A/N: All characters and most storylines belong to Bioware, except Aida, my femShep. This is a sequel to Eulogy: A Love Story. Although it may be possible to appreciate the story without reading Eulogy, I think it is better to read that first.

Thanks to all who read, followed, favorite and reviewed Eulogy. I wouldn't have been able to finish that without you guys. I had fun writing that because of you. I know we will have a blast with this too.


Prologue

All the privilege I claim for my own sex...is that of loving longest, when existence or when hope is gone

-Jane Austen


To: baysider2151

The roses were lovely today. I know: I've been getting them for months now. Though I have no way of sending you a thank you note, at least I know you are thinking of me from time to time. Since the delivery is coming less and less often, I'll just assume that you're busy.

It's fine.

I'm just writing this to let you know how much I've missed you, and that I'll always think of Ilos in quiet moments like these.

SEND.

I heard James, who has been doing pull-ups, stop, but said nothing, before resuming. He must be getting used to my weirdness now, and of course one of them involves sending emails that would never reach its recipient. Thank the Alliance Detention's strict extranet monitoring.

First off, I'm actually glad that my emails would never reach him. Because what I write are actually things that I could never tell him.

Secondly, if I piss off the extranet warden enough, I may get to see a different part of the building.

Lastly, this is a lot better than thinking about the war that's coming, and what I should be doing out there, instead of sitting here typing silly unsendable love letters. Initially I had to stop thinking about him because I had to. Because I had a galaxy to save.

Well, this galaxy still needs saving, but the more I try not to think of him, the more I realize that everything in it carries me back to him, especially now that he sends me my birthday flowers.

He is thinking of me, and I'm okay with that.

James went out. I started writing again.

The cycle of the universe starts and ends with you. It ended when I lost you. It will begin when I find you again.

SEND

James just came back, and said that the Defence Committee wants to see me. I should go.


A/N2: No Kaidan here. He'll be narrating again in the first chapter.