The titles are just the lyrics of the song, and might not have much to do with what happens in the chapters
Shout out at chchchchcherrybomb for writing the fic that gave me this idea, I'm not sorry
I. And I'd give up forever to touch you
Connor Murphy met Evan Hansen in rehab.
Sure, the guy had been Connor's classmate for years now, but that was the first time Connor paid any attention to him; he probably snapped at him a few times, but he didn't count that, and Hansen seemed to be ignoring those as well.
Maybe it was because Hansen was the only thing close to familiar in the place, and Connor most likely had a similar effect on the shorter boy, but the two gravitated towards each other during their stay there.
For a place such as this: it was fairly easy to get some alone time away from prying ears, enough to make confessions, to build connections, and to convince each other that this was bullshit, not that Connor didn't think that already, but he was a bit surprised at how little Hansen cared about his own life; it's in one of these conversations that they make their promise.
They wouldn't be able to go through it immediately, no, if they wanted this to work then they had to make it seem like they were better, like they were making an effort, so no one would be there to stop them.
Once they were free, they arranged a time and place, and they arranged a story, once everyone was convinced, they would set off, in a road trip that would mark their last year on earth. When Connor crossed ways with Evan on school all he got was a nod of acknowledgement, but they kept contact through mail, keeping each other on target, it felt like having an ally.
With the constant reminder of their end goal, Connor was able to deal better with high school, and during the break Evan and Connor started their act. It wasn't really much of an act, Evan and Connor knew enough about each other, and they trusted each other to some degree, playing friends was easy enough; to their families they met through a school project and just sort of clicked, and even though they had known each other for longer nobody questioned it.
Evan's presence made Connor less prone to anger; Connor's presence was like backup to Evan; so it made sense that their respective families would think they were good influences on the other.
So when the two broke in the news that they wanted to go on a road trip after they graduated, everyone was none the wiser, talking about how good the experience was going to be for them, Larry went as far as saying that every man had to go on a journey at some point, Evan's complete amusement at the statement went unnoticed to everyone but Connor. The Murphys insisted to pay for any activities the two wanted to engage in, telling Heidi it was the least they could do to thank Evan for bringing so much joy to Connor's life, it took a bit of convincing, but she eventually accepted.
They finished senior year mostly out of spite, or at least that's what Evan told Connor to do, he was a very convincing person behind closed doors; and once they were well away from their weeping families, and onto the road they exchanged looks and laughed.
In between laugh-laced breaths, came the question
"So, what's first on the list?"