Song Lyrics
Nick and Greg's Memories
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A/N: This song is Let Her Go by Varsity Fanclub. I might change all the her's to him's or something but yeah, enjoy!
Greg walked around the apartment like he has been doing to a few minutes now. He grabbed some pills from his medicine cabinet from the bathroom and put it on the living room table. He grabbed a bottle of vodka from fridge and set it right next to the pills. He was tired. He was lonely. He took one quick look around his apartment and clicked play on his stereo. He and Nick had loved their songs when they we together. Now, it's going to be the last thing he hears. The song started.
You left a letter as a clue...
Said meet me at the spot, where I first kissed you,
Greg was in the locker room getting ready to get home and cuddle next to his boyfriend, Nick Stokes. Greg took of his vest off and opened his locker. He hanged it and stared at the picture right next to the hanger. It was a picture Nick wrapping his arms around Greg's waist from behind. They looked so happy then, but now they barely see each other anymore. There had been family, friends, and work. No one knew about their relationship but Greg kept up with that. It was Nick's choice and he respected that.
Greg smiled at the picture and turned a bit to see a envelope with Greg's name on it. Greg looked at it and opened it showing a letter, with Nick's handwriting. Greg smiled and opened it, it showing in big letters "Meet me in the parking lot after shift."
Greg's smile gotten bigger at the last words, parking lot. He remembered it like it was yesterday. That was a historical place from the two boys. That is where Greg finally made his moved and kissed his behind Nick's car. Greg was surprised because Nick actually kissed back. Greg got excited and practically ran out the locker, slamming the locker with cell phone, keys, and pager in hand.
Holding my head in my hands,
You brushed a tear off my face,
One on one, You confessed that this all you can take,
Greg leaned against his car, burying his head in his hands. He starting crying so much, he didn't know if he'll have any tears after this. Nick just stood there, couldn't believe the words he just blurted out loud. Actually, that was the first thing he said to Greg when he got there. Nick took a step forward and left Greg up by the chin to see his eyes red and puffy but more tears flowed down. He weakly smiled and cupped both of his cheeks with his hands to wipe away the tears.
"I'm sorry, Greg," Nick repeated for the second time, "I'm not in love with you."
Nick knew he was lying to himself when he said that. He knew he could knew stop loving Greg no matter what happened. However, Nick told his father a few moments ago that he was gay and in love with a man, his father freaked. He told his son to get back to Texas right now and never look back. He told him if he does not, they would disown him. Nick took no hesitation to stop there relationship. Nick thought to himself, is this family worth the love I had?
Greg looked Nick straight in the eye. He did not know how Nick said that so easily, oh yeah, he said he didn't love him. That made Greg cry more.
Nick saw him cry and cut right to the chase so he could just run away. Nick was so good at that, why couldn't he keep it up?
"I'm moving to Texas, hope you'll give me forget me" Nick said looking for a response.
Greg looked up and away before saying, "I love you and I hope you know that. I will never forget you but I hope you know how much you hurt me." Nick ran to his car and drove off leaving Greg heartbroken.
I'm broken, tired
There ain't nothing left to say
I'm crying,
Didn't mean to watch as
You just walked away
Just let him go
It's too far in motion
Just let him go
My heart can gain control
It's too late
It's too far
You're leaving me behind
Just let him go
Just let him go
Greg smiled at the song knowing it fit him so good. He uncapped the pill bottle and unscrewed the vodka bottle. He grabbed two pills and threw into his mouth before taking a sip of vodka. Nick was in Texas now living a life he wanted and not with some faggot and CSI wannabe.
I should take it all back I'm broken, tired
All the kisses I gave you
The tears that you left me with
Don't know how to react
On my own, by myself
How could you say goodbye?
There ain't nothing left to say
I'm crying
Didn't mean to watch as
You just walked away
Nick came to Greg's doorstep because his ex-boyfriend texted him to. Gosh, it was so hard saying that he was his ex because he does not want it to be over. Nick looked onto the floor before knocking. It took 5 minutes and 26 seconds before Greg opened the door. Nick looked at his bare feet before moving his eyes up to the zombie like figure. Greg looked awful like he hadn't slept in a week or so. Greg was holding a box of Nick's stuff and looking at him with impatience. Greg shoved the box to Nick's chest with force to make him stumble back. Then Greg slammed the door in his face. Nick was stunned about what just happened. Greg was never forceful, nor quiet at all. Greg was never violent or leader. Nick just sighed and walked back to his car while looking in the contents. Little did he know, Greg was watching him walk away from his doorstep from the little window opening with a tear running down his cheek.
Just let him go
It's too far in motion
Just let him go
My heart can gain control
It's too late
It's too far
You're leaving me behind
Just let him go
Just let him go
Greg took four more pills and started not feeling right. It was working. He knew Nick would feel bad about this but probably feel great knowing he will not have to deal with a queer in his life. One that won't have to say sorry to after every bump in, one that wont interfere with the life he doesn't want, and one that won't look back. He took two more pills and took one long sip of vodka.
It's cold
It's cold
It's cold
It's cold
It's cold in here without you
It's cold
It's cold
I'm broken
Thought it could be you
When you think of it
Every little piece of it
Is keeping me from turning blue
Had to turn away
Didn't want to see you giving me away
Nick and his co-workers, no scratch that, best friends were driving to the airport all together. When Nick told him we was moving to Texas in the break room with all his friends, Greg ran to the bathroom to throw out his breakfast and lunch with a hint of tears. Sara found him and was the only one that soothed him. He has been thinking of killing himself ever since. He knew no one will miss him but Sara. Only Sara. His only friend. Greg watched Nick climb into the airplane, waving to his friends with a big smile on his face. A smile that could break Greg's heart.
Just let him go
It's too far in motion
Just let him go
My heart can gain control
It's too late
It's too far
You're leaving me behind
Just let him go
Just let him go
By the time the song was over, Greg finished the pills and chugged down the whole vodka. He felt everything kick in at once, he set himself on the couch with a smile on his face and a whisper. A whisper that escaped his lips, "Let him go."
Nick came back to his house right after that. Nick literally got off the plane when everyone left and ran to Greg's house. He leaned against the door to catch his breath then he finally knocked on the door. No answer.
"C'mon Greg! Please open up, I…I…I love you!" Nick blurted out and felt a sudden red of blush on his cheeks. Again, no answer. He came around the house to a window to catch a view if he was home; his car was there but no answer.
"Greg?" Nick shouted once more then looked through window. Nick's eyes widened and his jaw dropped. He quickly got out his phone and dialed 911.
"Las Vegas Police Department, how may I help you?" the lady asked.
"Hello, this is CSI: Nick Stokes calling in on a man down. Man down, I repeat, man down!" Nick ran around to the front door before hanging up on the lady. He kicked the door open (with his skills from being a police officer) and ran over to Greg on the couch. He saw the vodka and pills on the table before cradling Greg in his arms.
"Oh Greg, I know you did this for me, I love you Greg and I never stopped. Please, please, please, please make it out of this!" Nick cried then burying his face with Greg's and let tears silently fall onto Greg's cheek and slide down.
"I love you, Greg" Nick said and the next thing he knew he was being hauled away from Greg by the paramedics.