Disclaimer: JK's world. Playing in mine.
A light through the clouds, filtering into the darkness within. That small light reminding me of what my life once was. Seemingly insignificant, a single ray of sunshine.
A single ray of just a little bit of hope.
I was happy, once.
I was happy, and I was carefree, and I was the "know-it-all Granger" they all knew and loved.
And you were there, desperately wrong and yet thrillingly forbidden.
It started slow at first. A little look. A small glimpse. Nothing, really, to the naked eye. That slight, ever so subtle jump in my adrenaline. Just a tiny difference in that smirk. Just a little bit. Nothing to mention.
Then the little signs. Slight brushes in the hallway. Half-smiles when no one else was looking. Longer gazes we hoped no one saw. A slightly playful tone to that banter.
So dark, so forbidden.
The note arriving late into the night. That first meeting. Astronomy tower. Midnight.
The heightened senses the whole walk there. The pumping adrenaline through my body. The hyper awareness.
The sheer knowledge of the forbidden.
That first kiss. The ultimately searing and overwhelmingling powerful chemistry. The dizziness that ensued. The kisses over and over, far too late into the night.
More meetings. More times. More moments in our time together.
Those moments when your time and my time just became our time with no one else around.
No one was ever around.
The meetings I began to miss in exchange for the meetings with you. The assignments that just barely began to slip.
Nothing to notice; nothing to mention.
The dark hallways. The dark closets. The nights I spent away, concealing my secrets with the best of charms.
The descent into you.
The meetings I began to stop scheduling. The assignments I began to stop completing. The life I began to stop living.
It was you.
It was you, and it was me, and it was us together in our dark, forbidden world and no one knew.
No one knew.
The questions they asked; the answers that never satisfied. The words I never knew; the times they never believed.
It was all for you.
It's still all for you.
Laying here with you, laying in your dungeon. Looking at the darkness on the walls. The damp, dark exterior of our world together. The grayness. The bleak; the dreary. The overwhelming darkness of it all.
Of my life with you.
Wondering how I got here.
The light from the small window. That tiny, almost insignificant window. That small ray of light. Almost nothing to mention.
That last ray of hope.
Standing quietly, peacefully, careful not to disturb you. Looking back just once, watching you sleep. Watching your chest move up and down. Thinking of the amount of nights I've spent laying on that chest.
Taking a deep breath.
Walking toward the light. Walking toward the door I know contains even more light.
Sneaking through the common room. The dark greens and grays and bleak and scent of the forbidden. Walking up the corridors. Climbing the miriad of stairs.
Looking away sheepishly at the Fat Lady's look of resignation. Assuring her it won't happen again. Knowing within me it won't happen again. Not this time.
Climbing through the portrait hole. Smiling ever-so-slightly at the people I once knew so well.
Sitting next to Ginny. Watching Harry and Ron play yet another game of wizard's chess.
Back into the familiar.
Seeing that light shine through the window of Gryffindor Tower. Almost overwhelmingly bright. Sunny. Happy. It blinds my eyes. I'm not used to it, not yet.
Back into the light.
Back into my life.
Back away from you.
Through with you.
A/N: A little dark, a little unexpected. Not entirely sure where that came from.
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