A Bridge That's Burning
Written By: writingforthemoney (Tied) 1/5/07
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot. 'A Bridge That's Burning' is by Julie Roberts.
Summary: She won't allow her self to step on a burning bridge, that's why she hung the phone up in tears after telling him her hearts deepest secret.
A/N: ANGST!!! ANGST!!! ANGST!!! And the song isn't exactly in the correct order.
You know I almost didn't answer
But I just had to see
If you were really still with her
Cause this won't work until you're free
Looking at the display of my cell phone I sighed deeply, not knowing whether to answer the ringing or not. I hadn't yet admitted it to myself, but I thought somewhere deep down, I'd always known. Telling him was something that wouldn't happen, and couldn't happen; that is as long as he was with her. This is the reason, I suppose, that I answered the phone; to see if they were still together.
Of course he never had any intention of anything I hoped he might. He didn't feel for me the way I felt for him, or the way he felt for her. But I couldn't help the flicker of hope that came every time his form could be seen walking my way, or every time the caller ID read his name.
Sighing I spoke into the receiver, "Brennan."
"Hey Bones, what are you doing?"
'Thinking about you and me…her no where in the picture.' I thought, before voicing a lie, "Trying to get some work done, why?"
I heard him chuckle, "As always."
I won't step on a bridge that's burning
I won't dare to cross that line
Don't get me wrong, it's not you
It's just something I can't do
I won't step on a bridge that's burning
There was a long pause; I wasn't for sure if he was even on the other end. "Booth?"
"Yeah?"
I rolled my eyes, "Is there a particular reason why you called? Do we have a case?" I hoped not, I didn't want to spend anymore time with them tonight.
"No, no case. I just called to see if you were hungry. I was stopping by Wong Foo's, wondering if you wanted me to bring you some?"
I snorted a silent laugh, That would mean you'd have to come up to my apartment. That would mean that knowing you, you'd want to stay and eat with me. That would mean that knowing myself, I'd want and let you stay with me until way into the night, as we always lose track of the time when we're together. All that would mean that, no matter how hungry I am, and not only for food; that, no, you couldn't bring me Wong Foo's. The thoughts I wasn't able to voice to him.
"Bones? Wong Foo's?"
His voice broke me from my reverie, "Uhm," I sighed for the thousandth time that night, "No thanks Booth, not that hungry." I lied.
"Oh," I tried not to let my heart flutter at the disappointment I heard in his voice, "Well, I just rented some movies, wanna watch one with me. I can bring my portable DVD player, since I'm guessing you still haven't gotten a TV." He laughed.
Must be another lonely night
No, I won't let you stop by
You can't convince me to give in
Don't even ask me that again
My heart wasn't acting rational, my head was barely being logical; both saying that watching a movie wouldn't be that bad, but then my heart tinged with a slight pain…She had to work tonight that's why he's asking. It's not because he wants to spend time with me…He's lonely, and I'm always alone. How thoughtful Booth! I controlled my cynicism in my answer, "Booth, I really need to finish this," I paused trying to think of something, "paperwork."
"You're lying," I could almost hear the charm smile; I just knew he would be giving me if I were with him because he knew that with that smile I'd do just about anything he asked. I was glad that I wasn't with him, for he'd be coming with me in a heartbeat, and we both knew it.
"I'm busy Booth! I don't have time to watch movies, which I probably won't even understand. You won't have any fun, or be able to enjoy the movies, what with my constant questions and analytical mind." I tried giving him the best excuse.
I heard him sigh, "Bones I know for a fact that you don't have any work, tonight." He would now have his charm smile cocked to one side in a smirk.
"What makes you think that I'm not working?"
I asked the question; I should've seen the answer coming.
"Cam told me!" He said with a voice of victory; never realizing that that was the roll of the die that cost him to lose the game.
I won't step on a bridge that's burning
I won't dare to cross that line
Don't get me wrong, it's not you
It's just something I can't do
I won't step on a bridge that's burning
I was … furious … Cam told him! "Fine I'm not working." I resigned, "But I still don't want Wong Foo's. I still don't want movies!" I took a deep breath, not even realizing what was coming out of my mouth until it was too late, "Go find Cam! See if she wants your company!"
"Bones!"
"What Booth!?" I said a little too sharply, I suppose.
"What's your problem!? We always eat Sid's and watch movies! What's with you tonight!?"
I had had it, I couldn't hold it back any longer, "No matter how rocky it may be, you and Cam have a relationship! So stop being friendly with me!"
I could tell he was a little shocked that I knew of their relationship. "How long have you known?" His voice calmer and quieter; and if I let my heart read into it, it told me that he seemed guilty and regretful.
My voice was also calm and quiet, but my attitude still rested in the same spot, "You may be the people person but I know you Seeley!"
Seeley! Where the hell did that come from? I scolded myself for the use of his first name. Keep it a little bit professional!
I won't step on a bridge that's burning
And I won't dare to cross that line
Don't get me wrong, it's not you
It's just something I can't do
I won't step on a bridge that's burning
"Listen I'm sorry I never told you, I just… I don't know why I didn't tell you…wait, what makes you think it's rocky?"
"Booth, you call me almost every night wanting to eat Wong Foo's or watch movies. If you weren't having trouble, you'd be calling her, not me."
A long silence followed, only to be disrupted by his questioning voice that also ignored my explaination, "Why do you want me to stop being nice and friendly with you?"
I snorted and until I heard it come out of my mouth I thought I was only thinking it, "It causes false hope."
"False hope? Hope for what?" His voice, I couldn't decide if it was mocking me or really knew what was going on in my head.
I sighed, "I've got to go. See you tomorrow Booth."
Don't get me wrong, it's not you
It's just something I can't do
I won't step on a bridge that's burning
I had my finger on the 'end' button when I heard, "Temperance!"
I had figured out that that was his secret to getting things out of me, especially when he mixed my name with a charm smile formed on his lips. "What?" I answered quietly.
"I give you false hope? For what? How?"
Believe me this ain't no fun
Waking up with just the sun
Though when you're still with someone
I let out a deep breath, rolling my neck letting it land on the couch cushion behind my head, as I closed my eyes and answered, "Yes you give me false hope. You call me. You bring Chinese food, sometimes without notice. You rent movies. You patiently explain the pop-culture references. You let me hug you when I get scared. You're my 'knight in FBI standard issue body armour' as Angela says." I swallowed, "And I like it. All of it...and I think…I think…" I couldn't breath, "I'm … I'm falling in love with you." After the word 'falling' came out of my mouth, I knew that I had let my voice drop. He couldn't hear the most important part of the confession.
I heard his breathing catch, as if sensing almost hoping I'd said certain words. "You think you're what, Bones?"
"I'm falling in love with you Booth!"
"Tempe…" He'd never called me that before, I felt a tear crawl down my cheek at the name my brother had first given me.
I won't step on a bridge that's burning
And I won't dare to cross that line
Don't get me wrong, it's not you
It's just something I can't do
I won't step on a bridge that's burning
"As long as you don't try bringing me dinner and movies, I'm fine. We are partners first, friends second. And that's that." I paused in an attempt at keeping my tears from falling; it was no use. "You have Parker. I have World War II victims." The tears fell faster and I could tell they were having an affect on my voice. "You have Cam. I have Iron Age skeletons. You have a life. I have," I paused to laugh silently, "I have bones." I swallowed hard, "Go to Cam. Tell her to quit working tonight. Tell her you want to watch movies with her, and eat with her." I couldn't believe I was doing this. But maybe he'd realize that when Cam wouldn't quit work, as I knew she wouldn't, that I was the one he needed, not her. "She's your girlfriend, not me. And until that's rectified, I can't do this anymore." I had to pause, before my tears became even more evident in my voice, "I won't do this anymore. I won't step on a burning bridge." I wiped the tears that where streaming down my face and pushed the red 'end' button.
You know I almost didn't answer
But I just had to see
THEND
Please tell me what you think! I realize that she's a little out of character, but I liked the song and it seemed like a good way to show her feelings. And yes I do like writing song fics, if anyone has noticed, I write a a lot of them... and I have plenty of other ieas for song fics, so get ready for more.
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