A/N: what up guys, it me maureen. I've been loving spring awakening since last summer it's so relatable (well some of it is), I adore the show. This idea came to me when listening to the cast album and it made this extremely dark and twisted story so enjoy.
warning: this chapter contains strong language and a scene of rape, nothing too graphic but still.
It was a month after the saddest day of Ilse Neumann's life. The day when her best friend and fellow pirate Moritz was lowered into the ground. Ilse cried everyday since, feeling guilty about how she could have prevented his death. If only she had gone to him when she heard him yell her name, Moritz would still be alive. But Ilse didn't and now Moritz is gone forever.
Ilse once radiant completion is now dull, her once bright merry eyes are now puffy and irritated with dark circles that stretch down to her cheek bones, and where her body once looked healthy it now looks like a body of a skeleton. Ilse's dark circles and sudden loss of weight are all to do with the terrifying visions she sees every time she closes her eyes. She can't close her eyes without seeing Moritz corpse with his crimson blood and brains scattered everywhere. This image haunts Ilse every second of the day and will continue to haunt her for the rest of her life, all because she didn't come to him when she heard his screams. Just to get rid of mortifying screams from Moritz that rings through her ears she often bangs her head as hard as she can on the walls, which explains the welt on her forehead.
Ilse always visits Moritz's grave with a fresh bouquet of lavender every Sunday. But nothing would have prepared Ilse for what she would see at the graveyard.
The cold damp grass beneath her feet made every step painful, the harsh winter wind bit at her cheeks making them numb and cold to the touch. The moon and stars illuminated the dark forest. Ilse used to adore the forest because it provided her with some of her fondest memories. the forest was a place where Ilse Neumann no longer existed, but a pirate did. Pirate Ilse and her crew would sail the seven seas and steal treasure from unsuspecting sailers. Ilse briefly smiled as she thought of the long bright summer days she spent there. The forest was also a place where she had her first kiss, his pleasant brown eyes looking right into hers and the feeling of his lips against hers. The boy who share Ilse's very few moments of love and passion is Moritz.
It was a cool autumn day. The orange firery sun blaze upon Ilse head making her feel dizzy and sick. Tears formed in her eyes desperate to spill on her cheeks from her fathers last attack. Her ability to walk and even breathe was a struggle.
Ilse's father came home drunk and need someone to take his frustrations out on. His eyes fell on his daughter. She looked so peaceful curled up by the fire asleep in the living room. "Ilse wake up" he barked at the poor girl. Ilse jumped up with fright when she herd that terrible noise. "I'm sorry Papa" Ilse's body started to tremble and tears poured out of her eyes. "I didn't know I fell asle.." Ilse sentence was cut short by Herr Neumann's fist colliding with her cheek. Ilse screamed at the throbbing pain that corsed through her vains, her hand cluched her swollen cheek. There was nothing she could do next but await her fathers next damaging move. The silence was cut short by Her Nueman's first now punching Ilse violently in the chest. He smiled at the sound of the screams he heard every time his fist made contact with her skin.
After five minuets Ilse lay on the floor hunch in a little ball whimpering with tears streaming down her face. "You're useless. You're a disgrace to this family, me and your mother would rather you were dead so we would never see your pathetic face again. Do you hear me?" He barked at the bruised girl. Ilse tried to force out a reply but talking was too painful for her to even try to say anything, instead she knoded her head. "Good" his lips formed a sly smile as the sickening thought came into head.
Ilse eyes grew in shock as she saw her father drawing near to her, she tried with all her might to run away from him, but she was too weak to move. Ilse knew what was going to happen next and closed her eyes and hoped that the pain would be over soon.
Herr Neumann unbuckled his belt, lowered his pants and forced himself on his daughter. After the unspeakable deed he did to his own flesh and blood, he drew himself from Ilse. He picked up his clothing and left the room, leaving a traumatised quivering wreck on the floor. Ilse staid frozen to the hard wooden floor for nearly a hour, her mind kept on reliving the horrifying experience.
After a hour she convinced herself to get out of the house. With that advice in mind Ilse slowly walked towards the heavy oak door leading to the dark cold street. Ilse slowly pushed open the door trying to make as little sound as possible. She smiled to herself as she saw the streets of freedom, the streets that will lead her to a new life. Ilse glanced behind her to see if anybody could see her, there was not a person in sight. With that pleasant news, Ilse ran for her life down the streets and towards the forrest.
Ilse felt her heart rapidly beating in her her chest and the aching throbbing pain in her ribs, but she knew that she had to keep on running despite all the pain she was in. As soon as she was deep in the forest for anyone to find her, Ilse curled up into a ball and tried to sleep. But everytime she even tried to close her eyes all she could see is her father on top of her looking at her with a sickening grin.
Ilse smiled with relive when she saw the sun rising above the treetops. She got up from the damp ground and walked towards a much more secluded place where no one could find her. A place where she could spend the rest of her life.
"Ilse?" A voice called. Ilse's body froze and her warm blood turned to ice, she prayed that the voice didn't belong to her father. But the voice did not come from the mouth of the monster she called a father, but a quiet brown haired boy called Moritz.
"Hello Moritz" she greeted her friend, but the sadness of her never seeing him again was too much for her so much so that she couldn't look at him. "Ilse it's nearly seven o'clock why are you still in your nightdress?" The young boy asked pointing at his friend's clothes. "Because I have to go away Moritz" she blurted out with a tear trickling down her cheek. "Why?" asked Moritz. "Because I do okay?" Ilse snapped with her voice cracking. "Oh Ilse are you sad because you're hurt?" Moritz asked with a concern tone in his voice, he reach up his hand and gently stroked Ilse throbbing bruised eye, "Who did this to you?". Ilse opened her mouth to respond but closed her mouth and shock her head. As much as she wanted to tell her fellow pirate what a bastard her father was to her last night, but the words wouldn't form in her mouth. "Please Ilse?" This time Moritz didn't give Ilse time to respond to his question, because he placed his lips on her. Ilse was taken back by the kiss but she relaxed and started to kiss the brunette back. She closed her eyes and savoured the way his rough chapped felt against hers and how he tasted of freshly brewed tea.
After what felt like hours and hours of love and passion Moritz pulled away. He looked into her eyes and asked again "who did this to you?". "My father" Ilse whispered she closed her eyes and sobbed. Moritz gaped at her, his eyes wide in shock and he felt his body shaking in rage. He wanted to kill Ilse's father for doing such a disgusting act to his own daughter.
Moritz embraced the quivering girl in his arms. He staid like that for a few minuets with the girl he loved in his arms, he wanted to memorise the way Ilse felt in his warm embrace, but all good things must come to an end.
Moritz held Ilse's chin in his palms and tilted her head to look at him in his eyes. "How long are you going away for? and where too?" He asked as he stroked her cheekbone with his thumb. Ilse stuttered she didn't know how to tell her friend that he'll never see her face after this, "I think I'll be gone forever" she mumbled avoiding eye contact with the boy she loved. "Then I'll be here waiting,forever if I have to if it means we will see each other again" he gave her a gentle smile. His kindness and respect that he showed her in this last few minuets had touch Ilse, so much so that she wants to brake down and cry. But she has to stay strong. "And we will be pirates forever right?" Ilse asked ,well almost pleaded to her friend.
Moritz chuckled "yes let's be pirates. I like that". "Also to answer your question I have no idea where to. So I'll appreciate all suggestions made" she grinned at Moritz. "I heard of a place called Paprika. It's an artist colony, full of people who are different or don't fit into society, like you." Moritz smiled and playfully nudged his friend with his elbow.
"An artist colony?" Ilse question, she looked at Moritz who nodded his head as if to say "yes it would be perfect for you". "It sounds wonderful" Ilse smiled "don't you have school now?".
"Good god! Yes I do, thanks for reminding me" Moritz gasped and started to leave. Before he was almost out of sight he ran back to Ilse and planted a final kiss on her lips. "Goodbye" he said with glassy eyes. Ilse couldn't contain her tears "bye Moritz" she weeped. "Please write to me soon" Moritz yelled from behind his shoulder as he ran off in the direction of the school.
Ilse's flashback ended and reality stetted back in. Ilse tried to close her eyes to relive all these memories she had created with Moritz. But she knew that it wouldn't bring Moritz back. Her eyes filled with more tears and her heart felt that dreadful aching pain. Ilse continued to walked to the grave that belongs to a boy who shouldn't be dead.
A/N: so how was it? Tell me in the comments and also please tell me if you spot any spelling or grammar mistakes, I have dyspraxia so it's not my strongest point. Also I have posted this story on whattpad, so don't think I'm stealing this fic. Well, anyway till next time stay awesome :)
love maureenx