A/N: Just a short, messed up, angsty, yaoi, depressing one-shot. It's pretty short and makes NO sense! So enjoy~

This idea popped into my head when I heard the song 'Hello' by Evanescence for the first time. I really recommend you to listen to it. :3

Told in Kenny's POV.


I've forgotten who I am. All the things that used to make me who I was are gone.

Just like you are.

I know who I used to be. The memories haven't faded, haven't even begun to dull from my mind. They hang around every corner, a hollow ache in my chest, waiting to consume me.

The pain isn't there. The ghost of you is.

I remember how much life used to matter. Even the little things used to fill me with joy, simply because I was there to experience it. Lying in a sea of grass, I would simply feel the heat of the sun and pray that I could feel it again the next day. And the next, and the next- I didn't want to die.

Now I could care less.

The peaceful wave of the suns rays have changed, now setting my soul ablaze as I stare up at the sky. Endless blue skies seem so much smaller now. Fields of grass have dimmed to nothing compared to your eyes.

Your beautiful green eyes... I miss them. I miss you. Everything about you, from the simple way you look to the complex things that make you you. And any way that I could try to describe you would put shame to who you really are. There are no words. Because you are simply... you.

Kyle. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for hurting you. For walking away when you needed me most. You opened your soul to me, changing my life forever by simply becoming apart of it. And I thought I had done the same for you. But now... I'm not sure.

I don't know anything anymore.

I don't know what I was thinking; I don't know what I am thinking.

What are you thinking?

Are you thinking of me? Are you remembering all the moments we spent together? Because I can't forget. Not a single moment.

And I won't ever forget.

But I want you to. I want you to move on, find who was truly right for you. I wasn't, and I knew that.

Every moment that we were together, every single beautiful and amazing moment, was stealing time away from the future that you should have. The future with someone great that you deserve to have.

I don't deserve that kind of future, and I sure as hell don't deserve you.

I know that you're hurting. But you'll get better. The tears will stop flowing, and your eyes will open to a whole new kind of world. A better one. The one that I had stolen away from you for too long.

But I'm done. Don't stop to find me, and don't you dare follow me to where I'm going. You are so much better than me, Kyle. Don't take the easy way out.

So I guess... This is goodbye. To you, to me, and mostly, to us.

I only want you to know... That I really did love you.

Goodbye