Rae's Pov:
I had another fight with mum. She just doesn't understand. I can't go back to college. Not again. The gang's waiting for me. He's waiting for me. I can't return to that hell.
Things weren't always like this. Chloe and I used to be best friends. She's the one who introduced me to the gang members- Izzy, Chop, Finn, and Archie. That was the ninth grade. I was in heaven. It was the first time a guy had asked me out. Heck, first time one had shown the slightest interest in me- a fat piece of lard.
I was head over heels Archie. Should've known it'd be too good to last...maybe I have my own big fat mouth to blame for. You see- there was just one problem. Finn Nelson. The gang leader. That grumpy sod had something against me from the beginning. So you can't blame me for being defensive. I was just as rude back to him as he to me.
Maybe I should have known better than to mess with him. But being with Archie had messed with my head. I'd been soaring too high. The more he and I hung out- the more Finn turned aggressive towards me. One day I'd had enough of his behaviour. He called me a desperate slut as I sat gushing over Archie to the rest of the gang. I slapped him. And from that day on, everything changed.
I became the despised outcast. Archie dumped me with an apologetic look. No explanation given. The worst betrayal was Chloe's. It was worse than the feelings of heartbreak. I went back to being the laughing stock of the entire school. But this time I had no friend. No supporter. And worst of all- the so-called fittest lad of the school became my personal tormentor.
In these three years of constant ridicule and torture, I'd been hurting myself. It got so bad that I was institutionalised in the summer. Nobody but my mum knew about it. Now that I was in therapy and maybe recovering...was it even possible?...I did NOT want to go back to what brought me to it.
But mum wouldn't hear of it. She said as long as I was living under her roof, I had to follow her rules. I had to go back and finish my senior year. Even if it ended up finishing me. She has no idea of what I've been through. If only she'd care to think she has a daughter who needs her...her world revolves around her diets and that Karim.
The nightmare begins tomorrow...