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A-Note: Hey guys :) So I started writing this when I was going through a lot of stuff, so it is a bit darker then my pervious fics. It will be 4 chapters long and progressively get lighter as we go, since I wrote it at different points of the year :p . I hope you guys like it. Please R&R :) Love you guys :D
Summary: His mom called it gift, something precious that would bring him the one he would cherish. But Stiles thought it was a curse, something that showed him how cruel the world really is. It only showed him what he could not have. He cursed the string connecting their two hearts. The string he could only see. Sterek AU String of fate fic.
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What My Heart Is Telling Me
Chapter One: I Will Be Your Hero
She called it gift, something precious that would bring him the one he would cherish above all else. But it was a curse, something that showed him how cruel the world really is. It only showed him what he could not have…who he could never call mine.
The snow slowly fell, covering the world in an icy cloak. Stiles stared aimlessly out the window, not paying attention to the class he was in. That day frequently played through his mind, no matter how hard he tried. The final moments with his mother before she left him, just like everyone else. He still remembered her eyes, so full of pain.
Five Years Ago…
He was snuggled into his mom. The beeping of the machines felt like they were getting louder, and at the age of twelve, he had no idea what was going on. All he knew was that he felt hurt and he just wanted the pain to stop.
"Stiles sweetie, can you keep a secret for me? Even from daddy?" Claudia said looking down at her son with a sad smile.
"Of course mommy!" Stiles said sitting up in the bed.
"I was hoping you would be older when I told you this but…Your special sweetie, like mommy. You have a gift my sweet boy, and when the time is right you are going to start to see something, like a string, running from here." She said placing a hand over his heart.
Stiles looked at his mommy with a confused look but when he saw her smile, a real smile for the first time in forever, he placed his hand over hers. The pain got more intense for a moment. "What is it mommy?"
"It is to help you find the one you will cherish above all else, your special person. Like me and daddy." She said laying back down on the bed.
"Okay mommy." Stiles said as he hugged into her again.
"Just promise me your will never tell anyone." She paused for a brief moment, getting to know John was so difficult when he did not know the consequences. "Except your special person when you are sure and comfortable with them."
"I promise mommy." She smiled at him and then her eyes slowly closed. Stiles did not know why but the pain got much worse, so he hugged into his mommy hoping she could make it go away. That is when the loud beeping started.
Everything was a mess of bodies after that. He was taken by a nurse away from his mommy, and he saw his daddy crying. He did not cry; his focus was on the pain; it was becoming unbearable. He was a smart boy so he thought maybe he needed a snack.
Snacks always make me feel better. He slipped away from the noise and made his way to the vending machines. He quickly looked at all the options before deciding on the bag of chips. As he grabbed the bag he felt it.
The pain slowly began to dull, and then he saw it. His mommy was right, it looked like a string but it was a shiny red. When touched it his hand pasted right through. He felt a pull to follow it. As he got closer to the end the pain was becoming a dull throb.
The string led him to an empty part of the hospital, and to the prettiest boy Stiles had ever seen. Stiles assumed that the boy was who made his pain stop. He decided the boy was like the superheroes from his cartoons, someone who is meant to save him from all the hurt.
Stiles really wanted his own superhero. He was always jealous of all those girls who had them on TV. So he decided he would try to get this boy to pick him. The superhero boy was sitting in a corner with his knees pulled up to his chest, and seemed to be crying.
"Do you want some chips? It always makes me feel better if I eat something." Stiles said hesitantly, he could feel his face get warm. The superhero looked up and Stiles' breath caught, he saw the brightest blue eyes filled with tears. He noticed the string begin to glow, and figured he must be doing something right.
The superhero blinked for a couple of moments and slowly shook his head. Stiles frowned and slowly walked over and sat next to him. He was frustrated, how was he going to get this superhero to like him? He never told his mommy and daddy, but no one really likes him at school, so why would this be different?
"My name is Derek." Stiles jumped a little not expecting his voice to be so nice. Derek was now resting his head on his knees. Stiles was convinced he was doing better than he thought, because superheroes never tell their name to just anyone.
"I am Stiles, sorry if I interrupted you. Everyone at school tells me I do not know when to stay away. But you looked sad, I do not like it when people are sad. My mommy just left me and everyone is so sad, so I needed to leave. But I like to make people feel better and being alone sucks." Stiles said opening the chips.
"You talk a lot." Derek said with a small grin. "I am sorry about your mom…my family was in a car accident, and it was my fault." Derek said with a few tears slipping down his cheek. Stiles rested his head against Derek's shoulder and held the chips toward him, he smirked and took one.
"It could not have been your fault. My mommy always told me that heroes always blame themselves because their special, and they want to help everyone. But she said special people always need their anchor to keep them grounded." Stiles said smiling.
A nurse came running down the hall saying something about looking everywhere for Stiles and Derek. She took them so far and then said they had to separate, before he pulled them apart Stiles gave Derek a hug and whispered "do not forget me, you are my superhero!"
After that moment he was brought to his dad. He did not see Derek again until he was 16. He found out that Derek's family had survived the crash but that they had moved for some space. Over the years Stiles eventually pieced together what the string was. It did not take him long after that to figure out who Derek was, and for many years he lived in a bubble thinking that they would one day be together. The pain had come back again after Derek left, but it was manageable.
School had never changed, he was still an outcast and many believed that he had only gotten weirder as he aged. But Stiles was okay because he knew his hero would save him from all the pain. But then Derek came back, and he had no recognition of Stiles when he sat in the empty seat next to him. That is when Stiles broke and the pain stopped being a throb. That day Stiles realised what the pain is, love. The love that was right in front of him that he would never have. and accepted that it will be the cause of his death.
"Mr. Stilinski!" Stiles came back to the present from Mr. Harris's annoying voice.
"The answer is hydrochloric acid." Stiles said in a monotone voice. He enjoyed these moments, Derek had to take the empty seat next to him in every class. When he was close, the pain Stiles felt was dulled again. Being near him always helped. Sometimes Stiles would let himself believe for the briefest moments that he could be someone to Derek…
Stiles took the moment to look down at the string. The red was still bright and still as beautiful as the day Stiles first saw it, and seeing it bond them together hurt more than Stiles could describe. His mom was wrong about this 'gift', curse was more accurate.
He had lived the past year realising something, maybe this was the best thing for Derek. His mom had been hesitant about him tell anyone about the string, maybe it's because she knew the pressure it put on someone. Stiles did not want Derek to be with him just to save him. Stiles wanted Derek to love him…. The thought made him chuckle, like that would ever happen.
Stiles realized that what everyone said about him was true. He was weird, useless, and unlovable. If Derek really was his 'soul mate' then he was going to make sure Derek was happy. To do that he had to stay away, Stiles knew he was broken and had a lot of baggage. He could not put the love of his life through all of that. He was going to be Derek's hero for once.
A-Note: Thanks for reading guys :) The next chapter will be up in a week :D