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PCA - Senior Year

Zoey POV

23:25 o' clock, sharp. PCA was quiet. No students around partying, having fun or just spending time together. Well, that would make a good Monday, but today was Friday. Friday night, in a school full of teenagers. Something seemed wrong in the picture, huh?

But then, if you listened closely, you could hear it: the far sound of music, glasses filled with liquor crashing into each other, the smell of cigarette smoke, people dancing and dancing as if there was no tomorrow. But where was that coming from?

"You know?" Michael spoke out, making a jet of beer to drop onto the fancy carpet, "If I could wish for something, I'd only ask for one thing in the world" Logan just gave Michael a cold stare and took the drink from his shaking hand.

"Dude, I don't freaking care about your stupid dreams. And don't you dare ruin my carpet. Too expensive to mess it with this cheap nectar, or your, well..."

Michael shrugged. He raised his hand, waved it around carelessly and then punched Logan on the back of his neck.

"Ow, Dude!"

I think we all rolled eyes, except for Lola who let out a small giggle, clear product of the drink she was holding, which was dangling dangerously from her hand.

I took it from her, just to be careful. She had already drunk too much anyways.

"Huh, Zoey… you're such a killjoy." Michael replied with a great noticeable monotonous tone.

"I'm just making sure she won't lose control again. Don't want to remember the last time she woke up over the poker table, no need to tell the details."
Logan burst into laughing.

"Totally hot"

I just glared at him. Sure, Lola might have been appealing in that situation. But for God's sakes, it was Lola he was talking about. Not even a little respect?

"That was totally not for you to see" Lola added. Obviously she couldn't help but add a giggle at the end of the sentence.

"Well, I can say, you've got nothing to be ashamed of" Logan replied with a cocky smile. Wait, when did the flirting begin?
Lola just smiled like an idiot. God, she was so drunk. Fortunately, she and Michael were the only ones drunk right now. Quinn had called out, saying she needed to urgently fix something about a mutating banana in her room. Never going in there again, I swear. Logan was tipsy, but he was surely used to drinking - he was the host of a party almost every week. And then, there was Chase. Sitting next to me, a beer in his hand, still sober: it was probably still the first of the evening. He looked kind of bummed, probably just like me. I felt my eyes closing slowly, and the beanbag I sat in suddenly felt oh so comfortable...

"Hey, Zoe, time to go to bed"

Someone was stroking my cheek lightly, as I woke up a little later. Chase was looking at me, offering me a hand to get me off the floor. Crap, I must have fallen asleep. I got up, and followed everyone out of the building. Quinn was there too. I noticed other PCA students were still partying, but I followed the girls out and back to our dorm.

No one's POV

"So… Girl talk!" Lola said excitedly after getting to our lounge. She was still drunk. It was already past curfew, and Zoey was passing out asleep again, not really hearing what the girls were talking about. It was always the same: guys, guys, guys and oh! Guys. She knew this conversation wasn't an exception. This was going to turn into another Deja vú.

"Oh yeah, Lola, I heard Jake from history class asked out on a date!" Quinn asked, making Lola turn deep crimson. Bingo.

"Jake is a nice guy!" She responded. Zoey lifted her head off her hand just to watch how embarrassed Lola was.

"Uh-huh? I also think he's really hot" Another girl said. Zoey merely rolled her eyes. She just sometimes wasn't able to stand their foolishness. They could be so stupidly girly sometimes…

Another hour of simply raving passed, and everyone started getting up and going to bed. Zoey was tired, and by this time, lost again in her little Zoey Wonderland. Just making a tour through her thoughts, even though it was a jungle in there. It seemed like the constant raving and giggling about hot guys had caught her too, because very in the inside, she was having those thoughts… Dark, dirty thoughts as someone could just label them. I mean… how would it felt to be under a hot body, being touched in places she could only imagine…? And who could be the one actually? No. Nobody knew her body but her. Thinking of these things, the only thing she could see was a big dark blur. By the time she got to think about sex, she got lost. And angry. Of course she knew the process, she had been taught of it in ninth grade, but she had never, well... "experienced" it.

She didn't know what to think about herself. Everyone had thoughts about her like Miss Perfection, but well, Miss Perfection was a virgin. Which in some people's eyes was something good, but to her, it was just irritating. She was used to be great in school, normally knowing more things than an average person of her age, but when it came to this, she knew nothing.

Sick and tired of that entire blur she got up, making up some excuse of wanting to go to bed. It wasn't a big lie. She was actually feeling tired, so she grabbed her octopus fluffy-toy and started walking towards room 101. Suddenly, seconds later, she felt steps walking towards her. She knew who they were.

They reached their room and Zoey unclasped her pink flowered key from her necklace to open the door, remaining silent. It was better to stay in silence than hearing another discussion about guys. So, as she entered her room, she quickly flopped down onto her bed, trying to get rid of the mix of thoughts on her mind. Lola and Quinn followed her. Quinn also climbed into bed, but Lola sat down in a bean bag in the middle of the room, with a worried look on her face.

"Lola, is something wrong?" Zoey asked, concerned. Lola looked up, her cheeks turning red.

"Can I confess you guys something?" She asked. Quinn immediately got up and sat down on the couch, nodding eagerly.

"I'm kind of scared of going on a date with Jake" she said. Zoey exchanged a confused glance with Quinn before turning to her friend again. Of course she was going to listen, but in some way, she'd rather just fall sleep.

"Why?" Quinn seemed to have a huge interest in this. It wasn't odd. Zoey knew her since eighth grade, and even though she was from the start a genius and a geek, she had always had that "Go ahead" look and excited smile when it came to guys. It reminded her of Nicole's behavior.

"I don't know if I'm ready for a new relationship already… you know, after Vince" she confessed. Lola and Vince had decided to remain "just friends" after a huge fight, which just didn't work at all. Vince was like oil when Lola was like water. Did that make a good match? Not in a girl's view.

"Especially because… me and Vince… used to… you know" she resembled a human-shaped tomato by now. Zoey's heart skipped a beat by hearing the way Lola said "You know"; it was as if her internal jungle was making a chaos in her mind.

"Used to… what?" Lola looked up, looking at both her friends. Zoey looked up to Quinn, searching for some kind of help as she saw the knowing look she was having all over her face. Those feelings of misunderstanding weren't welcome to her.

"Well… he was my first and… I don't really know if it will work for me and Jake, you now, trusting him to that" at that, Quinn smiled happily, while Zoey's mind zoomed away. She just couldn't get what Lola just said. And then it hit her. Lola wasn't a virgin and it wasn't as if she did it just once. "Vince and I used to… you know"; it was like a torrent of water slamming against her face. She had always played the role of the mother, even though they didn't ask her to be, but still… she was, and it was like discovering that your kid had been having sex around campus.
Quinn got up to sit beneath Lola.

"Oh, Lola, there will be no problem. Jake is a nice guy." she reassured her. Lola seemed to receive gladly her advice, but still wasn't really convinced. "I think you should go out with him, and then figure out if you really want to trust him to that; it's all about you, Lola, it's not like you have to go on a pair of dates with him and then just sell your body as a faithful prize. It's your decision." Lola smiled slightly nodding her head, no words coming out of her mouth. Quinn continued her speech.

"When I broke up with Logan, I also thought it wouldn't be the same, but when I started going out with Paul…"

"But that was just to make Logan jealous, it's not the same!" Lola interrupted her. Zoey could not hear anymore. Now she knew two secrets she never meant to know. And it suddenly made her feel alone. Like the only one left.

"What about you, Zoe? You never said anything about your first to us" Lola turned to her.

"I… I think I'm tired, I'm just going to brush my teeth and go to bed" and with that she stormed out, letting Lola and Quinn confused on the couch.
How would they react by hearing Zoey saying the words "I am a virgin"? Maybe they would just burst into laughing and fall onto the floor, holding their stomachs tightly.

Zoey spent a lot of time in the bathroom, thinking about all the things she could do. Maybe she could, just maybe, tell them, but that sent her to her first hypothesis. Well, they were good at listening, but it still wasn't a good choice. It was also going to be difficult that they believed her, because if you saw Zoey Brooks, would you think she's still a virgin? I don't think so. She also thought about making a story up, but it wouldn't be that easy.

Knowing Lola and Quinn, they'd insist with their silly questions about "So, how was it?" "Did it hurt?" "Was he good at it?" "Was the guy hot?" or "are you still in touch with him?" no. She wouldn't be able to stand that. They'd surely notice she was lying too, so she dumped that choice. What if…? Well, she could live trying to ignore their blabbing… right? She was gifted with a never-ending patience…. No, that wasn't a good idea. Because at the age of 17, Zoey knew a lot of things. She knew how to solve complicated math equations, how to say a few words in Spanish, and many other things other guys and girls her age couldn't quite reach. And now, she'd figure out how to solve this big deal.

She looked into the mirror, after washing off all of her make-up, and remembered the many times Logan spoke about his make-out sessions with random girls. Of course she knew Logan was an asshole, and she didn't even think for a second of him being a virgin too. He was probably the baby daddy of many pregnant girls around campus. Michael didn't seem to be that innocent either. She had seen him having heavy make-out sessions with Lisa, sometimes with her on his lap during lunch… Well, now she was feeling sick. She always thought, since the beginning that it would be worth waiting for the right guy, to have her very first time, but the "right guy" wasn't coming. Well, who cares if all of her friends were sexually experienced? It wasn't as if she had to do it just because they already did it… Well, not really. She didn't like to be the loser… Gosh, this was killing her. By now she knew that she'd be willing to do anything. Anything… to avoid being the last one. But, she was lost.

She sighed, infuriated, and started walking all around the bathroom, nearly reaching the cubicle's doors. She was feeling stupid and useless. And there wasn't anything she could do to beat it... Logan would probably piss her off the rest of her life, and Michael would be gladly joining him. Lola and Quinn would surely shut their mouths to their crappy sexual gathering as seeing her entering to the room. And Chase would probably rather not talk about it. Well, not that bad. A whole life being everyone's joke. Lovely. Ok, not really everyone. She sighed again, louder and lacking of patience.

And then, suddenly she felt as an idiot. As if someone had just slapped her on her right cheek and that little light bulb had just appeared. It was a crazy, pointless idea. But it felt as good as drinking coffee that she couldn't help but think about it the whole night even though it was so out of mind that she shivered just to think about it. "You're mad, Zoey. Completely mad."

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