She looked out her window , into the snow as the winter day chilled her to the bone.She sat on her bed straight afterward ,three tears slowly floating down her face. It was four dyas ago, going on five that she had seen him or talked to him.Dispite her efforts she sat there always thinking he had forgoten her and was ever coming back.

She coughed violantly,her toncils hurting with every breath and exhale. As the sickness slowly came over her , it had devoured her mind.

Everyday she sat there in the morning, pleading to herself to talk to him.Stop coughing this pain,stop torchering herself. Everyday she wondered if it was just better off never ment to be.

As the thoughts came rushing threw her body ,more soft tears ran down her face as she realized he would never speak. She coughed again, hoping blood would come up or that she would melt away.This pain tore at her heart day and night.

She thought he would heal her after her last break up but all he was doing was worsening it to a point it was harder to breathe then anything.

She fell into a deep and restless sleep, rolling abck and fourth as tears even rolled out while she slept. She was in no way alowed to avoid the pain.

She sat up after three hours of sleep and had a coughing fit. She dragged her nails across her throat and felt a soft neaklace around it.She grabbed it then instantly let go to try and feel no more pain at all. She rolled out of bed.Her throat sore like a bird that had a beak ajustment.

She was sick and cold.She was becoming numb without him.She held on to nothing to support her anymore. He never said "I love you" anymore on the phone, he ignored it. He seemed to ignore alot and it was a horrible feeling. Like he was actually trying to avoid her.Hoping she would actually dissappire. She couldn't help but think of all the girls her would love to be with how many he wanted to date.

She looked around and flipped her door over and clawed at his name written on this door.

She cried turning every song that was held in her heart for him, every one that he didn't know. She was slowly tearing apart.


She waited....hours pasted by and she coudl only wait for him to return, but, it was to long to know if her would or wouldn't.