Unforgivable.

(Willow's POV)

"Your shirt..."

the last words she said to me.

Why didn't she say something more…

Never mind, she was just worried about…

She didn't know those were going to be her last words, I wonder if she'd even known that she'd been shot.

I wonder if she had known, would she have said something more meaningful or heartfelt?

I remember when I promised her that I'd make it up to her for all the pain I put her through, seems her decision to be with me was the worst one she ever made.

If I'd ended up with Oz, would Tara still be alive?

Maybe I should go find Oz and see if he can help me bring her back.

Oh yeah smart move, let's go get someone else to end in death because of me. Great idea, Willow.

I remember when we went looking for Dawn on Halloween when the vampire, Justin, planned to turn her. We were talking about if we thought Dawn would be at this party we were at. I said,

"This would be where I would be at 15 on Halloween, well not me, talk about spaz!"

"Really?" she asked me, looking surprised.
"Yeah, hard to believe such a hot mama-yama came from humble, geek-infested roots."

"Infested roots. Trying to turn me on?" she asked me.

"I have to try now?" I said to her, laughing then stopping going up the metal stairs to kiss her. Then when she warned me about using too much magic and I basically told her to shut up.

And when she replied, she said something which has come back to haunt me so much since Warren… well since 'it' happened. She said,

"If I didn't love you so damn much then I would!"

Why didn't I listen to her?

Why did I do that stupid mind control thing on her?

Maybe if I hadn't done that then she'd still be here, because if we hadn't broken up after I screwed up using magic, then we might not have been in the kitchen that night when Warren…

It's all my fault.

I love her so much.

She was my everything, she still is my everything.

I'm just so damn mad I could… arrrgh!

I could kill myself to be with her, to punish my self, to go through the pain she did.

But if I did that, it's like Warren wins. He's getting away with it.

I won't kill myself, I'll kill him.

WARREN! I WILL KILL YOU WARREN!

I will kill him Tara, he will get what he gave you. And if I didn't love you so damn much then I'd let him get away with it, I'd let him live.

But I do love you, always.

Remember the time the guys in the park were checking you out, you weren't used to it so you asked me why they were doing it, I replied, "Because of your hotnees, doofus!" then we broke into song because of the demons which made everyone theatrical.

We had great times, but I ruined it.

Warren will pay… WARREN WILL PAY!