I can feel his breathe against my skin and his hand on my stomach area. It makes me relax and it makes me smile. I hear him whisper " I love you"
and automatically I whisper " I love you more".
I can feel his hands moving up onto my arms and he rubs my arms. I know he does that because he is reassuring himself that I am still there.
In the dark somehow our lips meet and I can feel his soft lips against mine. When we break away I am sad because I wish more than ever that we can stay like that forever. Then he kisses my neck and I feel all of my body relax. I run my hand down his chest and I can feel him relaxing against my hands.
I put my head on his chest and I can feel his soft skin against my ear. I can hear his heart beating and the longer I lie on his chest, the faster his heart beats. I close my eyes and remember the first time I had heard his heart beat.
Under the blankets our hands automatically meet like so many times before. I can feel him kiss the top of my head and it feels soft against my hair. He starts stroking my hair and while he does it I close my eyes and wish a thousand times over that time would stop and stay like that forever. In the moment , I run my hand up and down his chest and I can feel every scar he has on his chest. We both don't want to speak because we don't want to break the moment and the feelings that we are both feeling.
I hear him mutter "I promise" in a soft tone and I think about a long time ago when he promised never to hurt me.
In respond I mutter "I know. I missed you."
I remember how I had almost lost him because of my quick judgement. I thank myself a million times over that I didn't lose him.
I open my eyes and I realize I am crying. I move off him to hide my tears but I didn't hide them quick enough because he speaks to me in a whisper soft voice, he asks, " why are you crying? Sweetheart." Almost in reply to his question I press my lips to his neck and I kiss it gently to tell him that he is all mine. I can feel his neck relaxing and I know that he is getting my message. His hand reaches my face and brings it up and kisses my lips. I could feel a thousand emotions flood to me at once and at the same time I close my eyes. At that moment I feel his lips move up my face and rest on my closed eyes and kiss my tears away.
I move my head down to rest it on his chest and as I move down my lips rest against his neck and I softly kiss him.
I hear him whisper, " I wished so many times."
I remember how we had talked so many times and each time he had to resist holding me, I lay my head on his chest and I close my eyes. With my eyes closed I remember the day that just went by and I'm happy because I know he is all mine now. In my mind I see flashes of our wedding and I remember how he had looked when he seen me come down the aisle. I remember how he had said I do and how we looked when we danced close together in the middle of the dance floor. I remember how heavenly he had smelled close to me and how he had tenderly held my hand when we had danced.
When I open my eyes I realize he had started rubbing my arms and saying, "everything will be all right now." When I look at his chest I realize I had been crying and this time tears of happyness. I kiss his lips softly and linger there to tell him that I am glad that he is mine and that I will always be his. Then I lay my head back on his chest and I fall asleep humming to him in his arms where I belong. I know that there are going to be good and bad times but we will get through because we love each other and we will always no matter what.
