Subconscious Hope

DISCLAIMER - I do not own Victorious, or any of the Characters, Images, or any else that is in any way related to it.

This is my first take on a Cori. I hope this turns out well. I will admit that on a scale of 1-10, my Catorade was about a 5, maybe a 6. So I need to improve, and alot. Hopefully this will be better. FYI, most anything in Italics is someone's dream, and bold is their own inner thoughts.

Chapter 1 - Discovery #1

"Cotton candy? I love cotton candy! The smell, the texture, the taste. Of course what teenager doesn't like having a sugar high? But for some reason, this cotton candy is different. I can smell it, but its a lot stronger than I have ever realized. And I can't happen to find it anywhere. Where in the world? Oh wait- no. Still nowhere. And now these brillaint red flashes? I love the color red, but, this is weird. And laughing? God, for some reason, I am thinking about Cat now. Its almost like I can feel her."

Tori was looking around, not finding anything concrete to solidify what her mind was thinking. She could swear Cat was there. She could feel her, smell her cotton candy perfume, could see the brilliant red in her hair. But Cat personally was no where to be seen.

"Cat? If you are here, let me know."

"Tori? HEY!"

"Cat, where are you? I can't see you. Please, come out."

"Tori. Tori. TORI! TTOOOORRRIIIIIII!"

Tori woke up. Cat had stayed the night, their school project finished. It hadn't been that hard, but they had been sidetracked by Trina and some new miracle product she had found. And then of course all the yelling and screaming about it burning and not working right. So it had taken a bit longer than expected.

She could hear Cat next to her. Her breathing was light, and she sounded peacefully asleep. Cat looked so cute, the way she was cuddled up, the bed sheets pulled all the way up to her chin. Almost like she was hiding from something.

Tori got out of bed. She needed to waz, her bladder feeling full to bursting. She realized that the dream had been real feeling because Cat was so close to her. She walked back into her room, just in time to hear Cat mumbling in her sleep.

"Tori. Hey Tori." Tori was enjoying it. Hearing her name in someone else's dream. That made her day, knowing that someone thought that much about her that she was occupying their dream. Of course, Cat had occupied her's as well. So all is fair. "Yes Tori. Please, keep going!"

Okay? What in the world could Cat be doing in that dream of hers, that she would want Tori to keep going. Of couse, knowing Cat, it was probably a tickle fight or something along those lines. "Oh god, Tori. YES! Please, it feels so good." Tori was taken aback this time. There was something serious going on here.

Tori walked over to wake up her bedmate. She placed a hand on the covers, right on top of where her shoulders were. She shook her a bit, but Cat didn't flinch. "Oh, fuck. Yes! Tori, oh god, TORIII!" Tori had no choice. She had to wake her up. She knew that any sure fire way to wake Cat up was to pull all the covers off her, until the cold finally snapped her out of the dream. "I love you, Tori. Please, don't go."

Tori didn't know what to do. This made her freeze right in place. Why was Cat saying she loved her? And more importantly, why did it sound like she was having sex in her dream. And most important, why was TORI the other half of the sex? She stood frozen, listening intently to every word.

"Tori, I love you. Marry me."

"Tori, please, I'm sorry."

"Tori, I need you."

"Tori, can I tell you something. I love you."

Tori walked out of her own room. She walked back in half a moment later, when she realized she was half naked. Sure it was late on a Friday night, and everyone was asleep. But still, there were chances someone in the family would wake up and see her. She started pulling out a simple tshirt, and Cat was at it again.

"Tori, do you think I'm pretty?" "Yes, Cat, you are. Wait, why did I answer that? Sure, I know she is pretty, but why say that in response." Tori's mind started subliminally answering Cat's subconscious questions/ramblings.

"Tori, you are the most beautiful." "Thank you!"

"Tori, we're friends, right?" "Yes." Do you think we could ever be more?" "Maybe. Wait, WHAT?" Tori freaked out at this one. When did her mind come up with this? Was she attracted to Cat? No, not possible. Cat was one of, if not her best, girl friend. So to want her as a girlfriend. That came out of nowhere.

"I don't deserve you." "Cat, don't say that. Anyone would be lucky to have you. ANYONE."

"I want you Tori." "What do you want?"

"I love you. Stay with me." "Forever, Cat. Or as long as you want me to." Tori started to cry. Her mind was going haywire. What was she doing answering those questions. And more importantly, why answer them the way she did?

Tori left the room. She went downstairs, to the kitchen. She got a glass of milk, and threw it in the microwave for a few moments. Nothing like a glass of warm milk to calm your nerves and help you think.

"Okay, Tori. Get your head on straight. Sure Cat's pretty. And you do care about her. She is one of your best friends. But there is no way, NO WAY, you are attracted to her. And more importantly, there is no way you are gay. You need to let Cat down easy. But, I can't hurt her. Even if I wanted to, I couldn't do it. She is too sweet and innocent to hurt."

Tori sat there, attempting to convince herself of what to do. She knew what would happen at school if somehow it was found out that Cat was having wet dreams about her. And it would be even worse if she accepted it. And even more so if she condoned it, or even returned the favor and started dating her. She needed to get to the bottom of it.

Tori found her way back to her bedroom. Cat was still there, snoring slightly, but still talking away. "She just never stops, even when asleep." "Tori, please. I wanted to ask you something. Would you like to go out sometime?" "A date? Cat, I don't know. Maybe. WAIT? DID I JUST SAY THAT?" Tori decided to wake her up before things went too far. She turned the bedside lamp on, hoping the light would do it. Again, no avail. Looks like she would have to rip the sheets off of her.

When she did, her gaze held for a few moments, before she looked away. There was Cat, completely nude. She had one hand on her clit, slowly rubbing. She was having a wet dream, about Tori, and masturbating to it. Tori looked away, not sure what to do.

xxxxx

Tori awoke on the couch, to the sound of the TV. She looked up, seeing Cat sitting next to her. She jumped back, nearly falling off the couch. Cat chuckled. "Hey, sleepy. Why did you sleep on the couch? There was plenty of room in the bed."

"Why were you having wet dreams about me? And masturbating in your sleep to them. And why were you naked, in my bed?" Tori was shouting in her head, but didn't let anything come out. It was akward, not knowing what to say or how to act around someone who was dreaming about you.

"Oh, I, uh. Well, you see. I, um, well." Tori's mouth couldn't form the words.

"God, Tori. You know how weird you look when you're confused. Its adorable though."

"Oh, god. Why? Not that I hate Cat. And thank you lord that its not Jade. But why not Beck. Or even Andre. I know Robbie does, but, eww, gross. Nevermind." Tori's mind was going in a thousand different directions all at once. "Cat, can I ask you something?"

"Of course, Tori."

"You know what, nevermind." Tori didn't want to bring it up. The more she thought, the more she enjoyed the attention. Sure it was wrong on so many levels to know that you are the object of someone's fantasy and not tell them. And even worse, basking in the lime light of it all. But Tori wasn't sure if she wanted to shoot her down, or leave to possibility open.

"Okay, hehe." Cat didn't know that she had been found out. She didn't know that her deepest secret would soon be revealed. Not about liking Tori. No, everyone at school, except maybe Tori, and Robbie, knew that. The one about her brother. The one that made her subliminally start liking girls.

Tori stared at her, wondering what had happened. If it was all real, and why it happened. And more important, why her. Tori would ask her sooner or later, but now wasn't the best time. The shock of everything was all too real. She didn't want her emotions getting in the way. She wanted to be calm and level headed, so as to get to the bottom of it.

The Saturday was a weird one. Cat acting normal, or at least for her. She didn't know something was wrong. And Tori doing everything possible to keep her from finding out she knew. She avoided eye contact, didn't talk much. She pretty much ignored Cat as much as possible. With any other person, those are signs that something is up. But Cat didn't know how to read signs like that, so she never mentioned it.

Tori finally said good night to Cat, watching as she left. Tori had thought all day about everything. She knew what she needed to do. She had to break it to Cat that she knew, and that she wasn't interested. She had to let her down, but do it gently. Little did she know, Cat was on the verge of breaking, and Tori was the only one who could help.

Okay, first chapter down. Please review. I have the basic plot of this story already figured out in my head, so I should be able to write and publish new chapters regularly. Not sure how long yet, probably in the 15 chapter range, but it might be short, or a few long, depending on certain things I am thinking of keeping/omitting.