Maybe Someday
Rating: PG Spoilers: Around Season 2. Disclaimer: I don't own them. Summary: Someone thinks about someone.
I dreamt again this night. I can't have peaceful sleep. I relive the horror of my life in my dreams every night. Sometimes it's my mom, sometimes it's Buffy or someone from SunnyD. But most times I dream about those blue eyes.
Eyes of someone I hurt so badly. Back then I thought it was fun to torture him. It was a way to release the guilt I carried. I blamed him for everything bad that happened to me. Every bad thing was his fault in my mind. Now I can see that he was just as much a victim of the Council as I was. Even if I almost killed him, he helped me to be free in a way. Everyone thinks it was Angel's action that gave me courage to go to the police. They are wrong. I took it from my ex-watcher, the man who stood up against me even though he was afraid. Man I tortured and still helped me. Man who grew up over the time I didn't see him. I think Buffy would be surprised to see him now. He is strong and self- assured, not the woman-man we knew back in SunnyD. I still don't know why he helped me. And to tell the truth I don't wanna find out. You know what is the most amazing thing? At the beginning it was Angel who visited me from time to time, but then he stopped. It broke my heart. He was my only friend and he promised he'd be here at every step of my redemption. And then HE visited me. It was only one time, but he stayed one hour; that was most time we prisoners had permitted. He told me about everything that happened. About Angel firing them, Darla and Dru. Everything and he wasn't hiding anything. It made me hopeful that someday he can forgive me for what I did because his forgiveness is the one thing that matters to me most.
THE END
Rating: PG Spoilers: Around Season 2. Disclaimer: I don't own them. Summary: Someone thinks about someone.
I dreamt again this night. I can't have peaceful sleep. I relive the horror of my life in my dreams every night. Sometimes it's my mom, sometimes it's Buffy or someone from SunnyD. But most times I dream about those blue eyes.
Eyes of someone I hurt so badly. Back then I thought it was fun to torture him. It was a way to release the guilt I carried. I blamed him for everything bad that happened to me. Every bad thing was his fault in my mind. Now I can see that he was just as much a victim of the Council as I was. Even if I almost killed him, he helped me to be free in a way. Everyone thinks it was Angel's action that gave me courage to go to the police. They are wrong. I took it from my ex-watcher, the man who stood up against me even though he was afraid. Man I tortured and still helped me. Man who grew up over the time I didn't see him. I think Buffy would be surprised to see him now. He is strong and self- assured, not the woman-man we knew back in SunnyD. I still don't know why he helped me. And to tell the truth I don't wanna find out. You know what is the most amazing thing? At the beginning it was Angel who visited me from time to time, but then he stopped. It broke my heart. He was my only friend and he promised he'd be here at every step of my redemption. And then HE visited me. It was only one time, but he stayed one hour; that was most time we prisoners had permitted. He told me about everything that happened. About Angel firing them, Darla and Dru. Everything and he wasn't hiding anything. It made me hopeful that someday he can forgive me for what I did because his forgiveness is the one thing that matters to me most.
THE END