Love Bites: Reneesme's P.O.V.

I don't understand… I have no choice but to love him or hurt him. He loves me no matter what, even if I do, in fact, choose not to love him back. Its just not fair to either of us.

You see, last weekend, I went to the movies with Bryan and he tried to plant one on me. And even thought I really like the boy, I ended up storming out of the theater with the traitor tears failing me yet again. Strange enough, when I got home, I went straight into Jacobs arms for the comfort I most desperately desired. Not my mother or my father, but Jacob.

So here I am trying to figure my own feelings out by myself and its not going too well so I call in support. I call in my father for advice, you know, since he can read minds and such. I poured out all of my thoughts and feelings with a simple touch of my hand to his cheek. He sat there absorbing all of the hormone-ridden information, still as a marble statue. As I looked up at his magnificent face, I am reminded, yet again, of how he could put a Greek god to shame. He chuckled quietly to himself.

After my story had finally summed itself up, he looked at me and smiled that beautiful, crooked smile. I was so confused, wanting to know what he was thinking at that moment exactly. He kept staring and said "Honey, I think your in love with him."

I just sat there in his stone-hard lap stunned, for what could pass for an eternity. Until it hit me like a brick wall: I was, am, and always will be in love with Jacob Black. Daddy just kept smiling and nodded silently. As the last piece of information popped into place like the missing piece of a jigsaw puzzle, I all but sprinted to Jacob. Aunt Alice must have seen this coming because she was standing outside of my bedroom door. I was running so fast that I had knocked both of us to the ground. She didn't try too hard to stifle her laughter.

We righted ourselves and she took both of my hands in hers and said "My, little Nessie, your really growing up." And we both cried tears of joy, only hers ran dry. As soon as Aunt Alice finally let me go, I raced through the thick, green woods at my not-so human pace, until I had reached Jacobs little house. As I was about to knock on his mahogany door, I realized that I had lost all my steam and was not thoroughly embarrassed. I guess, in that way, I am like my mother-as a human. Very timid and shy.

I guess I had been standing there for a while mulling over everything because Jacob was standing beside me when I finally came to. I looked at his beautiful brown eyes and smiled. He looked confused so I asked if we could go inside and talk for a little while. He quickly agreed and it was obvious by the expression he wore on his face, that he was trying very hard to figure what this was all about.

I took his hand and he led my to the living room. We sat on his russet colored leather couch. ( I chose this color because it represented the color of his fur). I decided to sit on top of his lap and come straight out with it, no fooling around.

"Jacob," I started, "I love you"

He looked surprised, but finally said, "I already knew that."

I sighed and looked down. "well you used to, but its different now. I truly love you with all of my heart. Forever and always."

Somewhere along the way I got all emotional and started to cry happy tears. He lifted my face to his and kissed my happily. I pulled away only to see his face, and he looked at me with the happiest expression I had ever seen. Aside from my mother and father. And I just knew that everything was going to be exactly as I had imagined- perfect. Forever and Always.