A/N:
Hirunaka no Ryuusei is a shoujo manga, which I am currently following. It's more angsty and has a lot of drama, though it does have its few doses of humor put into it. But in my humble opinion, the author's best feature in this manga is her way of making such complicated twists for our major characters.
I normally root for the original couplings, but I find that in this series, I am leaning more towards the other guy. I guess because I am appalled by the lack of restraint and stupidity being practiced by the first guy. But his stupidity and inconsistence with his feelings towards the heroine made him a perfect subject for my angst-driven mind. I LOVE drama. Hence, Satsuki Shishio is a perfect POV for my first entry for this charming work.
Do check out this manga if you happen to just stumble upon my work. I may be putting some spoilers here, so be warned!
This POV was influenced by Ch 46 of the ongoing series
Disclaimer: I own nothing but my ramblings here.
Breaking Up is a Hard Thing to do
Her Uncle's words still rang in my ears.
With your status right now, do you think you can make her happy? What would happen if I'm not the one who found out about your relationship? Can you really come and comfort her immediately when she needs you the most, when she's sad or in pain?
Just realizing what his words mean are like small knives being plunged on my chest over and over.
And yet, the gulf that stretched between us seemed to ring louder in my head than her Uncle's words.
I pushed open the door to my classroom, my eyes automatically trailing to her seat.
It was empty.
It took all of my strength not to blurt out and ask where she is. Is she hurt? Sick? Or was she too broken-hearted to come and attend her lessons for today?
I'm the one who caused you too much pain.
I casually strode over to my desk and began my regular roll calls. But when I called out her name, only silence greeted me.
"Um, Sensei, Yosano is absent for today due to a fever." Someone volunteered to answer.
"Noted." I muttered as dispassionately as I could, crossing out her name from the student list. My pen hovered hesitantly over the paper, and I sneaked a glance and saw Mamura glaring at me from his seat, before turning away to look at the window.
Likewise, her friend, Yuyuka Nekota was looking at me with a disappointed expression. When she caught me looking at her, she slid her blank expression on and continued to stare back at me as if I never existed.
They knew what happened between Yosano and I.
I continued with my roll call, visibly shaken inside; ashamed even. I am an adult who should have known better. An adult who is supposed to have better grip on his emotions. But I am ashamed to categorize myself as an adult because I feel like a kid crying inside.
Chun-chun deserves a better someone rather than me. The twisting feeling on my chest stayed with me the whole day.
A/N: Let me know what you think.