Ok first twilight story here! I own NOTHING! not twilight, and not the beautiful song that is in the end -- micah vincent people, myspace him! - pure amazingness! =]=]
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EPOV
Bella must be the most beautiful person i have ever laid eyes on. She lay here, sleeping in my arms, I must be the luckiest person alive. Peaceful Bella.
Ok here is the story! Bella just moved to my hometown of Forks, Washington. After alot of complicated drama we managed to get past, we became a couple just a few hours ago. At some point i am sure you will find out about all the drama!
Even though we have only been together for a few hours it felt so much longer. I could watch her sleep for hours, and usually did. One of the good sides to being a vampire. I have been watching her sleep for a while now, but she doesnt know that, she wont know that if i can help it! It would just creep her out!
Her eyes were so peaceful, her hand curled up next to her face sleeping soundly. I could lie like this and never move just watching her. Her mysterious bruises were starting to fade and as she slept she had a slight smile on the corner of her lips. One day i was going to find out where these bruises came from, the only thing she told me was that they came from falling. On some level i could believe this, as perfect as she was, she was clumsy!
We lay like this, I was watching her sleep when her facial expression grew stern, her slight smile suddenly disappeared. Her beautiful face became worried and scared. She got agitated, and started swatting something away from her arms. My eyes were wide with panic, I had seen her do this before but still found it hard to watch, something within her sub-conscience was hurt her, hurting my Bella. I knew she would wake up so I held her close, whispering to her softly,
"shhh my Bella, shhh, it ok I'm here!"
every time this happened i just repeated this to her, but this was the first time i could hold her close. All those other times i had to stand - watch from a distance - it was hell!
BPOV
*DREAM*
He ran at me at full speed. I was too weak and weary to move.
My energy - gone. I didnt have the strength to keep fighting him, i gave up, i stopped fighting. Hoping it would be over soon!
He stormed over to me, *slap* a slap across the face
*smack* a blow to the arm
*kick* crack *kick* two to the stomach, i was also sure that crack may have been a rib
Tears had surpassed me now, I gave up, I gave up the hope of him stopping.
'It will all be over soon, he cant do this all night' I repeated to myself, over and over. Trying to find the remote ounce of comfort such words could bring, nothing was happening.
Hope was all i could do now! Hope that he would stop. He had made me loose every emotion/feeling that i once had. Happiness - gone, joy disappeared a long time ago, laughter was a thing of the past. Even anger and sadness were gone. The only thing i was left with was 'hope'. Weird i know but i remembered what my mother used to tell me..
"You can live a few weeks without food,
a few days without water,
a few minutes without air
but only seconds without hope.
Hope is indeed essential for life, for living
not just surviving or existing"
i kept repeating the last 3 lines in my head. when he was like this, i remembered these words from my mother. It was almost as if she was trying to prepare me for what i was going to face when i grew up. But no - how could she - how did she know that she was going to die, my brother was going to turn to drink and that my father, her husband was going to take his sadness, his grief and despair out on me! NO - she couldnt have known. I thought more alone this line of thought as my father, my once loving father beat me into a pulp. I didnt know what state my body was in now and didnt want to!
After a couple of more hits to the face and another few blows to the stomach, he turned and left my lying on the floor, bleeding to weak to cry! I couldn't move, he just walked away into his bedroom to get ready for bed. I could swear he mumbled "that'll teach you to be late for dinner" as he walked away but due to my semi conscious state I couldn't be sure.
*End of Dream*
All of a sudden I felt someone shaking me, I went to swipe off their hand, suddenly finding my strength but the hands moved and stopped quickly. I could feel the pillow wet from tears under me. I gave myself a few minutes to take in my surroundings and regain control of myself. The threat that was shaking me was gone for now.
I opened my eyes just a wee bit more, squinting through the water that had built up in my eyes, I saw the large familiar room with a large wardrobe infront of me. I took a deep breath realising that I was no where near my father, who has abused me for years. I was safe here! I could hear someone humming to me, i started to recognize it! My lovely boyfriend humming to me, i could feel his cold but firm arms around me, I was safe but I couldn't regain control of myself. I still had this feeling that he was going to come after me, he was going to find me somehow. I sat up and within seconds Edward was up and had his arms around me waiting.
EPOV
I let her calm down before i asked her about her dream. This is the first time she has woken up from a dream and i have been able to comfort her. Finally!!! She was still crying 10 minutes later after she woke up so I sang to her. I sang a song that reminded me of this situation. Our situation. There was just something about it that mesmerized me, just the way she did.
You wont ever know how much it hurts to see you cry
But sometimes we can see past the shit that's in our lives
But If I want you then Im not to move a muscle
so as not to scare you away
So ill just stay still until you feel a little safer nearer me
She started to calm down, I could sense her start to feel more safe in her surroundings, in my arms. I didn't allow myself to focus on how good she smelt right now because it would ruin everything. Bella, my Bella needed me and i forgot EVERYTHING else! She was my world, i just hope that one day i can make her believe just how much she means to me!
Sitting next to me you put your head near mine
You came into my heart but it wouldn't let you out
But if I want you well Im not to move a muscle so as not to scare you
So ill just stay still until you feel a little safer
nearer me
It was times like these where i just wished i could read her mind, know what was going on inside that pretty head of hers! Hopefully one day she would tell me! When she felt safe around me! But i have to remember, she is only human, she can only think of one thing at a time! It takes her a lot longer to process things!! At this moment i realized just how true the last lines of this song were! It was like they were made for us!
But if I want you, I will not move a muscle, so as not to scare you away
So I will just stay still until you feel a little safer nearer me
At these perfect words she calmed down! She began to get her breathing in order. I kissed her on her forehead and pulled her closer. No-one was going to hurt her again the way this has affected her. Even though i dont know what it was yet, all i know is that it wont happen again, not while i am around!
But if I want you I will not move a muscle so as not to scare you away
So I will just stay still until you feel a little safer nearer me
[Song - It wouldn't let you out]
[Artist - Micah Vincent]
Bella POV
He's not here, he is at home, i am safe! He's not here, he is at home, i am safe! He's not here, he is at home, i am safe!
i kept telling myself this as i listened to Edwards song. Ahh.. i can feel myself falling for him. I was falling hard and i had NO way to stop it! I knew i could tell Edward about my so called father but ... i just ... NO - no one can find out!
But Edward, i can trust him ... No, You CANT trust anyone!! Stupid conscience!
ahhhhh i hated my own thoughts! i shook my head slightly to silence them! it worked! ok, now i needed to say something...anything...he looked so worried! Ok Bella, focus, ... speak!
"E-E-d-ward...I..."
Hey please please let me know what you think??!! any question?? do you hate it?? do you love it?? let me know!! =]=]
should i continue?? please let me know! as i said first twilight story, want to know if it is any good! =]=]
emma xx