of Megara. Spurned by love in the past, denying the possibility of love in the future.
"Who do you think you're kidding?
He's the earth and heaven to you Try to keep it hidden Honey we can see right through you"
She thought about when Cyborg gave her the bike. She tried to say she'd bring it back, but he told her it was a gift. She couldn't...or wouldn't understand.
"Girl, you can't conceal it We know how you feel and Who you're thinking of?"
She thrust these thoughts violently from her mind.
"No chance, no way I won't say it, no, no." She shook her head angrily.
"You swoon, you sigh Why deny it? Uh, oh"
Now she got frustrated with the song, with everything.
"It's too cliche I won't say I'm in love"
Thinking back to Wally, the Hive five, the academy, she sang the next lines.
"I thought my heart had heard its lesson It feels so good when you start out My head is screaming get a grip, girl Unless you're dying to cry your heart out"
The others broke in.
"You keep on denying Who you are and how you're feeling Baby, we're not buying Hon, we saw you hit the ceiling,"
She remembered the first time she met Cyborg, under the alias Stone. He was so...nice. He was the first person to ever be nice to her, since she'd joined the Academy.
"Face it like a grown up When you gonna own up That you," the girls started to shake their fingers at her, "got, got, got it bad"
She tried to push her thoughts away.
"No chance, no way I won't say it, no, no"
"Give up, give in Check the grin you're in love"
She couldn't have a future with Cyborg.
"This scene won't play I won't say I'm in love"
But it would be wonderful if she could, wouldn't it?
"You're doing flips read our lips You're in love"
Why did she insist on deluding herself?
"You're way off base I won't say it Get off my case I won't say it"
Suddenly, the last of the mental manipulation broke away, and she remembered her dream.
It was a cherished dream since childhood. A silly, little girl dream, but when her powers made so much chaos all around her, holding onto it became all the more important. She stands beside her beloved, a simple house, white picket fence, to kids...a home and a family of her own. Silly, but oh, so important to her.
"Girl, don't be proud It's okay, you're in love."
But when she tried to put Cyborg into the dream vision, the children disappeared. The house was the Tower. Instead of a white picket fence, it was list of occupied jail cells. She loved Cyborg, but she couldn't see the future she wanted with him. Tears flling down her cheeks, she sang,
"At least out loud...
I won't say I'm...in love."
She fell to her knees, face in her hands, and wept broken-heartedly. She never noticed the girls and the people in the bar getting to their feet and coming towards her in concern.