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Hi! This is a letter that Usagi sends to a person after breaking up.
IT'S OVER!
This doesn't make much sense right? I feel I'm going to fall apart every second that passes by. It's like a detox process, it just requires time. I just need some time to cure my own wounds and let him go. It's not easy but it is what it is. I just need some time, I guess. You are not going to call right? I'm not going to call. Love until it hurts, because this love is just killing me. You have your own life, whether I like it or not, you love her. You are with her and I'm just the odd thing out in this story. I must stay here I don't want to go there. I deserve so much more than this. I deserve the world because I'm not bad at this. It's just the first day. I've might have fallen but I can stand up once more. I may be broken but not enough. It's the time to show how much I've grown up and how much stronger I am. It's time to show that I'm strong enough to deal with this. Because I can deal with this. I just need to forget you little by little. I just need to get over you. You never took me too serious, you know. But I guess it's over now and everything will make sense soon. I'm not going to lie and pretend that this doesn't hurt because what hurts the most is your stupid silence. That silence that shows my own insignificance. That silence that shows I was never important for you. A silence that shows you can live without me, even though I can't. I need to be happy once again. Again this is like a detox process. Forever was just a dream. I suppose I deserve this. I'm the one who insisted and pretended it was easy. I allowed too much and frankly I'm tired trying. I'm done trying. All my hopes are done by now. All my dreams have gone and vanished. All my hopes have disappeared with time and let me this big huge hole that doesn't let me breath anymore. Cause I've died the day you left me and it's hard to understand why after so much love I don't even deserve a call just to say goodbye. I deserve a good bye but I'm not going to look for it. Sorry but I guess I'm not strong enough yet. I need to cry. Crying is good sometimes. It helps you to feel better. I feel a huge hole inside my heart. And this feeling is growing every time and doesn't let me breathe. Suddenly a feeling makes me weaker. I avoided this feeling over and over for the past years, trying to be reasonable but this time I opened my heart once more. I guess I just took a chance but I can“t pretend it doesn't hurt. I've opened up my heart for nothing. Cause all I have after the party has finished is that horrible emptiness. That horrible thing that you feel when you know you lost. Sometimes I just wish I could stop feeling.
IT'S OVER!
