Title:It's not easy (New Version)

Author: Amanda Wolfshifter

Rating: R for language, violence, child abuse, sexual abuse

Disclaimer: I do not own In a Heartbeat nor do I own Higher ground.

All other characters belong to me.

Summary: Jamie lands himself into some trouble. This starts before

he is force to join with the crew in the show In a heartbeat.

Notes: This story was know as Its not easy. I decided to rewrite it

altogether. I will tell you right now that I do not update often. The

main reason for this is because I work full time on the night shift. The

only days off that I have are the weekends. I try my best to think of

stuff to write down but there are times when I do not even care to write

a single thing down. Another thing about this story is that it will not

only be a crossover between Higher Ground and In a heartbeat. I don't know

what other show I plan on crossing over with. If you want to give me

any ideas, I will be happy to read them. You will find the reason for

the crossover the first chapter. Please enjoy the story and review. Oh

another thing is that I need help with the names on Higher Ground. How

do you spell Peter's last name? What are the names of those who work with

him?

"talking"

'thoughts'

~songs~

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~I can't stand to fly, I'm not that naive

I'm just out to find the better part of me

I'm more than a bird, I'm more than a plane

I'm more than some pretty face beside a train, and it's not easy to be me~

Sirens wailed through the dark, cold night. Soon the blue, police

lights filled the area. A young male officer stepped out of his car and

shined his flashlight over the area around him.

"Joe, you see anything?" He asked his partner.

"Not a thing." Joe scanned the area again. 'What the?' He asked

hisself. Squinting his eyes he caught sight of the crook. "Found him."

He yelled over his shoulder before sprinting off after the figure. "POLICE,

DON'T MOVE."

"Fuck" Came a whispered reply. The sound of footsteps could be

heard as the figure ran down the alley way.

"Aw, kid why did you have to go and do that?" He ran after him

as fast as his overweight body would let him. Luck was with him, though.

After running for a little while, the kid trips over some trash that was

throwed all over the place. "Thank God for the trash." He muttered under

his breath. He hurried over to the kid and put his knee on his back before

he could get the chance to get his bearings back. "No more running for

you, kid." Joe said as he slapped the cuffs on the boy and read him his

rights.

A few seconds later his partner showed up. The young officer

came to a stop and bent over to catch his breathe. "Great! You caught

him." He gasped out.

"Yep." Joe gave his partner a second glance. "Chuck, maybe

you should lay off the donnuts for a while."

Charlie looked at his partner before bursting out loud with

laughter. "Well, if I need to cut back then you need to eat more." He

managed to get out while laughing. Soon they were both laughing with the

boy muttering under his breathe about crazy cops and their stupid jokes.

Five days later-The Courtroom

"Jamie Waite, would you please stand up." The Judge ordered.

"Mr. waite, you have been found guilty of grand theft auto and of having

controlled substances in your possesion. It seems to me that you are

traveling on the wrong road." He paused. His wisen eyes glanced over

at the teenaged boy in front of him. "Since this is your first felony

against you, I have decided to go a little easy on you." Jamie's eyes

filled with hope. He could feel his dad's glare on his back. 'Then

again,' he thought, 'maybe prison would be better than going home with

him. Who knows what will happen to me while he is in this kind of mood.'

He focused his thoughts back to what the Judge was saying.

"You will spend exactly one year at Mount Horizon. There you

will attend classes, go through counsoling for you drug problems, and join

up in any events that they have. You will have no choice the matter.

One slip up and you will face three years in Juvenile Hall." With that

he rapted his gavel, dismissing the case.

One of the court officers went up to Jamie. Placing the cuffs on

him, the officer led the boy out of the court room and back to his cell.

Later that night- Jamie's Cell

"Well, boy you sure fucked up this time." John Waite said in a

low, ruff voice.

"Why don't you just leave me the hell alone." Jamie muttered

while turning his head toward the wall.

"Don't you be telling me what to do. I sue ain't going to let

these fucking bars keep me frome beating your ass."

Jamie let out a small laugh. "Man, are you drunk or just plain

stupid. I can't beleive I'm even related to you."

John sneered at the boy. "Well, this should make you happy."

Jamie looked up at him. "When I married your mother, you were already

born. Hell, I knew you were going to be trouble the moment I laid my

eyes on you." Jamie's shocked face as enough to bring out a cruel laugh.

"I guess your mother was more of a slut than you thought." He put his face

up against the bars. "Hell, your father could be anyone in this whole

country."

"Shut the fuck up." Jamie yelled hitting the wall with anger.

Hastily, he whipped the tears from his eyes before his father could see

them.

"Getting feisty aren't you." His laughed at his little inside

joke.

"Why don't you just get the hell out of here." He calmly told his

father before flopping down on the hard cot that was in his cell. He

hope his father couldn't see how close his was to falling apart from the comment

he had made. He closed his eyes and waited till he could hear his father's heavy

footsteps walk away.

~I close my eyes when it gets too sad

I think thoughts that

I know are bad

I close my eyes and I count to ten

I hope it's all over when I open them~

'It can't be true.' He opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling. 'Mom

would have told me. Wouldn't she? Oh, God! Why is this happening now?'

Tears started to form back in his eyes. Slowly they rolled down his cheeks

one at a time. 'I wish Catie was here.' He sniffed and turned over to

his side. He whipped the fresh tears from his eyes. He glared at the wall

for what seemed like hours but was only a few minutes. 'Man, I truly wish

she was here. She makes it so easy for me to talk to her. I'm going to

miss her. Oh man, I never got a chance to say goodbye or tell her that

I'm sorry. How could I do something so fucking stupid like stealing that

damn car. I just wanted to impress her. I guess it won't matter now.'

Soon Jamie fell into a restless sleep.

~I close my eyes when it gets too sad

I think thoughts that

I know are bad

I close my eyes and I count to ten

I hope it's all over when I open them

I want the things

That I had before

Like a Star Wars poster

On my bedroom door

I wish I could count to ten

And make everything be

wonderful again

I hope my mom and I hope my dad

Will figure out why they get so mad

I hear them scream...

I hear them fight

They say bad words that make me

want to cry

I close my eyes

When I go to bed and

I dream of angels who

make me smile

I feel better

When I hear them say

Everything will be

wonderful someday

Promises

mean everything

When you're little

And the world's so big

I just don't understand how

You can smile with all

Those tears in your eyes

And tell me

Everything is wonderful now

Na na na. Na na na na

Na na na. Na na na na

Na na. Na na na na na

Na na na na na na na na na

(please don't tell me everything is

wonderful now)

I go to school

And I rund and play

I tell the kids

That it's all OK

I laugh a lot

So my friends won't know

When the bell rings I just don't

want to go home

I go to my room and

I close my eyes

I make believe...

That I have a new life

I don't believe you when you say

Everything will be

wonderful someday~

TBC

The first song was called Superman preformed by Five For Fighting. The

next one was Wonderful preformed by Everclear. I want to say that I am

sorry for all the misspelled words.