A/N: Here are some of the brain-crumbs left over on the cutting-room floor of Project "Don't Go." It's a one-shot unless someday I decide it's a tangent I want to follow. For now, it's just a peek inside Rory's subconscious. It's ridiculously tiny, but I hope you like it.
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Until You Came Along
Until you came along, I was fine. My life was in order. I knew where I was going, what I was going to do. But, you came along and made me fall in love with you - you and your crazy hair, and your flashing eyes that saw right through me, and your smirk that I had to unlock…I had to see behind, because it drove me crazy. You and your books, and your mind - your spectacular mind that put notes in those margins…things that I'd never thought of, that made my mind light on fire, because maybe I'd never thought them BEFORE, but now it was all I could ever think when I read those words. I could pick up a book from the library, read the words, and swear your notes were there in the margins - hear your voice saying them! Do you have any idea the level of insanity that drove me to! Do you have any idea how many times I laid on the floor of my room, sobbing, because I couldn't get you and your incredible thoughts and your gravelly voice out of my head! Did you know that I sat in the library at Yale, after they closed, actually hid there, sitting on the floor between the shelves, praying nobody would find me, because I'd started reading A Farewell to Arms and the tears came pouring down and I couldn't stop them no matter how hard I tried. All I could do was make sure my tears were silent…make sure they were silent even as I crumpled to the floor…made sure they were silent so no one would come and find me…and I was trapped…I couldn't face the stares of students or librarians with my tear-stained face. I couldn't face their pity…so I sat there for hours, waiting for closing, for darkness, so I could find some way out of there and back to my dorm, back to my bed, where I could pull the covers over my head and not let anyone see.
