I wait up in the cherry tree, waiting for Serenity. I shiver – the wind is cold – and I know she isn't coming. She never does. Afraid the go out in the dark, and certainly not more me. She hates me.
I don't know why I even come out here.
Steps. Leaves crunch softly, twigs break. Pale hair glimmers in the starlight, odango hair.
"Serenity!" I say, and jump down.
She laughs, and I see it is not my Serenity.
"Yes, Prince, but not the one you're after. Come inside, Demando. It's too cold to be out."
I follow the Queen inside, through the candlelit halls or marble. I reach out to touch its coolness, its smoothness, and I wish it was Serenity I was touching.
"Where have you been?" a voice snaps,
"Serenity's been waiting forever." I blush under the accusations, something I do not usually do.
"I'm sorry Princess," I whisper. She sniffs, and flips back her golden hair, staring down at me. She never liked me, Princess Venus. She knows Serenity like I never can, and knows things I don't.
The Queen smiles at me sadly, and I feel she knows. But she cannot do anything more than I can, and even if she could, she wouldn't. I smile back at her, and follow Venus upstairs to where Serenity waits – my princess, but never ever mine.
I used to think I had a chance. I would watch her, and dream of the day I'd marry her. Now I am and it's worse. I guess I thought that when we got married, she'd love me. I was stupid.
Serenity sits with her senshi up ahead. They are laughing, she is smiling. I look down at Venus, and she is smiling where she had been so stern before.
Mars looks up, says something to Serenity. My princess turns around, stands up, her smile gone, and she asks where I've been. I stand there, answerless, but I am sorry. How could I even hope she would come to find me? I should've just stayed. She – she seems worried, and I like to fool myself she is.
She doesn't like this anymore than I do. She's married to someone she doesn't love, and I'm married to one who won't love me back.
Still. It hurts.
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I wait in the darkness.
Frozen winds surround my face.
In the cover of darkness I can make believe it's you.
I feel you like the rain, I feel you like a storm cloud
Building in my heart.
I wonder if you know the pain,
To want the one thing you haven't got.
I don't know why I even come out here.
Steps. Leaves crunch softly, twigs break. Pale hair glimmers in the starlight, odango hair.
"Serenity!" I say, and jump down.
She laughs, and I see it is not my Serenity.
"Yes, Prince, but not the one you're after. Come inside, Demando. It's too cold to be out."
I follow the Queen inside, through the candlelit halls or marble. I reach out to touch its coolness, its smoothness, and I wish it was Serenity I was touching.
"Where have you been?" a voice snaps,
"Serenity's been waiting forever." I blush under the accusations, something I do not usually do.
"I'm sorry Princess," I whisper. She sniffs, and flips back her golden hair, staring down at me. She never liked me, Princess Venus. She knows Serenity like I never can, and knows things I don't.
The Queen smiles at me sadly, and I feel she knows. But she cannot do anything more than I can, and even if she could, she wouldn't. I smile back at her, and follow Venus upstairs to where Serenity waits – my princess, but never ever mine.
I used to think I had a chance. I would watch her, and dream of the day I'd marry her. Now I am and it's worse. I guess I thought that when we got married, she'd love me. I was stupid.
Serenity sits with her senshi up ahead. They are laughing, she is smiling. I look down at Venus, and she is smiling where she had been so stern before.
Mars looks up, says something to Serenity. My princess turns around, stands up, her smile gone, and she asks where I've been. I stand there, answerless, but I am sorry. How could I even hope she would come to find me? I should've just stayed. She – she seems worried, and I like to fool myself she is.
She doesn't like this anymore than I do. She's married to someone she doesn't love, and I'm married to one who won't love me back.
Still. It hurts.
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I wait in the darkness.
Frozen winds surround my face.
In the cover of darkness I can make believe it's you.
I feel you like the rain, I feel you like a storm cloud
Building in my heart.
I wonder if you know the pain,
To want the one thing you haven't got.