I own nothing… It's just a drabble I wrote before an exam last month. It's also the first one I post, so… try and be gentle :)

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Sometimes, I can feel your eyes on me… or maybe it's just wistful thinking. It's hard… the most difficult things is repressing feelings right after you've learned how to feel again. It's hard seeing you, wishing to touch and comfort you, caressing your face, and not being able to do that. Every second I spend looking at you comes with the painful awareness that you, my love, will never be mine for you are hers and only hers… lost in her charms, in her ebony gaze…

But no… I won't allow myself to get hurt again. That's why I'm stepping away from you… I'm stepping away from my heart so that it won't betray me again. So that I won't break along with it when the time will come for you to go on with your life, leaving us…the team… me… behind. I'd rather not feel anything than keep that burning pain inside me again. I lost you once… I know, you weren't dead… but you weren't with me either. Not like we used to be… True, we had already fallen apart before that, but still… it broke my heart watching you fade. And I don't want to go back there.